Hiro:
You may find this message strange, but first of all, it is neither a prank that appeared out of thin air, nor is it your imagination or hallucination. This paper and the words on it are what I have to say.
I didn't feel very well today. I turned on the computer and printed out this document while you were going out to buy food. Of course, the few lines here are added by me now. I have been writing these words one after another for about a month. After all, the cat's body is not convenient for typing. It's no wonder that a keyboard suitable for the cat's body was not invented.
I don't know if my words amused you, if not, it means my communication skills are as bad as they were years ago.
As bad as when I was a human.
Yes, I used to be a human. When I died, I didn't know what happened. I came alive with this kitten's body. When I opened my eyes, I saw you. At that time, I was only a week old kitten. You are very careful. The care of me has kept me alive again, and I am grateful.
I know I shouldn't talk to you so politely, but I don't know what to say better.
I've had so much to say to you for countless hours, but now I don't know what to say to you, I was clumsy when I was a person, not very gregarious, and a little incoherent after not speaking for many years.
I don't want to tell you who I was as a human before, because trying to find my past is pointless, you're bound to do it, it'll make you feel worse, and we didn't know each other before and didn't meet.
I don't have much energy and time left. I'll try to keep it short. If I can finish it, I should be able to tell you that my throat is broken.
First of all, I love you very much, Hai Ruo.
It's the kind, between people, between men and women.
You might say something about the fledgling effect (you told me, remember) but I'm pretty sure it wasn't, even if I never loved anyone, I knew it wasn't.
In fact, I don't know how I knew it, but I just thought it was really nice to meet you, and I never had any regrets when I died at that time.
Every time I see you, I think it's worth living, and every time you touch me, I also think it's really nice to be alive as a cat.
I still have to say sorry, I've tried my best to avoid you changing clothes over the years, but I may still see a little bit of apologizing at this time, because I know you won't be willing to blame me.
It's a long story short, in fact, I have said a lot, and there is still the most important issue to discuss. I'm a little arrogant here. I think your feelings for me are not just family members, but there should be love too.
I hope it's the kind I do to you.
I still remember that you said that you would not fall in love with anyone, then, when I didn't exist as a human being, can you think about whether you really fell in love with me?
I relied on this idea to support myself not to resent my life as a cat, and found that as long as I fantasized about it, it was easy to act as a cat again.
I once fantasized about being with you for the rest of my life, and once fantasizing that since soul transfer can happen, is there any other supernatural event that can happen, for example, I can incarnate as a human, I can live forever, and I can make you fall in love with me , in the way a woman falls in love with a man.
However, maybe the odds of a miracle happening twice are too small and too small, and I feel that my life will soon end again.
Here, I still have to apologize once, for concealing your illness and mine, I'm really sorry.
When I learned about my own situation, I was also very sad. I was worried about a lot of things, and I couldn't let go of many things. The one I couldn't let go of was you.
I can't let you go, I can't let you go, I'm your only family, and you have only me.
I used to be overjoyed for this thought, for being incomparably close to you, but now, how happy I was at the time, how reluctant I am at this moment.
I can't bear the food you cook, the poems you read to me, the scenery you take with me, the feeling that you touch the tip of my nose with your fingers, the unique smell of your body, the way you hold me up and turn around Excited look.
And the most reluctant thing is your sadness.
I once thought that if I go, I don't want you to find another person, or a pet. I know you won't forget me, and I know your love for me is the only one, but I can't get over it in my heart.
Want to monopolize you, want to be the only one in your life.
It's the thought that pops up every time someone shows a crush on you, it's kind of dark and jealous.
However, now I don't think so.
Go get another cat, or a dog, white, flower, tiger, or even black. If possible, find a man to take care of you.
You have to put in some emotions and feel happy and fulfilled in order to feel happy.
But don't be too fast, sorry, be a little more selfish, at least in a year or two. Don't come out so quickly, please give me a little more time for my sadness, then settle yourself down, calm down, and find other people or creatures who can bring you happiness.
Then, when you're thinking of me, smile.
That's enough.
Here is what I'm writing now, it's winter now, I don't know if you remember, yesterday was the day you picked me up thirteen years ago.
With thirteen years, being able to accompany you for thirteen years is the happiest thing in my life as a human and as a cat.
It would be great if I was still awake when you came back, and you could accompany me to my death.
I'm sorry, I can't accompany you all my life. I want to accompany you more, but I'm also a little tired, so I'll sleep first, okay?
Just a moment.
I love you, Dongdong.
small theater:
On this day, when Hai Ruo came back, what he saw was Dong Dong lying on the sofa where he usually sat, with a blank piece of paper beside him.
"Dongdong?" She called tentatively. These days, he was a little too sleepy. Many times Hai Ruo woke up in the middle of the night because he was worried that he would never wake up again in his sleep.
"Meow." Dongdong didn't lift his head, his eyes narrowed and opened.
look at her.
Then, fell asleep.
When Hai Ruo walked over, he found that he had stopped breathing and rested forever.
The author has something to say: I hope the feeling of this chapter will not be too strange, please imagine the way a cat is typing, but it is not clear whether it is abuse or cuteness.
Also, thirteen years have passed, but this is not the end (^V^)
That is, and oh
☆、Restart
When he opened his eyes again, even Chu Chengyu didn't know how he would feel.
The familiar heaviness of being stuck in the quagmire is the feeling of being on the verge of death. Counting this time, is it the fourth time?
Before opening his eyes, there was a strong wind blowing beside his ears, Chu Chengyu bowed like a conditioned reflex to dodge, then rolled out, put his feet on the ground, and calmed his heartbeat.
It seems that there is some pain in the bend of the leg.
Feeling... not right, the brain issued a warning sound like this, he bit his lip hard and opened his eyes.
At the same time as his vision was restored, his hearing also woke up.
All around him, there were high-pitched car horns, and a group of people surrounded him, chattering about something... so noisy.
Then, he found that he was lying on the ground, in a strange and awkward posture in the eyes of others, his elbows and knees were all bleeding, and he only felt pain when he saw it.
And, it seems, it's not the same as the previous thirteen years.
He is now Chu Chengyu.
When Hai Ruo saw the cardboard box, she was stunned for a moment, then took a few breaths of heat in her hands and walked over slowly.
Inside the box is a black kitten, dark and dark without a mottled fur, a small lump, curled up, and looks pitiful.
She reached out subconsciously... It was already cold, there was no ups and downs, no breathing, not even shivering.
Hai Ruo heard a sentence, a big dream in his life, the world has been cold in autumn several times.
At that moment, it seemed like a long dream, unknown memories flooded into her mind crazily, happiness, sadness, contradictions, and firmness, all emotions occupied her heart in an instant.
Until a paragraph of words printed on white paper broke in.
Tears rained down.
Dongdong, Hai Ruo opened her mouth, but no sound came out. It turned out that being so sad would make people lose their ability to speak.
It's too cold here, and Dongdong must not like it.
Hai Ruo held the box in both hands and protected her heart, struggled to stand up and turned her head.
"Hai Ruo." The low and hoarse voice was a man, and Hai Ruo's reflexes took over the action, but when he looked up, there was no focus at all.
But the next moment he heard the man's words, his eyes widened suddenly.
"I'm Dongdong, the cat who has been with you for thirteen years."
The man staggered over, as if he was not used to walking upright.
"At the same time, I, too, love you—Chu Chengyu."
"My human name is Chu Chengyu."
The man has a pair of slightly lighter eyes, very much like the look in Dongdong's eyes when he looked at her—attachment, but he also has all kinds of unexplainable feelings.
Now Hai Ruo knew that that kind of feeling was called love.
It was the feeling that she didn't know very well before, and she will continue and learn together with her Dongdong in the future.
"Dongdong."
By the way, his Dongdong said, his name is—
"Chu Chengyu."
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After that day, Hai Ruo took Chu Chengyu back to the apartment to give him medicine.
"Where is the medicine box?" Hai Ruo stared at the sundries in a cabinet, worried.
"It's in the second cabinet from the upper left. Also, check to see if it's expired." A man's voice came from behind. Hai Ruo looked back and saw that the man was staring at her for a moment, as if she was lost. .
Hey, this is, what is more inexplicable? Hai Ruo thought helplessly, but couldn't ignore the sweetness in her heart.
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The boss of the investment house: Oh, Xiao Chu, it seems to be a bit popular recently, and I am a lot of gregarious people. I have a smile on my face. Is there anything good?
Chu Chengyu: Well, I'm in love, and I'm getting married.
The assistant who entered the door: (Bite the little handkerchief in my heart, and the soul Dan can even find a girlfriend with a wooden face of ten thousand years, and there is an inexplicable amount of torches and gasoline in his hand.)
Boss: Yo, when are you going to have a drink?
Chu Chengyu: (Hairuo, who is still a little awkward when I think of it) Let's see what my girlfriend has to say, I'll do it as soon as possible.
small theater:
Pursuing Hai Ruo as a man was not as smooth as he thought.
It is one aspect that the two of them have no experience, and the other aspect is that Hai Ruo is awkward.
Chu Chengyu was a little too natural, and he brought a lot of habits as a cat to get along with Hai Ruo.
For example, the work that can be done at home (here, Hai Ruo's apartment) is never taken outside; she takes the initiative to follow her when she is in class, and unknowingly has become a "student master" in the subject of ancient literature.
Chu Chengyu: (They really have such a bad memory that they can't even memorize Tianwen)... (the content comes as soon as they open their mouths).
All students: Is it hard to memorize fried chicken?
Also, inadvertently started to stick to Hai Ruo, especially like to hug Hai Ruo, and also like to face Hai Ruo's nose, I don't know how many times the fire came out.
If Hai Ruo knew about Dong Dong's habits, she would have thought that Chu Chengyu was deliberately taking advantage.
However, she didn't really want to object.
Lost and found is too precious an experience, just once is enough.
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For Chu Chengyu's "once" sojourn for thirteen years, they preserved it like this.
There was a large clay flowerpot on the window sill, in which was buried the black fur and brown-eyed kitten. After Hai Ruo carefully cleaned his body, he buried it in it.
Chu Chengyu has been watching for a moment, and handed over the seeds of flowers.
Pink lily, Hai Ruo's favorite flower.
Their Dongdong will always accompany them in this way, and it will not be as short as thirteen years.
Chu Chengyu will accompany Hai Ruo until his gray hair.
The end