I stand up.
"Yi Mei." He called me lightly.
"Well, I-I'm here..." I didn't know what to say, and was a little panicked for a moment. If Zhao Mosheng left because of what I said, I don't know what he would think.
He didn't seem to notice my abnormality, and asked me what was the matter as before, I shook my head.
He didn't say much, just asked me to have lunch together.
We went to teach three cafeteria to eat.
If we don’t go to small restaurants outside, Jiao San Canteen is the place we go to most often, because Zhao Mosheng likes the sweet and sour pork ribs made by the master here very much, so he has to queue up early every time, for fear of not being able to make it. The chefs here probably knew her as well, and they always gave her more than others. She couldn't eat them, so they gave Yi Chen one by one with chopsticks. Yi Chen actually didn't like sweets, but he never seemed to refuse.
During the meal, Yi Chen was very silent, he didn't speak, and I didn't dare to say more. When he walked out of the cafeteria after eating, he said to me, "I will go to N University with you."
As soon as the words fell, a surprise was born in my heart, but the next sentence quickly annihilated my surprise.
"Mo Sheng's library card is with you."
"What..." I said blankly.
"The Book of Money and Banking that you borrowed for you last time was borrowed with her library card, and the library card was kept in it." Although he repeatedly mentioned her, his face was always flat, and his tone was unremarkable. ups and downs.
"Oh." I replied dumbly.
All the way to N. Today's road is extraordinarily quiet. Yi Chen is a person who doesn't like to talk too much. In the past, it was because Zhao Mosheng was annoying him by chirping along the way.
When I got to my school, he was waiting for me downstairs, and I ran upstairs.
In the previous stage, I was going to write a thesis on "Money and Banking". The books of N University on this subject were very old, so Tuo Yichen helped me to borrow them from the C University library. Yi Chen's library card was full, so he took Zhao Mosheng's.
I climbed into bed, took out the book of "Money and Banking", flipped through it, and the library card was indeed in it, in a later chapter, which I hadn't noticed before.
In the photo, Zhao Mosheng has a ponytail, and his big eyes are smiling like a crescent moon, and he looks like a bright sun.
A very familiar smile, which I used to see not too long ago.
Probably because she is really happy, her smile is very contagious. When she smiles, her dimples are looming, a bit naughty and a bit high-spirited, which makes people follow her in a cheerful mood unconsciously.
Yi Chen might just like her smile.
I actually look good when I smile, but not like her.
For a second, I wanted to throw this library card away and told Yi Chen that I couldn't find it. But in the end, he sent it down and watched Yi Chen put it in his pocket.
"She's gone." I kept saying to myself as I watched Yi Chen walk away from Xiao Suo's back.
No matter how bright the smile is, she has already left and has left the stage. Even if Yi Chen still had nostalgia for a while, he would soon forget her.
At least now, he has calmed down.
At that time, I didn't understand that there was a kind of calm called stagnant water.
Without Zhao Mosheng, the chance for me and Yi Chen to meet is less than before.
No one frequently called me to go to C University, and I couldn't find so many excuses to run there.
Therefore, it was a long time ago that Yi Chen smoked fiercely.
Boys smoking in college is a very common thing, I really don't want to associate it with another thing, I once deceived myself and told myself that it was only caused by the general environment, although this obviously did not fit Yi Chen's character.
But knowing it is one thing, seeing it with your own eyes is another. Once I went to their dormitory and saw him and his roommates getting drunk and stumbling around. In fact, there was a birthday in their dormitory, and everyone was drunk, not only him, but I don't know why I couldn't take it anymore.
Yi Chen is not like this, he has always been restrained, and he is very measured in everything he does. I really wanted to convince myself that he was just celebrating a friend's birthday, not drinking alcohol to relieve his worries, but the gloom and depression between his brows made me unable to deceive myself.
Blind spots that were previously invisible seem to be starting to become clear at this time.
Gradually, I remembered that when Yi Chen said that Zhao Mosheng was pestering people, there was a faint smile in his eyes.
Sometimes she would be a little late and he would get restless too.
No matter how sloppy she did, he would only frown and help her clean up.
…
There are many, many more, why didn't I see it before
Unconsciously I burst into tears, I do not know for whom.
It turned out that he was just trying his best to maintain a calm appearance, but now that he was drunk, he couldn't hold it any longer, and everything was exposed.
After he woke up, I was much calmer, and I just said to him sadly, "Not only my parents and my mother, but the aunts and uncles underground will be sad if they see you like this."
And I am also very sad, Yi Chen, do you know
He didn't say a word for a long time, his eyes were lowered, his expression was hidden in the shadows, and after a while he said sullenly: "You're right, I'm not qualified to indulge."
So the excellent and calm He Yichen came back, but I always felt that something was different.