The bathroom was misty, Yunjin walked wetly to the mirror and wiped the mist with her hands. She hadn't looked at herself like this for a long time. Su Yunjin, who didn't have any cover or defense, turned out to be a fragile woman. Her hands went all the way down her neck, resting on her flat stomach.
She remembered the look Lu Lu looked at her before finally getting out of the car. She was not surprised that a love perfectionist like Lu Lu would be so disappointed in her. In fact, even her long-time friend Mo Yuhua once disapproved of her choice. Attitude. Su Yunjin, who is proud in her heart, and Su Yunjin, who regards dignity more than anything, has become the third party in someone else's marriage. There is nothing more ironic than this.
But if she went back in time, would she have made that choice? Maybe she would still be like that. In the first period of time away from Cheng Zheng, she tried to hold the phone in her palm without sleep. No matter how painful it was for the two of them together, she subconsciously had an inexplicable insistence that he would come to her, he would definitely, just like After countless quarrels in the past, he would always find her back, and then she would personally tell him the words that were too late to say.
But he didn't.
The moment she let go and sank the phone he gave her into the Pearl River, she finally woke up, she and Cheng Zheng were really separated, he gave up on her and would not have any contact with her again. It's not that she didn't think that the two of them would suffocate sooner or later if they continued to be together, but if he really let go, if he slashed her flesh and blood, the pain was more than heart-piercing.
He said she didn't love him, he actually said she didn't love him!
What followed was that unbearable nightmare for more than three months. She lay in the hospital bed in despair, even having the most unbearable thoughts. She woke up in the middle of the night with a burning dry throat. She turned on the call light, and the nurse on duty made a desertion. She had to struggle to get a glass of water at the head of the bed. She leaned out a little, and the third time the blade burst open, she finally reached a glass of water and poured it into her throat like a rain, and she couldn't even feel the pain of the wound for the time being.
At that time, Yu Hua went to Shanghai to do the biggest stupid thing in her life; Ju An followed Zhang Yue to France; she didn't expect the consequences to be so serious, at first she didn't even dare to tell her mother. A man was in the hospital unaccompanied, but his colleague brought news that the company was about to undergo a major personnel adjustment. She had a premonition that she would lose something, so she was not afraid of anything.
At this time, Mr. Xu came to see her alone, and she was flattered. Although he was the one who recruited her into the company with his eyes, it was indeed unexpected and unexpected, as a senior leader of the company, to see her in person as a little-known employee. matter. He took care of her hospital affairs, reserved a place for her at the tumultuous juncture of the company's personnel, and occasionally came to see her after get off work. Yun Jin is not a fool, she gradually understood something from his eyes, and for a long time, she was strangely silent. Later, her mother found out about her illness and rushed over from her hometown immediately. Cheng Zheng was gone, but she met Xu Zhiheng. Her mother was very surprised, but she didn't say anything. Of course, Yun Jin didn't tell her that Xu Zhiheng had married in Taiwan. After getting married, they were later transferred to the mainland by the headquarters, and the wife was unwilling to come along, and the two gradually became separated.
After being discharged from the hospital, when she thought about the past, it was like a lifetime. She knew that there were some things she had lost forever. Frankly speaking, Xu Zhiheng never forced her, everything was her own decision. After walking around the edge of life and death, she realized how ridiculous her persistence and poor self-esteem were. When people are in a desperate situation and have nothing, self-esteem is worthless. She has no power, because she has to live, and to live better, she has lost love and can no longer lose the ability to continue to find happiness. Xu Zhiheng was the one who appeared right at this time. He pulled a hand from the edge of the abyss. It was a straw before she drowned, and she had nothing else to give him back.
So it became a third party in the eyes of others. Aside from everything else, in fact, there is no deal between her and Xu Zhiheng. He is mature, handsome, successful in his career, knowledgeable and interesting, and most importantly, he has the tolerance and open-mindedness of a mature man. If we met earlier, she would have will love him. In her eyes, he is not a successful married man, but a lonely person in a foreign land. She is not living in a vacuum, she is a living person, a woman, for nearly four years, she knows the warmth and coldness, so more often they comfort each other, warm each other, and need each other.
Except when she was in the hospital, Yun Jin did not accept any form of gift from Xu Zhiheng. She needed money, but not in this way. She doesn't feel that she has any support because of her ambiguous relationship with Xu Zhiheng in official affairs, and she doesn't want to have unjustifiable results, so she must work harder and never slack off; Xu Zhiheng is also a principled person, and he seldom takes personal care of himself. Feelings are brought to work, but it is undeniable that, whether directly or indirectly, her career has gone smoothly in the past few years, and he has contributed to it. Some things are very realistic. Without him, she would not be able to keep her position after lying in the hospital for three months, facing the company's personnel reshuffle; it is impossible to regain her position after she recovers. The training opportunity she once refused; no matter how well her planning plan is done, as an unqualified young man, it must be difficult to put it into practice without a boss; at the critical time of personnel assessment and promotion, facing competitors with the same conditions, He had no reason to choose another person instead of her. She is very clear about these things. All she can do is to grit her teeth and do better, to prove to everyone that she deserves everything she is now. She is still successful. Over the years, there have been rumors about her and Xu Zhiheng in the company. But in secret, no one dared to say that she, Su Yunjin, sitting in this position today is not worthy of her name.
Long before his wife found her, Yun Jin had a premonition that her relationship with Xu Zhiheng was about to come to an end. He didn't say it, but she knew that he was beginning to contradict. After all, he and his wife had loved each other. They were alumni in college and had strong feelings after marriage, but it was the distance that made them estranged. Xu Zhiheng couldn't let Yun Jin go, which was normal. They had given each other the most realistic warmth, but Yun Jin understood that she had to make a decision. She and Xu Zhiheng were just passers-by, whether it was ungrateful or ungrateful, she and Xu Zhiheng were just passersby. The wind was heavy and the rain was heavy. Not loving also has the advantage of not loving. Separation, although regrettable, is only regret.
After returning to work in the company, she and Xu Zhiheng were only superiors and subordinates, so much of the past was buried there. It was a bit awkward at first, but fortunately Xu Zhiheng was very tolerant, his personal friendship was gone, and he still admired her in business affairs, except that the marketing department was on the 6th floor, and the sales director's office was on the 11th floor. The opportunity for the two to meet gradually diminished.
On the other hand, Lu Lu had been frowning for several days since he ran into Mrs. Xu Zhiheng's affair that night and learned about the relationship between Yun Jin and Xu Zhiheng. Yun Jin really couldn't stand her unfounded worries, so she called her into the office one day before she got off work.
"What happened recently?" Yun Jin looked at her from her seat.
Unexpectedly, she twisted for a while and said, "I only now know how uncomfortable it is to carry such a big secret, but I can't tell it."
Yun Jin didn't know whether to laugh or cry, "I think it's even more uncomfortable for you to take the wrong information twice."
In this regard, he solemnly warned her and ordered her to concentrate on her work without mentioning it.
Soon after the Mid-Autumn Festival is Yunjin's twenty-eighth birthday. On her birthday, her mother called her, nothing more than sighing that she is too old, and her relationship is really not settled, and the daughter of someone next to her home is the same age as her, and her son is already in kindergarten. etc. My mother's health has been getting worse and worse over the past few years, and various problems have continued. Yun Jinfan tries to follow her as much as possible, and this time is the same, so she solemnly promised on the phone that she will never miss a good person. It is also Lulu who has a heart. Under her initiative, colleagues in the marketing department sent Yun Jin a large bouquet of exaggerated roses. No woman would refuse roses. After get off work, Yunjin put the flowers in the passenger seat and smelled the faint fragrance of flowers in the car, so she didn't feel how terrible it was to be one year older.
A few days ago, Yu Hua made an appointment to have dinner with her at night to celebrate her birthday, so after get off work, Yun Jin drove home to change clothes. When she drove downstairs to her house, she saw the familiar Volvo again. In fact, Yunjin had already seen this car in the underground garage a week ago. She was surprised at that time. After looking closely at the license plate number, it was undoubtedly the one that followed her that night. She immediately found the guard in charge of the garage. They were told that the owner of the car was also the owner of their community. Yun Jin felt that something was wrong, but it could also be explained that it was because the owner of the car lived in their community that the misunderstanding that she thought the other party was following her happened by coincidence that night.
When she was about to pass the car this time, Yun Jin slowed down the car and rolled down the window, she thought, if it was a coincidence, she might be able to see the real face of the car owner, but apparently no one was in the car. The property in the community has regulations that private cars are not allowed to park for a long time in the public aisles that are not in the parking lot. Her inexplicable curiosity made her pull the car aside. The result did not disappoint her. In less than two minutes, a man and woman hugged and walked out of the elevator.
If you change her mood, Yun Jin will feel that the man and woman in front of her form a very pleasing picture together. The man is tall and handsome, and the woman is a little bird. At this moment, at dusk, Yun Jin was sitting in the car, the sky was getting dim little by little, this darkness swallowed up the world, swallowed her, covered the sky and covered the earth, rubbed everything into ashes, only a pair of beautiful people were left in front of them, they smiled at each other. , no one else in sight.
It's not that she never thought that one day she would meet on a narrow road. She thought that she could smile away her grievances. She instinctively wanted to step on the accelerator and walk away, but every inch of her flesh and blood didn't belong to her, so she sat abruptly in the car and watched him and her get into the car and leave.
Two cars passed head on, and he didn't look at her.