In Cheng Zheng's memory, that summer was very hot and long. Standing at the darkest end of his high school career, he was busy looking forward to the legendary gorgeous college life, with the restlessness before breaking the cocoon. For Su Yunjin, what impressed her even more was the sticky struggle and dazedness just before the chrysalis emerged.
Su Yunjin grew up in a suburban county near the provincial capital. Her father was a biology teacher in the county, and her mother was an accountant in a textile factory in the county. Later, she was laid off in the "wave of enterprise reform" and had to become a housewife. . Due to her father's poor health and frequent visits to the hospital, the family's life is not well-off, but her parents are also very fond of her only daughter, so Yun Jin has never suffered any grievances since she was a child. After finishing the first year of high school in the county where her father taught, her parents lamented the backwardness of the local secondary school education level. In order for their only daughter to be admitted to a good university, they used all the savings and interpersonal relationships of a teacher's family to transfer her to a high school. A key middle school in the provincial capital. Yun Jin had a hard time accepting this arrangement from her parents. On the one hand, this transfer meant that she was away from her parents for the first time in her life to study abroad. It hurts. Of course, she couldn't beat her parents after all, and she couldn't bear to let go of their ardent expectations, so from the second year of high school, she became a transfer student at the provincial capital center.
Yun Jin had expected that she would feel uncomfortable when she entered a new environment, but she did not expect that the frustration that followed would be so deep. Her grades are not bad. In the original school, the exams always hovered around the top ten of the grade. However, the first section exam after transferring schools made her feel the cruel gap for the first time. The fifth-to-last in the class. That night, she hid under the quilt and cried for a long time, and she didn't have the courage to reveal the slightest bit about her grades to her parents. Shocked and more ashamed, Yun Jin felt that she had no face to treat her parents and the hard-earned money they had accumulated over the years, and she had no face to treat herself. The transfer student" card was too pressed to lift his head. The days that followed were naturally courageous after being ashamed, but the reality was often unsatisfactory. No matter how hard she tried, she never had the chance to be ashamed. At the end of the second year of high school, in a class of more than 60 people, Yun Jin's grades never made it into the top 30. Gradually, she also began to believe that it was a complete mistake for her parents to give her everything to send her to another school. Maybe she wasn't a smart kid in the first place.
At the end of the second year of high school, she also faced a turning point in the division of arts and sciences. Yunjin's Chinese grades were good, but history was terrible. Physics was her favorite subject, but maths and chemistry were not good, and English and politics were mediocre. She also hesitated for a long time, until one day after class, she lowered her head and walked through the aisle full of boys at the door of the classroom, and when she walked towards the bathroom at the end of the aisle, a sentence floated into her ear "... nonsense, of course I If you choose science, who doesn't know that only girls who read dead books and poor students who can't get along will study liberal arts...". Then several boys laughed exaggeratedly. Yun Jin felt a bang in her head, and the blood all over her body rushed to her face. In fact, she didn't know that those boys were unlikely to be targeting her, but the girl's sensitive and inferior heart made her feel that she was exactly the "girl who read a dead book and a poor student who couldn't get along" that others ridiculed. She hated it. Looking back, I had no way of knowing that it was the boy who was ranting, and I was even more embarrassed to stay in this place where there were many boys, so I hurried to the bathroom.
When she finally determined her intentions in arts and sciences, Yunjin chose science without hesitation. She thought that perhaps it was her last remaining pride that drove her to make this choice.
So, on this hot and suffocating May day early in the morning, Su Yunjin was in the classroom of a high school science class, looking at a chemical equation that could not be fully written, and threw the pen in her hand back into the pencil case. Leaning back hard, she let out a sigh of relief, and finally realized how stupid her momentary choice was. Who said that the flower season is bright, the rainy season is hazy, and the rainy season of Su Yunjin's flower season is full of dark clouds.
It wasn't just her studies that bothered her. She glanced around the classroom full of people and saw only heads buried in the textbooks. There was silence all around. Yun Jin thought to herself mockingly, even if there was a riot of laughter and laughter all around, she would never be able to blend in. The class is the same as all science classes. There are 57 students in the class, and there are only 8 girls in the class. Among them, 5 are girls from the provincial capital who live in the local area. Then go home for dinner, then go back to school for evening self-study, and then go home for the night after the self-study is over. Every day before the morning reading and the evening self-study are the most active times for these girls in the city. They share the wonderful plot of the TV series the night before and their idol's appearance in the new MTV, and discuss who and who is in the alley around the corner of their house. There is a beautiful dress in the clothing store, or the news of the day is exchanged with the boys about sports news. Yunjin listens quietly every day without interjecting a word. She is outside the wonderful world they are discussing, and she ends her self-study every day Then she went back to the dormitory with only beds and walls. Since there are not many students from outside the school, most of the local students do not live on campus, so the school's dormitory is quite simple, and the students living in it are all students from surrounding suburban counties or towns like Yunjin. Satisfied with the expression on his face, he seldom talked at night when he gathered in the dormitory at night, but often in the middle of the night or in the early morning, the light of night reading with a flashlight appeared from the quilt.
The other two girls in the class from towns and villages lived in the same dormitory as Yun Jin. One was named Mo Yuhua and the other was named Zhou Jing. Unlike Yun Jin, they both passed the high school entrance examination and were admitted to this high school with high scores. , and she got good grades in the class, she has always studied hard, they looked at Yun Jin with contempt, and Yun Jin felt that it was normal, the same "child from the countryside", she was justifiably admitted by virtue of this. is not. Mo Yuhua has a slightly fat body and a plain and simple face. She is the most diligent student in the class. She is usually unsmiling. Solving problems and memorizing words are as instinctive as breathing, but they are not difficult to get along with. I would also like to share it with Yun Jin. "For people like us, apart from studying hard, there is no other way out of the peasant gate." This was the only sentence Mo Yuhua and Yun Jin said during their only deep conversation.
Zhou Jing is petite and upright, she is enthusiastic about public welfare, likes to run in front of teachers, like to scrambling to clean the blackboard, and also likes to talk to the urban girls in the class during "discussion", but she often doesn't ask for it, but it is among the boys. The popularity is good, and the relationship with Yun Jin is average. Yun Jin once overheard Meng Xue, the most attractive girl in the class, spread her hands in front of a boy and said, "It's not that we don't like talking to girls from these townships, there really is no common language, is it possible that Discuss with them how many pigs there are in the family, how many acres of land?" There really isn't much to say, Yun Jin thought. So she became more and more silent, not at all the high spirits she had when she was studying at the school in her hometown.
As for the boys, as the forest grows, there are naturally "birds" that look like Zhou Zheng, but the green boy of this age still doesn't understand gentlemanly manners. Not to mention that the boys in their class also spontaneously selected the "Eight Dinosaurs" in the class, and none of the eight girls in the class slipped through the net. What's more, Yun Jin looked at her thin and faded blue school uniform and the dull face in the mirror. She felt that Cinderella's story was absurd, plus she was short-talking and awkward, her grades were mediocre, and she had nothing to say. The slightest bit of fascination is to consciously cut off the little turbulence of youth.