The school bell of S University rang, and soon, the students rushed out of the teaching building like a tidal wave, and ran to the cafeteria in twos and threes.
Looking at them is like seeing my own self a few years ago. Following on the tail of the army of students, Hai Ruo and her new teaching assistant discussed something as they walked. The two said goodbye to each other at a fork in the road and walked in two different directions.
After Xu Jing fled from Hai Ruo's side in a hurry a few years ago, this was her face to face again.
"Hey, it's Xiao Jing." As soon as he looked up and saw her, Hai Ruo naturally burst into a pleasant smile, without the slightest falsification.
Xu Jing opened his mouth and found that he was speechless, silently watching Hai Ruo walk slowly over.
"I feel like I haven't seen you for a long time, how are you doing in the past few years." Hai Ruo was wearing a dark long skirt, a small shawl full of white lace, and a large coffee bag. When the black cat in the bag heard Hai Ruo's voice, he raised his head alertly.
Sure enough, a lot of times, it's just a matter of aura, and what should be hated will still be hated. Seeing Dongdong baring his teeth at her, Xu Jing made a face at him in his heart.
"I... had a good time." Xu Jing was finally able to smile and said to Hai Ruo heartlessly, "I'm so hungry, Hai Ruo, I want to eat your curry rice."
Hai Ruo, who was still a little worried that they would get along awkwardly, breathed a sigh of relief and joked, "Then I'll add a lot of carrots."
In fact, Xu Jing wanted to come back to see Hai Ruo three or four years ago, but a kind of melancholy similar to the nostalgia stopped her. Every time she returned to S University, she would subconsciously walk around the apartment where Hai Ruo lived. lock up.
Subconsciously, I want to "encounter" with Hai Ruo inadvertently, and then... Then what? Since he couldn't think of the development he might want later, every time Xu Jing saw Hai Ruo, he would subconsciously hide himself.
Until two years ago, she mustered up her courage and knocked on the door of Hai Ruo's apartment.
She knocked for a long, long time. Finally, Hai Ruo's neighbor happened to see her and told her that her Hai Ruo had moved out of here.
Where have you moved to? The neighbors are a little forgetful, and they can't remember anything when they pat their heads.
I didn't see her again on campus until today.
"My phone number has not been changed, why didn't you call me?" Hai Ruo put on her home clothes, tied her hair high, Dong Dong jumped out of her bag, and sat still far away from Xu Jing. the other side of the sofa. Seeing that Hai Ruo's new home was completely different from the style she had been familiar with for three years, Xu Jing felt a little overwhelmed.
"Oh, this was left to me after my aunt passed away." Seeing Xu Jing looking at the furnishings in the room thoughtfully, Hai Ruo took the initiative to explain, "Isn't it very foreign? She likes this feeling, so I don't. Change."
"Sorry." Xu Jing didn't even know what stupid words he was talking about.
"Pfft," Hai Ruo laughed, "you still haven't changed at all."
Xu Jing looked at Hai Ruoxiao's soft appearance and said, "You too, haven't changed at all."
After all, look at each other and smile.
Dongdong looked at the woman who had disappeared from their lives for a long time today and naturally blended into the atmosphere around Hai Ruo like a continuation from a break point, and couldn't help but feel a little unhappy again.
"Dongdong, your favorite curry rice, you can add a little salt today." Hai Ruo half squatted down and used the tip of her little finger to compare a little bit. He was easily appeased, shaking his head to ask The sea is smooth.
After he was ten years old, he became more and more like a real kitten. He was very easy to act like a spoiled child, and Xu Jing, who was watching, couldn't accept it for a while.
"You and I haven't changed, but this cat has changed." Xu Jing turned a corner of his eyes, looked at Dongdong, and looked at each other with sparks, "No, he's still the same, possessive. Just like your boyfriend."
"That's right." Hai Ruosheng came over with a good meal, "Yesterday I met an acquaintance who didn't want to say a few words."
That's because you're already so hungry that your stomach hurts, and Dongdong meows in protest, not because you feel bad for you.
"So, what's the matter when you come back this time?" After eating, Hai Ruo chatted with Xu Jing as before, and unconsciously brought out the tone of asking Xu Jing's thesis if he had improved.
After all, she was the first student she brought, and the one she spent the most time with.
Also, one of the students who feels the most complicated.
"Well, when I was studying from Mr. Wu, I worked as an editor in a literary magazine," Xu Jing put down the table and chopsticks earnestly, as if reporting work, "After graduation, I was in charge of a column, and now it has developed into a book It's a new issue, so I'm working as the editor-in-chief." There was an unconscious bragging in his tone.
As proud as she said before that she won a basketball game today.
"It's amazing." Hai Ruo has published some literary books himself, so he naturally knows how difficult it is to reach this level in a few years, and at the same time is pleased with the progress of the students, "Xiao Jing is working very hard."
Xu Jing suddenly wanted to cry.
How many nights had she been thinking of Hai Ruo's words of encouragement to encourage her to sleep, and how many times when she was fighting alone, she always thought of Hai Ruo's expectations for her.
You are the best student I have ever taught. Hai Ruo always said that.
"You are indeed the best student I have ever taught." Hai Ruo still said that now.
"Of course I am." Xu Jing suddenly laughed, "It's your credit, Hai Ruo."
In those three years, Hai Ruo gave a lot of knowledge, a lot of human feelings, and even a lot of life principles. To be honest, without Hai Ruo's guidance, Xu Jing definitely would not have achieved today's results.
"Now the headquarters will be moved to this city, so... it may be disturbed frequently in the future." Seeing the black cat's frizz-like movements for a moment, Xu Jing smiled a little wickedly.
After eating, the two washed the dishes together. Hai Ruo carefully looked at the neat appearance of Xu Jing's professional suit, "Is that right? It looks a lot better than before."
"Hey, it was convenient to play in the past." Xu Jing recalled the excitement of fighting with a group of boys on the court in college and graduate school. He felt a little melancholy in his heart, and he still felt that he couldn't go back.
But looking at Hai Ruo in front of her, and the black cat Dongdong who is always beside her like her guardian... I feel that many things have not changed, she is still the same, school, home, two points and one line, maybe years Some marks have been polished on her body, but it is also like a bronze ware that has gone through a long time, leaving elegant wear marks.
They chatted at home for a long time, all afternoon.
Some of them talked about some interesting things that happened in the past, some talked about the current development of former classmates, who came and went, walked and came, and it was like a fresh anecdote when they passed it through their mouths again and again. laughter.
They all tacitly missed that part, the part that drew a huge gap between them.
During this period of time, Dongdong had been lying on Hai Ruo's lap, Hai Ruo slid down his back, and the tacit understanding that had been cultivated for ten years was flowing at this moment, and an unstoppable warmth was vividly revealed.
It was getting late, and Hai Ruo turned on the wall lamp.
"Are you going to sleep here today? There are plenty of empty rooms and clean pajamas."
Xu Jing's hand punched.
Are you lonely? What she wanted to ask was, are you lonely when you are still alone
"Dongdong, wipe your paws well, or you won't be allowed to go to bed." Hai Ruo untied her tie-up hair, let it fall, and draped it over one shoulder. She picked it up and put it on the other shoulder.
Xu Jing was suddenly unable to ask questions, and the answer was obvious. If Hai Ruo is not short of company, Hai Ruo is not lonely either.
The one who could not bear the loneliness and gave up was herself.
"This time, I'm also going to give you something..." Xu Jing's hands were shaking, and looking at Hai Ruo's searching eyes, he took out a pink envelope from his pocket.
I clearly know that I regard you as a student, a junior, and a friend, but this will never include other feelings.
She also clearly remembered what Hai Ruo had said to her.
"Next month, I'm getting married. The other party is a doctor who treats me very well." Xu Jing lowered his head and dared not look at Hai Ruo.
She was afraid that she would burst into tears.
"I hope... you can come."
It's a pity that I don't love you.
"Really, why didn't you say it earlier." Hai Ruo's surprised voice came, and then Xu Jing felt hugged into a gentle embrace, "It's really nice, I wish you happiness, I wish you happiness."
Xu Jing finally raised her head, she didn't even know that she had already burst into tears, she just smiled with relief and ease.
It was not until now that Dongdong felt that Xu Jing had really let go. The once fork road was full of flowers, and she could never forget even one of them in her whole life.
But she walked back after all, and found her own way.
Without Hai Ruo's hand in hand, he would have to go on.
Xu Jing was taken back by her fiancé. She turned around and waved goodbye to Hai Ruo and Dong Dong. The man and the cat stood together, and the gentle eyes mixed with the spark of vigilance from beginning to end shot at her.
She got into the car and stayed away from the warm yellow lights behind her. She couldn't help crying in the front seat. Her fiancé was a considerate man who held her hand and said nothing.
She has no regrets, no regrets in any way.
A relationship is not valuable because it has a good outcome.
When she understands this, she can survive it strong and go on firmly.
The author has something to say: Xu Jing is a good girl, um