People often say to me, Liang Zijin, you are so enviable.
At first I would say something politely, but as time goes by and I talk more, sometimes I think about it and realize that I am indeed quite enviable.
I was born in a not-so-big city. My father is the deputy director of the First Bureau and my mother is a junior high school teacher. My family is not rich, but I have always had food and drink since I was a child. And I can always use the latest mobile phone, no matter what it is. It's a few apples.
I studied "Key Point" since I was a child, and followed the "Key Point" all the way to university. In my freshman year of high school, I successfully caught up with the top figure in the science class and my first love, Chen Wenhang. We have been in love for seven years, and our love is as strong as gold. And I fully believe that we will stay together forever.
So my life can be summed up in one sentence, which is what is often called a winner in life - but these ended three days before I graduated from college.
I still feel ridiculous talking about it now. The reason is that I just got the last scholarship before graduating from the school and I was thinking about going back to the house I rented off campus and paying the rent. But I accidentally discovered this time period at home. My boyfriend Chen Wenhang, who shouldn’t be at home, said that he was too tired to catch up on sleep at home because he was helping my best friend Zhang Xinwei write a paper.
The conscience of heaven and earth, I believed it at that time.
It’s just that I don’t know why, maybe it was some mistake, I took out my mobile phone and dialed Zhang Xinwei’s number, and then I heard the ringtone of my mobile phone ringing from inside my big closet.
I even thought about whether Zhang Xinwei's cell phone was left with us and happened to be placed in the closet by Chen Wenhang. But such thoughts finally ended when Chen Wenhang stood up in a panic, looked at me with an almost frightened look, and said in a trembling voice: "Zi Jin...".
He reached out to hold my hand, but I suddenly pushed him away, turned around and staggered out.
It turns out that I'm not a fool. Even I can't lie to myself with the excuse that my phone was left in the closet.
I ran back to the dormitory from outside the school. I hid in the bathroom and cried loudly. When I thought about the scene in the rental house, I started to feel sick and retched uncontrollably. Dong Jianan, who was sleeping with me, said with a surprised look on his face: "Zijin, Are you pregnant?"
Xu Lu is the best person to me besides Zhang Xinwei. She understands me after all. She immediately said to Dong Jianan: "I haven't slept with Chen Renzhao. Where did the child come from? Can she be a single egg?"
Dong Jianan pursed his lips and said with a meaningful expression: "They have been dating for seven years..."
I listened, not knowing whether to cry or laugh. Yes, seven years, from the beginning of high school to the graduation of college. When I was in high school, some people suspected that I was not a virgin. After all, Chen Wenhang and I were in love, and we were both pretty good-looking. How could it be possible that a talented man, a beautiful woman, a lonely man, and a widowed woman had nothing to do for so long
But there really was nothing to do. When we were in high school, we were young and timid. Sometimes we didn’t dare to even think about it, let alone do it. When I got older, Chen Wenhang also mentioned it intentionally or unintentionally, but I made it clear that my virginity is only for my husband, so we have always been "formalistic" during the four years of college and have never gone beyond the limits.
We agreed that after graduating from college, we would get the certificate immediately. Once we get the certificate, we will be a legal couple.
Legally married couple... When I think of Chen Wenhang's expression when he said this to me, I feel so damn sick, and I start to retching again as I think about it.
He lay in the dormitory like a corpse for three days. During this period, his cell phone was turned off and no one was allowed to see him. I didn't eat anything, I didn't even drink anything, except wine.
Finally one day when I was paralyzed in my bed like mud, Xu Lu opened the mosquito net and pulled me up, loudly saying: "Zijin, wake up quickly, you are going to give a speech at the graduation party today!"
I even gave a speech on stage, and I almost forgot my last name.