You Are Still Here

Chapter 23

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I don't know what other people's love is like, will they be like them, like riding a roller coaster, sometimes flying to the clouds, and then falling to the bottom in a moment.

Yu Hua said, "Anyway, it's your own choice, 'the sky is falling apart'."

After Cheng Zheng was discharged from the hospital, he stayed with Yunjin for two days, and finally returned to school reluctantly. After he left, it took Yun Jin a day to realize that during the two-day snuggling, they didn't even think about taking contraceptive measures. Thinking of this, I couldn't help but feel scared. I didn't know what to do, and I was embarrassed to go to the pharmacy to buy medicine when I was beaten to death. Mo Yuhua didn't say a word, grabbed her and ran to the pharmacy.

The medicine was taken, but after all, it was not in time for it, and even Yu Hua dared not say that there was absolutely no danger. Yun Jin spent a star in fear and fear, until her menstrual period finally came as scheduled, a big stone in her heart fell to the ground, and she was secretly glad that there was a spring breeze on TV. It's not too high, but I've made up my mind that I'll never be so ignorant in the future.

From the day Cheng Zheng returned to Beijing, no one in the dormitory knew that Yun Jin had a boyfriend, because he was diligent on the phone, in the words of his roommate Xiaowen, even if he answered the phone, he was disabled. Yun Jin, who used to have the fewest phone calls in the dormitory, often held the phone in bed and chatted late into the night. At first, Yunjin was still a little intoxicated with the joy of passionate love. After a little longer, Cheng Zheng's domineering personality made her secretly complain. Occasionally, she called a few times and couldn't find anyone. Fortunately, his anger came and went quickly. Often, Yun Jin was too lazy to pay attention to him, like a raging fire that burned a ball of soaked cotton, and then naturally went out again. Therefore, every time he took the initiative to end the cold war at the end. he.

The two were separated by two places, one south and one north, and the distance was very far. As long as he had free time, Cheng Zheng would run to Yunjin's side. Yun Jin was distressed by the money spent on air tickets, but he was always indifferent. In his opinion, there is nothing more important than two people being together. Before the end of the preparation for the first semester of the senior year, he forced Yunjin to give her a mobile phone on the grounds that it would make it easier for Yunjin to find a job. Yunjin remembered that he also gave her a mobile phone last time, but she refused to accept it. The experience of throwing the phone from the window of the apartment on the eighteenth floor, I had to accept it. In this way, it is more convenient for him to contact her anytime and anywhere. Usually, Yunjin will have a headache every time he hears the ringtone he set for her that is exclusive to him. Yun Jin couldn't figure out why someone who seemed so cold, arrogant and reserved to others would become so clingy once he fell in love.

Before the Spring Festival this year, Yun Jin participated in the local college student double election meeting in her university. In her life, she had never appeared in so many people. At the crowded double election meeting, she was dizzy. The swelled land was crowded by the surging crowd, and I couldn't see the direction at all. The slightly better units were so crowded that flies couldn't get in. In this case, where can there be any rational choice? Jin didn't remember how many resumes he submitted, let alone how much he was sure of being admitted, but when he finally walked out of the gate of the double-selection meeting, he breathed in the suddenly fresh air and sighed deeply.

Cheng Zheng naturally didn't have to endure her tossing. If nothing else, the title of a prestigious school gave him more choices. What's more, his major is just popular, his performance in school is outstanding, his family background is strong, and it is easy to find a good job. It's just that he seems to be more influenced by his father in terms of employment intentions. He concentrates on his studies and goes to technical positions, but he has no interest in his mother's career. His parents are very enlightened and do not force him to choose what he likes to do. He only hopes that he can return to his parents when he chooses a place to work. After all, he is the only child in the family, and his father is the only child in the family. As the president of the Provincial Architectural Design Institute and the chief secretary of the party committee, it is not easy to arrange the position he wants for him. Cheng Zheng, however, said that he did not plan to return to his hometown, and he said the same to Yun Jin: "What's the point of relying on my father, not to mention having to endure his nagging after returning. It's better to stay in Beijing and be comfortable. Yun Jin, wait for you to graduate. As soon as we come over, we can be together every day."

In fact, although Yunjin is reluctant to return to her hometown, she prefers to stay in this southern city where she has lived for four years. Here, she does not feel that she is a foreigner, and she naturally integrates into the pulse of this city. She also expressed this to Cheng Zheng, but Cheng Zheng just said: "You are stupid, of course you want to be with me."

Of course to be together. He said it for granted, but Yunjin couldn't imagine how she would go north to reunite with him after graduation. It's not that she didn't miss Cheng Zheng, but her worries about the future overwhelmed her impulse. She didn't want to go to a completely unfamiliar city, because she had nothing but him there. If she lost him, she would have no way out. . Yun Jin felt remorse, it turned out that she was so selfish.

What made Yun Jin even more unexpected was that on the day of the double election meeting, some of her job-hunting resumes that were scattered like flowers were echoed, including a Sino-foreign joint-venture daily chemical company that she liked. She participated in the company's first interview with the mentality of giving it a try. Unexpectedly, the supervisor in charge of this recruitment appreciated her introverted and quiet temperament, so she passed the written test and retest all the way. When Yunjin signed an employment agreement with the company, the teachers in the department and the classmates in her class felt lucky for her. In this society where college students are getting cheaper and cheaper, it is a joy to be able to sign up for such a unit. . Yun Jin was naturally happy too, but she was even more uneasy, she couldn't imagine how Cheng Zheng would react when he found out about this.

He couldn't hide it horizontally and vertically, so when Cheng Zheng called at night, Yun Jin simply told him that he had signed the agreement.

"What did you say you signed?... Say it again." There was no emotional ups and downs in Cheng Zheng's tone.

Yun Jin felt her scalp tingle for a while, but had no choice but to repeat it.

He was really furious: "Su Yunjin, I found that you never consider other people's feelings when you do things."

"I..." Yun Jin still wanted to explain, but he had simply hung up the phone.

She hurriedly called back his mobile phone, but he was willing to answer it. After several times of dialing, he simply pressed it off.

Yunjin knew that with his temper, she was getting angry right now. No matter what she said, it would add fuel to the fire. However, two days, three days... Until the fifth day, Cheng Zheng didn't call her half a time. Yun Jin began to realize that he was really angry this time, so he took the initiative to call him again. Ignore it. Yunjin is not without regrets, she asked herself, if she had known that he would have such a big backlash, would she still want to stay in this city? In fact, when she signed the employment agreement, she didn't think much about it. Now that she thinks about it, it's too hasty. Like he said, she didn't think about his feelings at all... Or, she ignored it on purpose. , she's betting that she doesn't really care about him that much.

Now that the Spring Festival is approaching, the school has already closed the winter vacation. The reason why there are so many students staying at the school is that they are all graduates who are waiting for employment news just like her. Yun Jin is not a person who is used to stalking and stalking. After failing to contact Cheng Zheng for a few times, although she was frustrated, she did not call him in vain. On the other hand, her mother had called several times to urge her to go home for the New Year. She didn't want to go back to the home that no longer belonged to her, but she couldn't find a better reason to stay, so on the New Year's Eve. Two days ago, I packed up and got on the train home.

The degree of crowding on the train during the Spring Festival travel period does not need to be described too much. Fortunately, Yun Jin bought a seat ticket. Although she was crowded with people and luggage, she couldn’t move. Much luckier. In the carriage she was in, except for the students, most of them were migrant workers returning home from work in the south. They fell to the ground and sat or slept in any corner of the train. Although they looked tired, their eyes were full of returning home. of hope and joy. No matter how hard it is to work outside, at least there will be people waiting for them in their hometown. After a year of tiring, all they have been waiting for is the day they return with a full reward. Yun Jin looked at the passing scenery outside the window, who would be waiting for her at home? She admitted that her mother still loved her, but she loved another family more. She remembered that her mother had become as cautious as her uncle when she spoke to her, and she realized more clearly that she had no home. At this time, she suddenly missed Cheng Zheng like crazy, and missed the real warmth in his arms. It turned out how ridiculous his persistence had become compared to losing him. But he was still angry, Yun Jin thought, he couldn't care less, he always had to go home for the New Year, as long as he still had her in his heart, no matter how angry she was, she would pass. With him here, it may not be so difficult to adapt to life in Beijing, but what responsibility should I bear for the breach of contract by the unit that has signed the agreement... Yun Jin was still thinking about this moment before she stumbled on her seat and fell asleep. question.

It was already midnight when she woke up, the lights in the hard-seat carriage were not turned off at night, and the passengers around were playing cards and chatting, still so lively. She looked at the station name of a small station just passed, and after sitting in the car for more than ten hours, the journey was finally over halfway. As if sensing her waking up, Yun Jin just straightened her messy hair when the phone in her pocket vibrated. Seeing that familiar call, her heartbeat suddenly quickened.

"Where are you? It's terribly noisy." Even across the phone, Yun Jin could imagine Cheng Zheng frowning as he spoke.

"I'm on the train, how about you?" Yun Jin was embarrassed to shout loudly into the phone, but she was afraid that the roar of the train would cover up her voice.

"Train?" Cheng Zheng was speechless for a while, and then he seemed to hear the peculiar sound of the train. "What are you doing on the train? Where are you going?"

"I... go home." Yun Jin felt a little lack of confidence.

"Ha!" Cheng Zheng let out an exaggerated wry laugh on the other side, "I don't know what to say to you, but I finally came here, but you'd better go home without a word."

"I didn't keep silent. You didn't answer my call. How could you come here at this time?"

"Nonsense, if you don't want to go to Beijing, what can I do if I don't come? Should I be separated from you?" Although his attitude was still so abhorrent, Yun Jin felt a burst of warmth passed through her phone. She had a lot to say I wanted to tell him, but the only thing I said was: "You wait for me... wait for me."

After more than two hours, the train finally stopped at a large station. Yun Jin got off the train without thinking. It was 4:30 in the morning, the sky was still dark, and the small city she had never set foot in was still shrouded in silence. Among them, the train timetable showed that the next train bound for City G was 7 hours later. Yun Jin asked for directions, dragged her luggage alone and ran to the bus station. On the empty street, she forgot her fear and the early morning. The chill, she didn't realize her madness until she sat on the first sleeper car bound for G City at 5:30 in the city as she wished, covering her hot cheeks.

When the messy sleeper car arrived at the G city bus station, it was already the evening before New Year's Eve. Yun Jin stumbled out of the bus station door with the crowd, and unsurprisingly recognized him in the chaos. At this moment, she suddenly felt that the tense nerves in her whole body were completely relaxed, and she was so tired that she could no longer move her steps, and only smiled; Cheng Zheng saw her too, but he was not in a hurry to come to her, just He looked at her angrily and amusedly. The two smiled at each other across the endless stream of people a few meters away. In the end, Cheng Zheng stretched out a hand to her. There was a lot of noise around, but she understood what he said. He said, "Fool, come home with me."