In the dim moonlight, he held her, she sat on his lap, he kissed her.
That night I dreamed of Yi Chen.
Some chaotic and incoherent scenes. When I was a child, I had to pass through the bridge hole after school. He and I were sheltering from the rain under the bridge hole, and then suddenly we were at home again. On that breezy afternoon, he closed his eyes and listened to English. I was about to ask questions. Standing at the door for a long time, staring at him blankly...
Finally, I stood on the Jingyuan path again, watching her snuggle in his arms, resting her head on his chest, grabbing his fingers and playing, while he indulged her, and there was no sound between them. After a while, he became impatient again, grabbed her with his backhand and pulled her closer, lowered his head, and kissed her gently again.
…
So for the first time, I knew that my heart hurts even in my dreams, and it hurts until I wake up.
2
Actually, I never felt that Yi Chen liked Zhao Mosheng very much, even though he admitted that she was his girlfriend.
In my memory, I once pretended to be curious and asked Zhao Mosheng, how did you know each other and how did you fall in love
She shook her head, stuck out her tongue, and looked very playful: "Stalker." Then she grabbed Yi Chen's sleeve and asked, "Really?"
Yi Chen hummed and ignored her.
Yi Chen seemed to treat her no different from others, he had always been this cold and indifferent, not much to say, and his actions did not show much intimacy. Usually walking, if Zhao Mosheng didn't pull him, he would walk in front alone. Zhao Mosheng complained to me once: "Yi Mei, do you think Yi Chen really likes me? I resisted looking for him a few days ago, and he didn't even think of looking for me..."
Mo Sheng looked at me with grievances in his eyes.
I said, "Try to lose your temper with him and see if he will come to coax you." Yi Chen has always hated people who make trouble without reason.
"Definitely not." She shook her head without thinking, and said dejectedly, "And I don't dare."
The longer I have been in contact with them, the more I feel that Yi Chen will accept Zhao Mosheng, probably just because he is lonely for a while.
She should be just a short misstep in Yi Chen's life, and it will disappear soon. Because they are so inappropriate, one is calm and reserved, one is passionate and impulsive, one is too sensible, and one is too naive. All I need is patience, waiting patiently for Yi Chen to find out how inappropriate they are.
However, the scene in Jingyuan broke all my confidence.
It turns out that where I can't see, they are like this.
Such intimacy...
Such…
The scene of Jingyuan came to my mind, I rolled over and buried my head in the pillow. It's been a few days, but I still feel a pain in my heart when I think of that scene.
The lights in the dormitory have been turned off, and a few chatty roommates have not slept, talking about the boys in the department. I've never been interested in their discussions, but this time I couldn't help asking out loud, "If a boy doesn't like that girl very much, will he kiss her?"
There is an answer right away.
"As long as you don't hate it, kiss is nothing, you can go to bed. He Yimei, is it someone who kissed you?" one of the roommates asked excitedly.
I opened my eyes and stared at the ceiling without saying a word.
You can kiss if you don't like her, so, could Yi Chen actually not like her that much
The roommate is still gushing: "He Yimei, say, is it someone who kissed you? Don't worry, if it's you, it must be like you, you are so good, you look so handsome, and your brain is smart..."
I listened to her in a daze.
What's the use of good conditions? He doesn't like me either.
However, if Zhao Mosheng's conditions were much better than mine, I might not be so unwilling, but she is a lot inferior to me.
Why would it be her
That night I fell asleep with my thoughts mixed up.
In the days after that, I will still go to University C and eat with them, but I will no longer have the kind of calmness I used to have.
I gradually realized that even if Yi Chen doesn't like me, I don't want to be his sister anymore.
So, one day more than a month later, I made an appointment with Zhao Mosheng.
I sat in a KFC to prepare myself mentally.
Zhao Mosheng was carrying a small backpack and walked outside the window. She saw me, waved at me through the glass window, and walked in briskly.
She seemed in a good mood. It has long been found that when she is in a good mood, she will jump a little when she walks.
After the business school moved to this campus, I went to C University for the first time, and she came to pick me up. At that time, I was waiting for Yi Chen at the school gate, but from a distance, I saw her walking briskly and slightly bouncing on the boulevard of the C University. into the sun.
"Yi Mei, hello. Classmate He is going to a meeting and sent me to pick you up." At that time, she walked up to me and said to me with a smile. Now she walked up to me with the same brisk steps: "Yi Mei, you are here so early."
She sat down across from me: "What shall we eat, I have coupons." She took out a stack of coupons in her bag and spread it out on the table to study.
"casual."
"Then I'll order the children's set meal for you, and give the toys to Yi Chen to play with." She said seriously.
I knew she was joking, but couldn't laugh at all, and I almost hated her ease, in stark contrast to my nervousness at the moment.