I was impatient and wanted to go home directly. Luo Xiangdongfei wanted to take me to have a meal before going back. I was also absent-minded while eating. Luo Xiangdong saw this and said, "What do you have to worry about? The child will be born soon. Can we not afford it or what?"
I can't describe what it feels like. After a while he said: "Are you too hasty?"
Luo Xiangdong said: "What's too urgent? We have known each other for two years and been together for one year."
After saying that, he glanced at the ring on the ring finger of my left hand and said provocatively: "You took all my rings. Do you still want to remarry?"
I gouged him out. He doesn't understand the anxiety in my heart.
Many women have dreams of getting married and having children, but I only dream of getting married. As for children... I haven't really liked children since I was a child.
And I always feel that I have just turned twenty-five and I still have a long way to go in life. Get married and have children now. Then will the next few decades of my life revolve around my children
I have friends who got married early and had children, but they all expressed it to me to varying degrees. Regret it.
You shouldn't have to ask yourself to become a mother so early. It’s not that children are bad, it’s just that children will hinder your steps.
Maybe I'm still selfish. I don't want to stop my life too early, and I don't want to start focusing on my husband and children so early.
Luo Xiangdong gave me a pair of spicy potato slices with chopsticks. He tapped the edge of the plate lightly and said to me, "Don't think about it. Eat first. Maybe you're not pregnant, but you just feel uncomfortable in your stomach due to being a vegetarian?"
I said: "Bless you to be open-mouthed today."
Luo Xiangdong didn't say anything else, he just brought me food from time to time.
This meal was destined to be tasteless. After driving home, as soon as the door opened, I immediately changed my shoes and ran to the bathroom carrying a shopping bag from the drugstore.
This is the first time in my life that I have used a pregnancy test stick. From opening the box to taking out the instruction manual and reading it carefully, the whole process is comparable to the foreign language exam back then. It is also the first time that I find Chinese so difficult to understand.
I was afraid that I might have read it wrongly, so I read it carefully several times to make sure it was correct, and then I started to sit on the toilet to prepare.
Luo Xiangdong walked to the bathroom door at some point, and his voice suddenly came: "How's it going?"
I was startled and couldn't help but said: "It will happen later."
Luo Xiangdong stood outside the door and did not leave. I carefully followed the instructions step by step. I picked up the pregnancy test stick in my hand and laid it sideways. After waiting for about ten seconds, the test paper began to slowly smudge, and then at a certain stage, a purple horizontal bar appeared in the middle of the test paper.
I hold the instruction manual in my left hand and compare it with what it says, horizontal bars, horizontal bars... one, and one is negative.
My eyes glanced at the middle of the pregnancy test stick again. At this time, the test paper had been smudged to the four-fifths position, and another horizontal bar was suddenly exposed there.
I sat on the toilet, turned over the instructions carefully and seriously, and almost read through the instructions.
The above explanation with pictures and texts: Two lines, no matter one is deep, one is shallow or two are deep, as long as there are two, it is positive.
Positive... I'm pregnant? !
Luo Xiangdong waited for a while at the door, then he simply reached out and opened the door: "Why is there no movement?"
I still sat on the toilet with my pants half off, but I had thrown away the instructions and pregnancy test stick. Looking up at Luo Xiangdong, I had tears in my eyes within two seconds.
He asked me again: "What's wrong? Are you pregnant?"
I cried loudly, 'Wow'.
Luo Xiangdong stepped in nervously, looked at me and said, "Don't cry, what's wrong? Are you pregnant?"
I cried and shouted: "It's over, I'm pregnant..."
Luo Xiangdong pulled me up from the toilet, helped me put on my pants, held me with one hand, and wiped my tears with the other hand. He said, "I'm pregnant, I'm pregnant. Why are you crying? Stop crying. It's said that a pregnant woman's emotions will affect the fetus."
When I heard this, I wanted to cry, but I bit my lip subconsciously to hold back.
Luo Xiangdong looked at me and said with pained eyes, "Come on, show me."
We now live in a duplex apartment of 70 square meters, and the bathroom area is limited. Luo Xiangdong took me out of the bathroom and led me to the master bedroom.
I sat on the edge of the bed, still unable to get over the shock of pregnancy.
Luo Xiangdong took a tissue to wipe my tears and persuaded me: "You don't want to give me a baby or what? It's the first time I saw a woman being pregnant. It scares a woman like this. It's not like we can't give birth now. I think the time has come." , otherwise you won’t be able to survive after two years? How can anyone else do this for you?”
I understand, I understand everything Luo Xiangdong said. It's just that he doesn't understand that a woman only needs the courage to love someone to change from a girl to a woman, but to change from a woman to a mother... I'm not mentally prepared for this yet.
I fell to bed, I didn't dare to cry loudly, but the tears kept flowing out from the corners of my eyes and I couldn't stop them.
Luo Xiangdong sat on the edge of the bed and coaxed me for a long time. Seeing that I was silent, he was silent for a long time, and then asked aloud: "Then what do you want? If you really don't want to have a baby, don't you want this child?"
His tone was inquiring, waiting for what I meant.
I choked and replied, "Isn't that killing?"
Luo Xiangdong said: "You still know? Seeing you like this, I really thought you didn't want it anymore."
I moved my head to Luo Xiangdong's lap, resting on his leg. I frowned and said, "Xiangdong... I'm scared."
Luo Xiangdong stretched out his hand to caress my face and said softly: "What are you afraid of? I'm here."
This was really sudden news. It can be said to be one of the top five, no, the top three events that have hit me in the past twenty-five years of my life.
If Luo Xiangdong hadn't told me calmly and calmly that I had to have this child because it was his, otherwise I really didn't know what to do.
After being sluggish in bed for nearly an hour, I suddenly turned over and sat up.
Luo Xiangdong asked me: "What are you doing?"
I said: "Try again."
I took another pregnancy test stick and walked into the bathroom. A minute later, Luo Xiangdong opened the door and saw me pulling up my pants with a disappointed look on my face.
He said calmly: "Or two bars?"
I nodded.
Luo Xiangdong immediately took out his mobile phone. After a while, I heard him say: "Mom, let me tell you something."
I turned my head and looked at Luo Xiangdong. After Luo Xiangdong glanced at me, as if he was afraid that I would regret it, he turned around and continued: "Zijin is pregnant... Well, I just took a pregnancy test and it was both. "
When I heard the conversation between Luo Xiangdong and Guan Lin, I knew it was over.
If my pregnancy alarms my two parents, no matter which side it is, the child in my belly will definitely be kept.
In fact, I'm not a cruel person, not to mention that this child belongs to me and Luo Xiangdong. I just can't accept it for a while. I'm going to be a mother.
Luo Xiangdong was afraid that I would regret saying that I didn't want children, so he acted preemptively and vented his anger on Guan Lin.
After he talked to Guan Lin for a few words, he handed me the phone and said, "My mother asked you to pick it up."
I took the phone anxiously, my attitude immediately changed, and I called out: "Auntie."
There was still the dullness of crying in his voice.
Guan Lin's voice came from the phone. She already had a good attitude towards me, but now she said even more enthusiastically and nervously yet softly: "Zijin, pregnancy is a happy thing. Xiangdong said you are emotionally unstable. Listen. As for aunt, you must not cry. It is not good for the baby if a pregnant woman cries.”
I suppressed the soreness in my throat, said 'hmm', and then said, "I understand, auntie."
Guan Lin couldn't hide her nervousness and excitement on the phone. She said to me: "Zijin, please prepare with Xiangdong. Your uncle doesn't know about this yet. He will be very happy to know. You guys wait for my call." , I’ll contact the hospital and pick you up later. We have to go to the hospital for a good check-up.”
Guan Lin spoke vigorously and resolutely, but I didn't dare to say no, so I had to agree.
After hanging up the phone, I fell headlong into ** again. Luo Xiangdong immediately came from behind and hugged me, mumbling: "Ancestor, be careful, you are not alone now."
Listening to what he usually said to me easily, I couldn't help but frown and said, "Okay, Luo Xiangdong, you only have children in your heart, right?"
Luo Xiangdong said: "What are you talking about? I feel sorry for you first, and secondly for the child."
I said, "When I have a child, I will be my ancestor. Why didn't you call me ancestor before?"
Luo Xiangdong said: "You never said you wanted to hear me call you this before. If you had told me, I would have called you."
I don’t know why, but I felt very anxious and played with Luo Xiangdong for a long time. Luo Xiangdong went out of his way to grind with me patiently. No matter what I said or did, he would just follow me.
Not long after, Luo Xiangdong's cell phone rang again. He put his arm around me with one hand, picked up the cell phone with the other, and said, "It's my dad."
When I heard it was Luo Zhenye, I immediately stopped like a mouse seeing a cat. I sat cross-legged next to him, not daring to be like him.
Luo Xiangdong answered the phone and said, "Dad."
Because we were very close, I clearly heard Luo Zhenye’s voice on the phone, with unconcealed excitement and even cheering: “Xiangdong, your mother said that Zijin is pregnant?”
Luo Xiangdong replied calmly: "Yes."
"Have you been to the hospital for a checkup?"
"No, I just took a pregnancy test at home."
Luo Zhenye said: "Then what are you waiting for? Get ready quickly. Your mother and I will go out right away and pick her up to the hospital for a checkup."
Luo Xiangdong said: "Which hospital should we go to? I'll take her there."
Luo Zhenye said: "That's okay, let's meet at the hospital. Ask Zijin to wear more clothes when she goes out. It's cold and windy outside now, so don't let her get caught in the wind... "
Luo Xiangdong responded: "Okay, I understand, hang up first."
After he hung up the phone, he looked at me and raised the corners of his lips and said, "Now not only do I call you ancestor, but my dad will have to call you ancestor in the future."
I said angrily: "Go to the other side."
Luo Xiangdong smiled and hugged me, but he didn't use much strength. I heard his voice full of softness and warmth, saying word by word: "Zijin, we are going to have a child of our own."