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Chapter 18

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What would it be like to attend your mom's wedding? I'm afraid not many people have experience. The night before the wedding, my mother fell asleep after a busy day. In the sound of her even breathing, Yun Jin's consciousness was so awake that it made her uncomfortable. Since her room had to be given to Cheng Zheng, she slept with her mother both nights. Yun Jin didn't dare to turn over and over again, for fear that her irritability would disturb her mother, who was smiling even in her dreams. It wasn't until the temperature of the hot water reached her palm through the glass that she felt like she was finally holding something real again.

At night in a small place, even the lights seemed to fall asleep with everyone. There was boundless silence all around. Yunjin sat softly on the old sofa without the lights on. The darkness that was hard to see made her think that her father was still sitting there. around. She used to yearn for the mutual affection between her father and mother. It turns out that everything will change. What is it in the end

The door to the small room on one side rattled slightly, and it seemed that he hadn't slept either. Yun Jin gradually got used to her dark eyes when she saw Cheng Zheng standing at the door and gesturing to her, she thought for a while, put down the water glass, and followed him to the small balcony at home.

Yun Jin looked at his profile in the dark calmly, waiting for him to speak.

Cheng Zheng said softly: "When I was very young, once, my mother teased me and said, 'Azheng, when you grow up, your mother can give you all your business', I asked, 'What does my mother do? I gave it all to me, what do I want?' My mother said, 'When you grow up, your parents will be old and you won't want anything.' I continued to ask: 'What will happen when you get old?' Mom said : 'I will leave'. So I cried on the spot, I don't want to grow up, I don't want them to grow old, don't leave. My mother is very helpless, but she still said 'Whether you want it or not, everyone has to say goodbye to you in the end'. When I grow up, I think, my mother is right, the person who will accompany you to the end will always be only you, but the traces of those who have accompanied you will never disappear."

Yun Jin said, "Can I understand that you are comforting me?"

Cheng Zheng smiled, "I just can't stand the way you look like an abandoned puppy."

"You don't understand how I feel."

"Su Yunjin, don't be so assertive, you don't know how I know I don't understand. You always say that the differences between us make us unsuitable, but no matter what background people, poor or rich, expect to love and be loved. There's no difference in terms, be fair to me."

This seems to be the first calm conversation with him in Yun Jin's memory, maybe because she was tired, she said a lot of things she usually doesn't want to say: "What is fair, Cheng Zheng? Why do you like me, I have to Response to you? I can leave out the past, but you came to school or even at home to find me on a whim, and disturbed the life I wanted to live over and over again. You never asked me if I wanted it or not. Your feelings are imposed on me, is this your fairness?"

No one has ever said such a thing to Cheng Zheng. From childhood to adulthood, he is used to having things that others envy, a good family background, a good appearance, and good grades. These things belong to him too easily, only he doesn't want them. , and rarely gets it, so when he desires something, he takes it for granted that he should have it. "I thought at least you would love me a little."

"I'm just a very ordinary person. A boy like you has loved me, and I may feel happy when I look back on it, but I've worked so hard with you. The love I want is equal, but you even You don't have the least respect for me, so Ju An is right, I don't dare to love you. You asked me that day, if you were willing to change your temper, would it be possible for us, and my answer was: you don't I need to change for me. You are very good, but you are not suitable for me. If you can meet someone who is right for you, such as Meng Xue, or someone else, you will definitely be happy."

Mom's wedding was held in a simple and festive atmosphere. Many relatives and friends of both men and women came on that day. In the lively and peaceful atmosphere, no one noticed the inexplicable alienation between a young man and a woman. Cheng Cheng appeared as Yunjin's boyfriend. Zheng naturally won unanimous praise from relatives and friends at the banquet, especially Yun Jin's grandmother, an old man in her 80s, who was sitting on a chair and holding his hand and refused to let go. Cheng Zheng didn't want to meet Yun Jinduo, so he was happy with Chenghuan's knees. Unexpectedly, the old man forced people to find Yun Jin, grabbed both of them with both hands, and said to Yun Jin, "Ah Jin, this guy is good." Yun Jin couldn't help laughing, her grandmother had been suffering from cataracts for several years. Even the facial features of a person can't be distinguished clearly, so how can he know that he is good. So she half-squatted beside the old man and asked half-truthly, "Auntie, where do you think he is?"

The old man said happily, "Isn't his name Chen Zhen? Chen is really a good guy, he helped Huo Yuanjia beat the Japanese..." Yun Jin couldn't help laughing, while Cheng Zheng's mouth was half-open, completely losing his language. Laughing and laughing, grandma too solemnly grabbed the hands of the two and folded them together and said, "I'm old, and I don't know how many years I can live. If you get married and grandma is still alive, you must tell me in person. Me." Cheng Zheng looked at Yun Jin without saying a word, while Yun Jin patted the back of the old man's hand with his other hand, coaxing and promising, "Ma'am, don't worry, I will definitely do it." Seeing the old man smiled contentedly Hua, Yunjin said silently in her heart: "I'm sorry, Auntie, maybe this day will never come."

The day after his mother's wedding, Cheng Zheng returned to his home in the provincial capital. Soon, Yun Jin also returned to school. The mother naturally moved to the husband's house, and Yun Jin also lived in the past for a few days. The environment of his house is of course not the same as their old house. The uncle also took great care of Yun Jin. . Yun Jin felt deeply about her status as a guest. Since she was a guest, she should not stay for long.

After the third year of junior high, the little girl Yunjin was tutoring as a tutor went to junior high school, and she also ended her mission. Because her mother and uncle did not agree with her to apply for a student loan again, and insisted on paying her tuition and living expenses, Yunjin's previous refusal brought tears to her mother, and she cried and said, "Yunjin, it is to make my mother feel better. Some." Yun Jin is not a person who does not change, she knows that accepting at this time is a good decision for everyone.

After the pressure of life was no longer so great, she had relatively more time, and the work in the department had become a habit, so she continued to do it, but she inadvertently looked up and could no longer see that A person with a clear smile. After graduating, he heard that he still successfully entered Yongkai, which reminded her of a person who was old in the sky, but after all, he gradually lost contact.

As for Cheng Zheng, she hadn't seen him again for a whole year. The few words about him were also learned from Yu Hua. They were nothing more than news that he won a certain design competition. He has always been excellent. After he was far away from her, he was still the Cheng Zheng who had everything. Maybe he would slowly forget the girl he once loved but brought him down.