Xie Bian was in a deep sleep when the bedroom door was suddenly pushed open roughly. He woke up suddenly, grabbed the sword by his side, and the Junlan sword was half out of its sheath, lying in front of him.
But he soon knew who it was. After all, he was someone who had been with him for two lifetimes. Even though the familiar smell was mixed with the smell of wine, he could easily distinguish it.
"What are you doing?" Xie Bian asked coldly.
Fan Wuxi sat by the bed and said mysteriously, "I'll take you to a place."
The smell of alcohol made Jie Bian frowned: "You drank too much."
"Not much." Fan Wushi grabbed Xie Bian's wrist, "Let's go."
"What time is it?" Xie Bian shook it, but didn't shake it off, "Let go."
"Brother, I'll take you to a place, you must see it."
Fan Wushi is usually gloomy and stern, not angry and majestic, even when he was a teenager, what is hidden under this young body is a soul that has lived two lifetimes, and he has almost never had such a moment of escape.
How much alcohol was this? The usual Fan Wuzhen had already made Xie Bian on guard all the time, but this unusual Fan Wuzhen in front of him made him even more worried.
Xie Bian was half dragged and half hugged by Fan Wuxi and got out of bed, and flew away from the palace with his Yujian, and flew deep into Daming Mountain.
"I've been looking for it for a long time, and I have the impression that it will be available in this season." Fan Wuxi shouted against the wind, a few syllables were swallowed by the wind, and it sounded intermittent, but Xie Bian vaguely remembered something.
Fan Wuxi found a small lake in the forest by following the trace of spiritual consciousness left by him. Looking from the sky, the half moon was clearly reflected in the water. A gust of wind wrinkled the surface of the water. Yuehui. The most eye-catching thing is that there is a strip of golden light floating by the lake, as if reflecting the galaxy above the sky in the world.
That is thousands of fireflies, with their own faint light, gathered into this dreamlike beauty.
The two passed through the fireflies and landed by the lake. Xie Bian raised his head, stared blankly at the sparks, and fell into memory.
This place was the first to be discovered by him.
In order to protect the cave of Daming Mountain, outsiders are not allowed to climb up the peak where the palace is located. When he was young, he was curious about everything. When he was not practicing, he used his sword to fly around in the mountains looking for something interesting, so he discovered this. In a small lake, it is also discovered that in hot and humid summer, there will be a large number of fireflies congregating next to the water system.
He was shocked by this scene at that time, and after leaving his spiritual consciousness, he flew back to the palace quickly, woke up Xiao Jiu who was sleeping, and brought him here to watch. Since then, if they come to the cave to practice in summer, they will sneak here to play here from time to time.
I remember that at that time, his talent had just emerged, and his father placed high hopes on him to win glory for the Daming Zong family at the Jiaolong meeting. He was appreciated by his father, loved by his mother, and respected and worshiped by his younger siblings. That was the most worry-free moment in his life Carefree time.
Xie Bian was caught in a kind of thick mourning, unable to extricate himself, even if someone held his hand, he didn't notice it.
Fan Wuxi tilted his head to look at Jie Bian, his eyes were blank but gentle. Under the same quiet starry sky, he seems to follow the long river of time back to the past. The sky is full of moon and stars, and there are reflections and streaming fireflies on the ground. There are only him and his elder brother in the sky and on earth. Their carefully planned dreams.
At that time, he held his elder brother's hand, jumped up and down in surprise, and was so excited that he didn't sleep well all night.
Now, he is holding his elder brother's hand behind his back, looking down at his elder brother's quiet eyes, wanting this moment to last forever, but he has the fear of waking up from a dream.
Jie Bian came back to his senses at that moment. He looked up at Fan Wuxi in surprise, then withdrew his hand.
Fan Wuxi's palm was empty, he clenched his fingers tightly, trying to stop the heat from passing.
"In the past, we would come here to enjoy the moon and fireflies." Fan Wuxi said softly, "It was the place you discovered first."
Xie Bian pondered for a moment: "It's too late, let's go back."
Fan Wuxi took his hand again, "We used to stay until dawn."
"Let go." Jie Bian frowned.
The smell of alcohol rushed to the top of his skull, accompanied by the frustration accumulated from Xie Bian. Fan Wushi's face became hot, and his hands clenched tighter: "I want to go back after dawn, big brother will accompany me."
Xie Bi'an's heart shook.
Whether it was intentional or unintentional, what Fan Wuzhen said was exactly the same as what he said to him when he was coquettish and shameless back then, but now the tone is domineering and domineering, and it is also impossible to refuse. In the past, he pampered and indulged Xiao Jiu, but now He is wary and afraid of Fan Wuzhen.
Fan Wuxi pulled Xie Bian to sit down on a smooth stone. He took out a cloak from his Qiankun bag, wrapped Jie Bian around him, and then wrapped his arms around his shoulders.
Xie Bian sat upright, not daring to relax for a moment.
"It's so beautiful, so many fireflies, just like when I was a child." Fan Wuxi held Jie Bian's slender shoulders, and sighed in his heart, why did the man who seemed to be able to support him when he was a child become so thin and pale now? , Let him just want to hold him in his arms for a moment, and also want to give him everything in the world.
However, his elder brother doesn't want the throne, wealth, magic weapon, what he thought his elder brother liked, but he is the only one who takes it seriously. Now his elder brother doesn't want everything he can give, and he doesn't want him either.
Xie Bi quietly looked at these golden fireflies, like a vast river of stars crushed and sprinkled across the world, incomparably romantic, he chanted softly: "'Flying like stars in the sky, blowing trees like peanuts.'"
Fan Wuxi turned his head to look at Xie Bian's eyes, which were shining brightly, and the tiny stars seemed to have sprinkled into his pupils, gentle and focused, extremely moving, his blood was surging, and his strong desire seemed to break through the flesh He threw himself at the man he was madly obsessed with, desperately dragged the beast in his heart, desperately suppressed the desire that was so longing that he wished it could not be destroyed, restrained and lowered his head, and imprinted a word on his forehead. Kiss infinitely softly.
Xie Bian's whole body was tense, and he stared straight ahead, as if he was facing a formidable enemy.
"Don't be afraid of me." Fan Wuxi's voice was deep and hoarse.
"Brother, don't treat me like this." The voice trembled a little more.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I thought you betrayed me. I thought you killed my mother. I didn't mean to treat you that way. You are the most important person in my life, so I can't stand you treating me like that." Fan Wuxi hugged Jie Bian's shoulders, and put his forehead against Jie Bian's head, "But I always have you in my heart, only you, I can't forget even if I want to, one hundred years, two hundred years, two lives, two lives, Never forget it."
Xie Bian felt sore and unbearable. When he saw the fireflies all over the sky and this familiar lake, his mind was filled with laughter and joy when he was a child. After all, it was engraved in his heart, and who can forget it. But those unforgettable pains and the hideous hatred on the face are also unforgettable.
He turned his head, his body wanted to escape, but he was unable to move due to the weight on his shoulders. Late regrets are worthless, otherwise, his struggles, pain, despair, and failures are worthless. So he is extremely resistant to these premeditated things to evoke his past memories. Whether it is the delicious wine when he was young, or the places he has been to, they are all means by Fan Wuxi to try to soften his heart. This numb mask is afraid that there will be cracks on it, revealing his increasingly uncontrollable emotions.
"Brother, talk to me." Fan Wuxi whispered in his ear, "You must have a lot to say, don't hide everything, just say something, scold me, hate me, what? All right, you have to say it."
Xie Bian gradually clenched his hands into fists, and the resentment he suppressed during this period has become increasingly difficult to control, but Fan Wuzhen is still approaching urgently, and he will not stop until he is approached again.
"I know you don't want to see me cry and beg bitterly, and you don't want to see me defend myself, so for you, okay, big brother, senior brother, don't ignore me."
Fan Wuxi clearly realized that the big brother who used to be able to argue, argue, and resist was still struggling for himself and their friendship, and hadn't completely closed his heart, but this person in front of him was numb. , cold, meaningless, his heart was about to die. Indifference is more despairing than swearing at each other.
"Brother..."
"What do you want me to say?" Xie Bian turned his head, his eyes sparkled, "Is there anything that we didn't say all the time?"
Fan Wuxi stared at Jie Bian, and after a while, he said in a deep voice, "Do you still like me?"
Xie Bian's pupils dilated and then contracted, and he froze for a moment.
"Back then in the Promise Palace, even if I forced you, even if you only had brotherly feelings for me, we did all the intimate things after all, we hugged each other every night..."
"Shut up!" Xie Bian growled.
But Fan Wuxi refused to stop: "Embrace and fall asleep. When you are distracted, you will take the initiative to hug me and beg for sex. I have always wanted to ask you if you have ever been tempted."
"No, yes." Xie Bian gritted his teeth and said.
"Not once? For so many days and nights, when you were tactful and courteous under me, didn't you ever move your heart?"
Xie Bian wanted to get up.
Fan Wuzhen managed to catch the gap in his understanding of Bian, how could he let it go, he refused to let go: "Even if you didn't in the previous life, in this life, you really like me, right?"
Xie Bian's eyes gradually turned red.
"You said it yourself, you did it with your own words, and you also thought about being with me forever, right?" Fan Wushi stared into the depths of Xie Bian's eyes, "Now, putting aside hatred, I am Your favorite Xiao Jiu is also the eldest son Xiao who has spent countless good nights with you, and Fan Wuxi who fought side by side with you and promised to spend his life together, I don't believe you are indifferent to me, do you still like me?"
Xie Bian pushed Fan Wuyi away hard, his eyes were embarrassed and ferocious, and he stared at Fan Wuyi viciously: "Why do you still have the face to ask such a sentence?"
Fan Wuzhen's face was full of unbearable pain, and a tyrannical swearing that he would not give up until he reached his goal: "Because this is the one thing I care about most in this world. I have struggled hard for two lifetimes, but I just want to I want you to have me in your heart."
Xie Bian took a deep breath, trying to relieve the pain in his heart, and said tremblingly: "Then you listen carefully, no, there is no such thing in the past and present life, liking based on deception is not called liking, no matter what you do, I will I don't even like you, I only hate you now."
The light in Fan Wuxi's eyes shrank fiercely, and then dispersed into the pitch-black pupils, like water disappearing into the water. No words can describe his heart-piercing pain at this moment. He opened his mouth, his eyes were blurred, and the surface was calm. It was hard to continue, but he still held on, he smiled strangely, and he didn't know who he was telling to: "I don't believe it." I don't believe that I love you so much, how can you be indifferent.
Xie Bian stared at him, his body seemed to lean back.
This dodging movement seemed to tug at a certain heartstring in Fan Wushi's heart. He grabbed Jie Bian's shoulder suddenly, pushed him to the ground, and leaned forward to press him down, but when their lips were about to be rough, Before the collision, it stopped.
The tip of the nose of the two people is close to the tip of the nose, and the distance is close enough to exchange each other's breath, anxious, restless, and sad. When they look into each other's eyes, the entrance of the soul is infinitely enlarged, and the entire field of vision is forced to fall into it , They saw complicated textures, brown rings, and dark, bottomless pupils, and they saw themselves, anxious, restless, and sad, from the circles of constricted pupils.
At this moment, the pain became something tangible and penetrated into each other's skin, hair, flesh and blood, making them feel the pain of peeling and cramping, as if cut by a thousand knives.
Why, why is there such pain, why do two people who love each other come to this irreversible path
Jie Bian opened his eyes wide, tears rolling down silently.
The blood in Fan Wuxi's eyes became darker and darker, and was finally replaced by the spreading black death energy, which crawled towards the pupils one by one. He rested his hands on both sides of Jie Bian's head, his tall body trembling slightly, As if he was restraining something, the result of his restraint was that he only lightly touched the lips that made him so eager.
Jie Bian stared at him without blinking, staring at the black vines in his eyes, the memory of his previous life surged, making him shudder, and he said softly: "If you can't control your demons, the ending of your previous life will soon repeat itself. "
"My demon is you." Fan Wushi's hand caressed Jie Bian's hair.
"It's a secret talisman..."
"It's you, it's always been you." Fan Wuxi said darkly, "The Heavenly Secret Talisman can't control me, you can."
"The inner demon is born of your own desires, and has nothing to do with me."
"Yes." Fan Wuxi smiled wryly, "The demon is my own demon, but to control the demon, unless I can control you, unless I get what I want most—you. Otherwise, sooner or later, I will still would lose their minds."
Jie Bian clenched his lower lip.
Fan Wushi lightly stroked Xie Bian's lips with his fingertips, and pried open his teeth: "Brother, we were happy before you remembered your past life. At that time, I was conflicted. I miss you so much Let you remember me, but I don't want you to remember me, because if you remember, we will never be together without any grudges."
"Do you think I think about it, I'd rather just be Jie Bi'an for the rest of my life."
"Yeah, it would be nice if you didn't remember it. It would be nice if you forgot about our miserable past, if you forgot to hate me."
Then he will see this person smile at him again, treat him well, say he likes him, all resentment, resistance, and fear will disappear from these eyes, and they will be a pair for a lifetime, never separated.
"Brother, why don't you forget it." Fan Wuxi murmured, "It's fine if you forget, it's fine if you forget."
"..." Xie Bian couldn't tell whether Fan Wuzhen was talking to him or talking to himself, seeing the black death in Fan Wuzhen's eyes, he felt even more uneasy.