Pei Ji'an was out of his mind all day today. Ever since I saw Li Chaoge and Gu Mingke yesterday, their state was very strange.
After returning, they dreamed about their past lives with Li Chaoge.
In her previous life, when she was nineteen years old, Pei Ji'an met Li Chaoge at a banquet, and her life has been messed up by her ever since. The marriage contract of the childhood sweetheart was inexplicably broken, and the empress had an ambiguous attitude. Not long after, they were forced to marry Li Chaoge.
All this is just because the princess fell in love with him.
Although Pei Ji'an is gentle and elegant, but he? He is a man of aristocratic family, and his heart is also pure and arrogant. No man is willing to accept this kind of humiliation, not to mention that on the wedding night, Li Chaoge was still hot and cold, and even when she touched Pei Ji'an's hand while drinking the wine, she would frown.
Pei Ji'an already hated Li Chaoge forcing him to do so. Seeing this, he slept with Li Chaoge in a separate bed at night, and nothing happened overnight. The next day, they moved to another yard with an excuse, and the husband and wife separated as soon as they got married.
Pei Ji'an wanted to use this to express his attitude. Li Chaoge is lawless and doesn't have the slightest sense of being a wife. It's time to cool her down. As a result, Li Chaoge didn't feel that sleeping in separate rooms was her husband's punishment. She looked so happy, what she should do every day, and when she remembered, she went to his yard to see? Look? He couldn't remember. There was no one in sight for half a month.
Pei Ji'an felt more and more humiliated. He? Like a plaything, face head, canary, being? locked in a gorgeous cage for the owner to entertain when he is bored. When the owner is busy, it is absolutely not possible to disturb it.
This marriage has been in a cold war from the very beginning. Fortunately, Pei Ji'an is a son of a family, and he is well-mannered. Li Chaoge really likes Pei Ji'an's face. In the past two years? Although the husband and wife were indifferent, they at least managed to get by in front of outsiders.
There are many couples in Dongdu who seem to be in harmony with each other, and Pei Ji'an thought that they would be like this too.
Everything began to take a turn for the worse when the eldest grandson's family was convicted of treason.
Pei Ji'an remembered that it was a rainy night, the thunder roared, the sky and the earth were thick, and the rain covered all sounds. Pei Ji'an held an umbrella and walked towards the main courtyard. Li Chaoge sat by the window, looked at him calmly, and said, "I tried my best."
The next day, it was reported that Changsun Yu and Changsun Huan were sentenced to beheaded, and the other men of Changsun's family were exiled.
Mrs. Pei is the daughter of the eldest grandson's family. Upon hearing the news, Mrs. Pei immediately fainted. Pei Ji'an took Li Chaoge to serve the sick, but was turned away by his mother.
Li Chaoge didn't say a soft word, turned his head and left.
The Pei family and Li Chaoge collapsed violently. Afterwards, as if the heavens could not see them? As a couple, things happened one after another. Li Chaoge imprisoned the eldest grandson's family, and Pei Ji'an's cousin Pei Jihong impeached Li Chaoge and was exiled by Li Chaoge. His cousin died of illness on the road to exile, and his father was grieved and resigned in anger, resolutely drawing a clear line with Li Chaoge. In the second year, his grandmother died of illness. Li Chaoge had a falling out with his father in the mourning hall, and the two sides had no contact with each other.
Pei Ji'an and Li Chaoge, one of the few couples, were completely exhausted. One month after his grandmother died of illness, Pei Ji'an moved out of the Princess Mansion and lived in another residence. And then, Li Changle died, Pei Chuyue died, prince Li Huai died, and empress died. In the end, Pei Ji'an and Li Chaoge also died.
Everyone died, the long steps were washed with blood, and finally fell into a vast expanse of whiteness? It was so clean.
In the previous life, Pei Ji'an had always stood on the side of the Pei family. Undoubtedly, Li Chaoge was a heinous villain who broke up their marriage, destroyed their family, and humiliated their self-esteem. But after being reborn in this life, Pei Ji'an thought about these things from the beginning? He found that Li Chaoge did nothing wrong if he changed his perspective.
When the empress came to power, the eldest grandson's family had always strongly opposed it, and even used their influence to run around in the Li family, trying to gather forces to support the abolished emperor Li Huai. Pei Ji'an put aside his position, and in all fairness, no one in power would tolerate this kind of thing. The one who really wanted to kill the eldest grandson's family was the empress.
Li Chaoge said that day that she tried her best, maybe she really tried her best.
Political struggle means success and defeat, with blood flowing like rivers. When the Changsun family and the Pei family were fighting for power and profit, they never showed mercy in order to defeat the opposing family. Why did Li Chaoge scold her for being unscrupulous, witchy girl? Disastrous policy? Just because she's a woman
Li Chaoge was pushed to the forefront of the storm because of the prison beheading. The courtiers, courtiers, officials and people all stared at her, but Pei Jihong jumped out at this juncture to impeach Li Chaoge, and his identity was still Li Chaoge's brother-in-law. Everyone is waiting to see? How will Li Chaoge deal with it? Li Chaoge is not tough this time, all forces will swarm up and tear Li Chaoge to pieces. In order to establish his prestige, Li Chaoge had the best, and only option, to send Pei Jihong down, demote him into exile.
No one knew that Pei Jihong would die on the road because of this, and after that, the Pei family hated Li Chaoge, and Li Chaoge was repeatedly hurt by the Pei family. Li Chaoge took the initiative to go to Pei's house several times, because he wanted to get along with her husband's family for the sake of Pei Ji'an's face. But Pei Silian publicly? Scolding Li Chaoge, not allowing Li Chaoge to come to the house, with Li Chaoge's heart, can he turn back
Not to mention Li Chaoge, any proud and self-respecting woman would never come to the door a second time if she was pointed at her nose by her parents-in-law.
Pei Ji'an had to admit that Li Chaoge was cruel, but she always tolerated Pei Ji'an's family. The eldest grandson's family was so implicated in the case of treason, but the Pei family, who were in-laws, escaped unscathed, and no one was involved in it. If it wasn't for Pei Jihong jumping out to impeach Li Chaoge on a whim, there would be no casualties in the Pei family.
The subsequent deaths of Li Changle, Pei Chuyue and others were actually caused by Pei Ji'an. Pei Ji'an had a relationship with Li Changle, Li Chaoge went mad and killed Li Changle directly. Pei Chuyue was naively proud of being favored by her family. She couldn't stand this kind of anger and wanted to go to the palace to report Li Chaoge. The situation at that time was either you or me. Pei Ji'an couldn't forgive Li Chaoge, but standing in Li Chaoge's position, he would kill Pei Chuyue who wanted to report him.
Political struggle is an elegy of iron and blood, no one is right or wrong, only whoever loses wins. Those who walked behind had dirty hands.
Last night, Pei Ji'an had a dream about his previous life, and he was restless all night. Until it was almost dawn, he finally settled down. He dreamed that when he was just married, Li Chaoge practiced his sword under the flowers, and with a twist of his wrist, flowers flew ten miles away. She didn't know how to write memorials, and stared at the paper all night in a daze, but refused to ask for help. Later, it was Pei Ji'an who found out and taught her how to write the beginning and end of the memorial, so she finally handed the strategy book to the empress.
That was the rare time that Li Chaoge took the initiative to visit him, and asked him if he had any skills in the greetings at the beginning of the memorial. Pei Ji'an wrote her several commonly used idioms, and Li Chaoge copied them down as templates and spliced them together freely. It's not good, but at least it's readable.
And Li Chaoge's handwriting... At first? Her handwriting was really ugly and domineering. It was said later by Pei Ji'an that Li Chaoge didn't care about it on the surface, but practiced vigorously in private, and he was able to write without merit.
Pei Ji'an woke up with this feeling. After waking up, he stared at the elegant four-season bamboo tent and felt peaceful for a long time.
In fact, they didn't live in the Princess Mansion for many days, not more than four years. But many details are deeply imprinted in their minds. When they opened their eyes just now, they subconsciously felt that the bed curtain should be a bright and flamboyant warm color, instead of the one that they have used for a longer time and that are more in line with their aesthetics. blue.
This dream was like a catharsis, making Pei Ji'an understand many things. The love and hatred between them? and Li Chaoge is a conflict between family and country, and it has nothing to do with individuals. Both of them are coerced by political struggles, and eventually they will inevitably break up, but it does not mean that the two of them are wrong.
Li Chaoge liked him very shallowly in his previous life, he admired this woman, admired this woman, maybe... also liked this woman.
Their affection for Li Changle is similar to that of an elder brother to his younger sister, because they are well-matched, because they are used to it, and because everyone thinks they are created by nature, so Pei Ji'an also feels that they should marry Li Changle.
But he? Met Li Chaoge. Ever since they met her, all their love, hatred, pain, unwillingness and anger were all given by Li Chaoge. Gradually, Li Changle's image became blurred in Pei Ji'an's eyes. What they heard, saw, thought, and thought were all Li Chaoge. Even after being reborn, they made up their minds to make a clean break with Li Chaoge, but when they saw her, they couldn't help but be drawn to her.
He couldn't deny the harm Li Chaoge brought to him in his previous life, nor could he deny his feelings for her. In the late previous life, they?had?realized this point, but at that time, their grandfather's family was ruined, and the Pei family and? So he? tried his best to restrain himself, and tried his best to be nice to Li Changle, so as to convince himself that he? didn't love her.
He? Just couldn't get rid of her.
He? Killed Li Chaoge. After being reborn, he? Was seriously ill because of this, and couldn't get out of his previous life for a long time. They repeatedly paralyzed themselves and let themselves walk on a completely different path from their previous lives, thinking that they could hide their feelings by doing so. But after more than half a year, their self-deception had no effect. They were always trapped in the love net woven by Li Chaoge, but they watched the instigator come out, start a new life, and even start a new life. ? Start chasing new men.
What he saw in the Tongming Palace yesterday greatly stimulated Pei Ji'an, and after a night of nightmares, Pei Ji'an calmed down instead. He? admits that he? loved her, but also realizes that she doesn't love him that much.
Perhaps, whether that feeling is love or not is unknown.
There was a servant girl's questioning voice from outside, and Pei Ji'an calmly answered, got up calmly, and entered the palace on duty calmly.
But Pei Ji'an's peace of mind disappeared after hearing the discussion of his colleagues.
In one night, the news spread all over the imperial city, and Gu Mingke of Dali Temple was promoted to rank four Shaoqing by leapfrogging. Everyone also said that the reason why Gu Ming Ke was promoted so quickly was because he was about to become a son-in-law.
Seeing that Li Chaoge is seventeen years old during the Chinese New Year, he has reached the age when he must get married. The emperor wanted his eldest daughter to marry well, so he naturally spared no effort to promote his prospective son-in-law.
Because of these rumors, Pei Ji'an was in a mess all morning, and made mistakes in the records several times. Even his colleagues couldn't help asking him? Was he feeling unwell? Pei Ji'an also felt that they
Ziwei Palace is not only the place where the emperor lived, but also a collection of imperial court offices. The center is Miyagi, the place where the emperor goes to court, discusses politics, and lives. It is surrounded by a circle of imperial city. Three provinces, six ministries, nine temples and five prisons are distributed in it. Outside the imperial city are the common people. Dali Temple is adjacent to the town demon division, located in the east of the imperial city.
Pei Ji'an, as a collection of relics that accompanied the emperor and recorded the emperor's words and deeds, usually had his office in Miyagi. They needed to talk to Gu Mingke, so they asked for leave and walked towards Dali Temple.
Along the way, Pei Ji'an was thinking, what would he say when he met Gu Ming? Pei Ji'an actually didn't understand him? Why did he come to find Gu Ming? Ke, but his heart was in a mess. If he didn't meet Gu Ming? Ke in person, he? thought he would go crazy.
But no matter what, Pei Ji'an didn't expect that when he opened the door and entered, he would see such a picture.
Gu Mingke circled around Li Chaoge, the two of them were writing something. Pei Ji'an's first thought was why Li Chaoge was here, and the second thought was why didn't Li Chaoge hide
How much Li Chaoge doesn't like to have physical contact with others, Pei Ji'an can't understand it better. Her repulsive psychology can be called morbid. On the wedding night, Pei Ji'an accidentally touched Li Chaoge's hand while drinking the wine. Pei Ji'an didn't expect anything to happen, but according to common sense, Li Chaoge worked so hard to snatch Pei Ji'an over and finally got married. Li Chaoge didn't want to consummate the house, but acted more like a robbed person than Pei Ji'an. Something wrong
Mouth can lie, facial expressions can act, but body language can't lie. Pei Ji'an's man's dignity was provoked, and he was angry for several days. Later, he found out that Li Chaoge didn't reject him. She couldn't accept anyone's contact with her, not even the empress, but his anger gradually subsided.
But now, Pei Ji'an's cognition was once again challenged. Gu Mingke so obviously? Wrapped Li Chaoge in his arms, holding her handwriting. Li Chaoge didn't hide at all, and there was no resistance on his expression. Is this the Li Chaoge that Pei Ji'an knew
The words in Pei Ji'an's mouth suddenly froze, Gu Ming Ke didn't look up, and took Li Chaoge's pen to finish writing, then withdrew his hand, and asked lightly: "What? What's the matter?"
Li Chaoge knew someone was coming, but she didn't expect it to be Pei Ji'an. Standing at the door, Pei Ji'an didn't see clearly. In fact, Gu Mingke didn't touch Li Chaoge's hand just now. He was holding the pen holder to write, but it's not like this in the eyes of outsiders. As for Li Chaoge's failure to hide, that's because Gu Mingke didn't intend to offend or attack anything in his actions, he just helped her change the words. If it was another man, Li Chaoge would definitely feel that the other party had other plans, but if this person was Gu Mingke... Li Chaoge really believed that he
He has a clear conscience, and there is no need for Li Chaoge to hide. Coupled with such a long time together, Li Chaoge is very familiar with Gu Ming Ke's breath. When she is inconvenient, he will let Gu Ming Ke help her. Gu Ming Ke will guide her to write. It's also normal.
The memorial is roughly finished? Li Chaoge didn't want to see Pei Ji'an, so he put down his pen and said, "Okay, since Shaoqing has a guest, I won't bother you. You guys talk slowly, I'll go first."
Gu Mingke asked: "There is still the last paragraph of the memorial, will you write it?"
Doesn't Li Chaoge like to hear these words? She turned her head, her eyes flickered, her eyes glowed brightly, and she glanced at Gu Mingke in displeasure: "I will!"
She has memorized a whole set of templates, why can't she write
Pei Ji'an met him at the door? The two of them talked, and the conversation was full of familiarity and intimacy. Pei Ji'an felt a little uncomfortable. Li Chaoge's so-called ability to write beginnings and endings was actually taught by Pei Ji'an. But look? Her performance should be forgotten.
Li Chaoge put away his things, passed by Pei Ji'an calmly. Her eyes did not fluctuate, nor did she have any expression on her face, as if she was facing a stranger.
After Li Chaoge left, the room fell into an eerie silence. Gu Mingke put away Li Chaoge's messed up pen and ink one by one, and asked, "Pei Shiyi went out of the palace on purpose, why? What happened?"
Gu Mingke used official titles. In the imperial city, even relatives should use official titles. But now there is no one else, so there is no need to be so alienated.
Pei Ji'an didn't know if he was overthinking, or if Gu Mingke was just like that. Pei Ji'an sat down far away in the room, and his tone was equally unfriendly: "I was unwell last night and went to bed early, so I couldn't congratulate my cousin in person. Congratulations to my cousin for being promoted to Shaoqing."
Gu Mingke just nodded lightly to this: "Thank you very much."
Li Chaoge is in the initial stage of cultivation, his five senses are enhanced, and he can hear the movement in the distance, but he has not yet developed his spiritual consciousness, so he cannot see the scene outside the house. However, Gu Mingke can do it, he? He knew that Pei Ji'an was coming early in the morning.
But Gu Ming Ke still held Li Chaoge's pen and finished writing the notes in front of Pei Ji'an. Gu Mingke has a clear conscience, what's more, who is Pei Ji'an Li Chaoge, and who is Gu Mingke? Why does Gu Mingke hide
After Gu Mingke responded, no one spoke, and the scene became rigid again. Pei Ji'an smiled, and said in an unclear manner: "Cousin went to Luzhou smoothly this time? After returning from Luzhou, cousin and princess seem a lot familiar."
Gu Ming Ke was silent, and then said: "Is that why you came here to say these things?"
Gu Ming Ke made no secret of the intention of chasing away customers in his tone, and Pei Ji'an made a special trip here, obviously not to reminisce about the old days. Pei Ji'an stopped probing, and simply asked directly: "My cousin has been in the official position for half a year, and he has been promoted from the sixth rank to the fourth rank. Such a fast promotion speed is unique. The fact that the cousin can leapfrog the rank and promote the official position shows that the sage loves his cousin. Very, maybe, my cousin will become a son-in-law."
Pei Ji'an's words can be said to be undisguised, how can he have a gentle and elegant look in the past. This can't be blamed on Pei Ji'an, no matter how gentlemanly a person is, he might not be able to speak properly when he meets a rival in love.
Pei Ji'an only hated himself for waking up too late. He didn't discover his feelings until she pulled away and left. In fact, they should have understood a long time ago. As soon as they were reborn, they indulged Li Chaoge very much. Li Chaoge wanted to kill him, but they always let her go. It seems that as long as it is Li Chaoge, no matter what he does, he can forgive him.
Except for falling in love with someone else
Pei Ji'an couldn't help thinking, if it wasn't for Gu Mingke, they wouldn't be in this situation now. Gu Ming Ke was the one who came later. Who knows if Gu Ming Ke deliberately pretended to be a cold fairy in order to attract Li Chaoge
After all, Li Chaoge's hobbies are too stable and too obvious.
Gu Mingke thought it was unreasonable. If it was in the heavenly court, how could Tanlang dare to talk to him in such a tone? Gu Mingke condescended to come to the world to help the greedy wolf through the catastrophe, but in turn, he was questioned by his subordinates' subordinates
But Gu Mingke finally restrained his emotions. In public speaking, he? Now in official business, he can't affect the task because of his personal emotions. Gu Mingke didn't say anything, but just replied: "Aren't you too?"
Gu Mingke's voice was very cold, but Pei Ji'an still caught that Gu Mingke was angry. Pei Ji'an asked similar questions more than once before, and Gu Mingke coldly refused every time, clearly saying that it was absolutely impossible, but now, Pei Ji'an only tried one sentence, and Gu Mingke was not happy, not lightly. Not badly? Stab back and say you too.
This change is very subtle, it sounds like there is no difference, but Pei Ji'an can feel the difference. Gu Mingke was secretly reminding Pei Ji'an that the sage had already given them a marriage to Li Changle, so Gu Mingke barely said clearly, don't meddle in other people's business.
This change is intriguing. Pei Ji'an smiled on the surface, but the thorn in his heart became sharper. Pei Ji'an asked: "My cousin is familiar with classics, history, and should know more than me. I have something that I don't understand. Please help my cousin." .If a person misidentifies his feelings, and now the opportunity to correct them is in front of him, should he tell the other party?"
Gu Ming stared at them coldly with his eyes closed, while Pei Ji'an stared back with his neck straightened. Gu Mingke's gaze was full of oppression, and Pei Ji'an gradually felt strenuous. Pei Ji'an was very surprised. Isn't Gu Ming Ke a sick man? How could he have such eyes
Gu Mingke's face was as cold as jade, he looked at it for a while, his thin lips parted slightly, and he said calmly, "You are an adult, you can make any decision. But once you make a decision, you Do you want to bear all the consequences."
Pei Ji'an finally understood his own feelings and wanted to tell Li Chaoge. But then what
The emperor has "publicly" announced the marriage between Pei Ji'an and "Li Changle". Although there is no official marriage certificate, the emperor has kept his word. There is no "room for maneuver" in this matter. Pei Ji'an is about to marry Li Changle. Wouldn't it be troublesome for him to confess his love to his wife and sister
The most taboo in the royal family is that brothers and sisters compete for one person. If this matter gets out, what will the emperor and the empress want? How do you think about Li Chaoge? The crown prince, the royal family of the Li family, and even everyone in the world, how do you want to think about Li Chaoge? Li Chaoge obviously didn't do anything, yet he was accused of seducing his brother-in-law.
Pei Ji'an sank deeply when he thought of the will to marry him. That's right, they've already asked for a marriage, and they're the ones who personally cut off He's Li Chaoge's retreat. Now even if I understand my feelings, what's the use
Pei Ji'an closed his eyes, with a pained look on his face. He could not be afraid of death, but he couldn't hurt his parents or relatives. Gu Mingke saw him? Finally came to his senses, his tone was cold, and he warned for the last time: "I reminded you, once you ask for a marriage gift, there is no room for maneuver. People should be responsible for their words and deeds, don't Harm others and yourself. Pei Shiyi, I have something else to do, please go ahead."
Pei Ji'an didn't know how he was. Walking out of the Dali Temple, he was standing in the east city of the imperial city. The sun was shining brightly and the leaves were rustling. It was a bright and refreshing scene in late autumn, but Pei Ji'an felt cold. The place in his heart seemed to be empty, and the air was constantly leaking in.
He hated himself for being cowardly, never daring to admit his feelings, but even more hated himself for not living up to expectations. If Li Chaoge can come out, can't he? He? did like her, but so what?. Just a woman, how can she compare to her parents' family? The Pei family raised Pei Ji'an to grow up. Pei Ji'an should pay for the family. Li Changle is gentle and innocent, and will be a very good wife. In front of them is a bright and smooth road. In comparison, what is love between men and women
Pei Ji'an convinced himself that this was just a temporary love, and it would naturally dissipate after a long time. They have their own responsibilities and future. After that, men and women will marry each other and have nothing to do with each other. There is nothing to regret.