I remember someone saying, "Never gossip about coworkers in the bathroom", which is said to be the famous seventh law of social survival, and I take it seriously. But apparently some people don't think so.
"...Look at you, your lips are so exaggerated, you will be miserable if the director catches you."
"What are you afraid of? The director has time to pay attention to this. Women, you don't even have the right to dress up. What's the point of living."
"Don't say it, some people don't like this."
"Hee hee, I know who you are talking about, isn't it Mo..."
The two young nurses laughed for a while, and one of them said, "You say, have women like Dr. Mo ever been in love?"
"Who knows, anyway, I can't imagine any man who can stand her scalpel-like expression."
"I see, maybe she has been hurt by a man before, so..."
"Haha, but keep your voice low so that no one can hear you."
"What are you afraid of, it's not her shift today."
I stood quietly in the closed bathroom. Speculating about other people's secrets and having fun with it is one of the joys in many people's lives, and I'm honored to please them. Before they left, I opened the door of the bathroom and walked out. When I was washing my hands, I felt it was necessary to explain, so I said to the little nurse with her lipstick hand hanging in the air, "I'm sorry, I Today I will be in Doctor Wang's class."
After carefully wiping off every bit of wetness on my hands, I bypassed the two stunned little nurses and walked out of the bathroom. It doesn't matter how they slandered me after they reacted.
They are not entirely wrong.
I will never forget that on the last night after the senior year of high school, in the dark and secluded KTV aisle, there was only a distant echo of the ghostly crying in the box, which could not cover my heartbeat.
It never occurred to me that I would run into him head-on this night on the way back from the bathroom. His face was red, and he hurried to his destination, apparently drinking a lot. He didn't look at me when he passed by me. But I know that this is the last chance God gave me, and I don't want to say goodbye with secrets and regrets.
"Zhou Ziyi!" I stopped him.
He took a step forward, then turned back suspiciously, looked around me, and searched for the person who called him.
I said to myself, Mo Yuhua, from one to seven, don't be nervous anymore.
I felt my feet slowly walking towards him, and a voice said, "Can I take up a little of your time, I have something to tell you."
He froze for a moment, but did not speak.
I said, "I like you, three years, all the time."
In fact, I never expected him to respond: "Me too", and I was completely prepared for the worst. However, when he said with an unbelievable expression, "No way...you forgive me", I realized that my defenses were far from being as strong as I thought. So many years later, I still believe that some of the most hurtful words often come from the most beautiful mouth.
Yun Jin used to be unfair to me. "Why?" she asked me. "He has nothing to love but a pretty face." I couldn't answer her.
Love often seems unreasonable, but when you look at it from the outside, there are signs of everything. Most people look for souls similar to themselves in the crowd, and some people fall in love with someone who has that part of the trait they long for but lack. I belong to the latter.
I have been in the same class as Zhou Ziyi since the first year of high school. On the first day of my high school career, I was sitting in the bright and clean classroom of the provincial key middle school, as if I still had the smell of the soil of my hometown, and then I saw Shi Shiran walking into the classroom. It was raining heavily that day, and all the people who walked through the campus with umbrellas were embarrassed, but he was dressed in white, his clothes and shoes were spotless, as if it had fallen from the sky. Before that, I had never been able to imagine a boy. To have such flawless beauty.
I don't know how many female classmates in the classroom at that time looked at him indifferently like I did. When he passed by me, I lowered my head and saw only his snow-white shoes. I naturally think of the opposite sex that I have been in contact with since I was a child, my fathers, and my elder brothers. They work in the fields barefoot for many years, and their feet are always covered with dirt that cannot be washed. Six dollars a pair The liberation shoes, my father will wear from spring to winter for three years. Maybe I have loved him from that moment, he is like a dazzling lightning, opened the world in front of my eyes, let me see another world of cloud and mud.
I stand in the dust longing for the man in the clouds.
I used to scrub those hands with dirt from years of farm work hidden in the nails for a long time with water, and I used to desperately backlog my ordinary, slightly fat cheeks in front of the mirror, and finally I had to admit that I was not destined to be him. people like that. I had to work harder and study harder because I knew that nothing could change my destiny except this. Even if I can't transform into a snow-white swan like him, at least, I don't want to be an ugly duckling all the time.
Classmates for three years, we never said a word, I doubt whether he knows my name. Just like Cheng Zheng, he is the pride of the sky in everyone's eyes, and he has an innate aloofness. If Cheng Zheng's indifference to girls has discouraged many people, Zhou Ziyi's cynical smile is undoubtedly more loving and loving. Hate - of course, his smile only blooms on beautiful women. He can be the most considerate boy, or he can be the leader who uses pranks to trick girls. His grades are not very good, and he can make troubles. He can be extremely tolerant from the principal to the teachers, except because of He has an endearingly sweet mouth and more because he has a father who is said to be the largest real estate developer in the province.
But then I learned that he was a child who no one loved. In the three years of high school, his father's assistant has always attended the parent-teacher meeting; I heard that in his 400-square-meter mansion, only him and the nanny lived for many years. Whenever there is a chance, he will invite friends to the house. Had a lot of fun. In my sophomore year of high school, I once heard someone say that his father's car was destroyed beyond recognition when he came to the school to meet with the principal. However, before that, by chance, I saw with my own eyes that in a corner of the campus, he was standing next to a seemingly expensive car, and smashed the car like crazy with stones picked up from the flowerbed. of each piece of glass.
It turns out that the cloud world is also incomplete. Once a woman's love is mixed with motherhood, it will be even more hopeless. I pity him, although I know how ridiculous and worthless my pity would be if he knew, but he still became the softest place in my heart. My love is hidden and hopeless. I'm not Yunjin, and I can't learn to restrain my feelings. Reason clearly keeps me away from him, but my feelings go in the opposite direction. So I chose to tell him everything on the last night of my senior year. I didn't expect a result, but a clear conscience.
When I was youngest, I loved a most beautiful boy, even if he saw me as a beast and fled, even if he became a laughing stock, I have no regrets.
The hard work I put into my studies is always more practical than the investment in people. For three years in high school, my hard work and hard work paid off, and I was admitted to the ideal university as I wished, becoming the first in the history of the whole village to jump out of agriculture. The "female champion" of the door, with the support and expectations of the villagers and fathers, I set foot on the big city in the south. In my opinion, the life of a university is nothing more than moving from one laboratory to another. I am not an interesting person. I am restrained by nature, and I don’t have many friends. Fortunately, I have Yunjin. We became each other's only acquaintances in a city.
During the summer vacation when the freshman year ended, Yun Jin hesitantly brought me the news that he had a girlfriend. In fact, I already know that I rarely leave a message in the online classmate record, but I often log on it, because I am eager to see the few words he left in it, he is so high-profile in love, and he and his girlfriend The photos were plastered all over the electronic album in the classmate's record. The girl, like him, had a beautiful face like an angel. Looking at his satisfied and sweet smile in the photo, I know that he is really in love and happy. He won't remember me. Maybe he will only occasionally mention it when he is teasing with his girlfriend. The country girl with the name, who had comically expressed her love to him.
I thought my whole life was like this, watching his happiness in the dark. Unexpectedly, when I saw him again, it was the sixth year after graduating from high school. He had already become famous in real estate, and his former girlfriend became his beloved fiancee. When he was on a business trip in G city, he invited the classmates in high school. It was Cheng Zheng who called me. I know what he meant. He was afraid that if I didn't go, Yun Jin wouldn't go. He needed a chance. To ease the rift between him and Yunjin. But Cheng Zheng didn't know that even without his phone call, I would still attend the party that day. I'm not a person who is good at hiding, or I'm so eager to see Zhou Ziyi again.
That night, Zhou Ziyi came to me and greeted me intentionally or unintentionally. He said, "Yu Hua, you have become beautiful." What a vain person I am, I know that his words are only three-pointed seriously, but one A heart was already jumping in his chest, at least he remembered my name.
Six years have made the originally handsome man even more suave, but it has also taught me to pretend that nothing has happened. When they were half drunk with each other, he asked me with a smile, if I had found the person I liked. I also laughed, you forgot that I had a crush on you in high school. After so many years, maybe I haven't found the person I love more. My words made him lean back and forth with laughter, and he patted me on the shoulder, as if agreeing with my humor, for which we had another toast.
How helpless the world is sometimes, the fake is real and the real is fake, the person I love is right in front of me, but he doesn't know, some things, I never tell lies.
He drank a lot and talked a lot that night. Me too, although I've never been a talkative person. In the end, he was completely drunk. On the way I stopped the car to take him back to the hotel, he leaned heavily on my shoulder, still muttering: "Yu Hua, you are really an interesting person, if you go back a few years Before, I might fall in love with you, hehe." My reaction was the same smile. I'm not stupid, Zhou Ziyi is a businessman, even when he's drunk, he won't suffer. He said he would love me if he went back to the beginning, but everyone knows that no one can turn back time, so he will never fall in love with me.
When I got back to the hotel, I staggered and half-pulled him back to the room, and the passengers in the elevator could not help frowning ambiguously when they smelled the smell of alcohol and the body entangled with him. Let the waiter open the room door, and I threw him on the carpet of the luxury suite, exhausted, and a high school classmate's duty was no more than that. He was lying on the floor, pulling his tie in a daze. I couldn't see it, so I squatted down and gave him a hand. The moment he took off the tie, he seemed to be awake with the other end of the tie and pushed him hard. Pulling on my body, I swayed and almost missed him. "Don't go..." he said. I got up and called the male waiter on duty.
As I walked back to the elevator, I iced my hot cheeks with my hands, and I confessed that at that moment, my heart was racing. A normal woman can't be indifferent to the man she has always loved. I could totally stay and share a night with him for a great reason "drinking sex" and have memories for the rest of my life. However, I, Mo Yuhua, couldn't sleep with a man who kept telling me how I missed his girlfriend even after being drunk. I couldn't do it, so I was destined to miss him in the dark.
The next day, he called me to thank me and invited me to go out to dinner alone. I refused on the grounds that there was something wrong with the school. I couldn't bear to repeatedly tease him, whether it was intentional or not.
Later, he naturally returned to Shanghai. The meeting improved my relationship with him, and he would call me, sometimes just to chat, sometimes to tell me about career and emotional difficulties. Chen Jiejie, his fiancée, is also the most mentioned name by Zhou Ziyi. She is really a lucky girl, who can make the prodigal Zhou Ziyi love her for so long. She left him at home with confidence, and traveled alone in Europe. I dare not say that he is as guarded as jade, but at least in his heart, he is loyal to her. I think, in addition to being beautiful, she must also have her own qualities.
My days passed in increasingly onerous internships, and it was good to study medicine. It made me forget that I was twenty-five years old, and I never had a male partner by my side.
Just entering the seventh year of university, I just followed the hospital to take my doctor to complete a simple appendix operation when I received a call from Meng Xue, Zhou Ziyi had a car accident in Shanghai, half of his life left, and now he is lying in bed In the high-risk ward of the hospital, life and death are uncertain. She asked me if I wanted to fly to Shanghai with her to see him, and I refused. It doesn't make any sense for me to go to Shanghai, his family environment is enough to give him the best medical care, as long as he doesn't die, he will get the best care, if he dies... If he dies, for me, in fact, nothing what changed.
I stood there in a daze, chilling at my own thoughts. My instructor, also my senior brother, Dr. Wu walked past me. He looked at me in surprise: "Xiao Mo, why are you crying?"
am i crying? Why don't I know? I randomly touched the wet marks on my face, and it turned out that I was really in tears. "It's okay, my eyes are a little inflamed," I said.
Dr. Wu smiled and didn't ask further, "Maybe you need to go to the bathroom to treat your 'inflamed' eyes."
In the next few days, I went to work as usual, rested as usual, and didn't ask about the place thousands of miles away, what happened to him, but in my dreams, I always saw blood red. On the sixth day, Meng Xue called me, and she sighed: "Fortunately, my life was saved, but it was not enough. I broke three ribs, one of which was almost in my lung, and my spleen was in the spleen. It ruptured, one third of it was cut off, the left nose was fractured, and the left thigh was comminuted. Alas, but rich people also have their own difficulties. Everyone has become like that. His parents only accompany him because of business matters. He has been busy for two days, and his girlfriend is even better. Just a phone call a day, but people say that he is going to face the exam, but he has never come back. His family hired three senior nursing staff to take care of him in three shifts, no matter how good it is. After all, his caregiver is no match for his family, and looking at his appearance, it is quite pitiful."
I hung up the phone, thought about it for a long time, and started packing before my decision was made. Then I called Dr. Wu and asked him for a long vacation. He pondered on the other end of the phone, "Xiao Mo, you have to know that this internship is very important for your graduates, and it is even related to whether you can get the final contract. You are very intentional, you are taking a long vacation this time... In short, you must think clearly."
"Senior brother, I know very well."
That afternoon, I took all the subsidies for my internship and flew to Shanghai and went straight to the hospital. When I saw Zhou Ziyi wrapped in layers of white cloth in the ward, I couldn't connect him with that suave person at all. I stood beside him and put down my luggage. At that time, he was too weak to speak. When he saw me, a tear ran down the corner of his eye and disappeared into the gauze wrapped around his face.
In the days that followed, I coordinated with the nurses. Their work was still the same, but some personal care and professional details could be entrusted to me. Her workload was reduced, and her salary was paid, so she was naturally happy and relaxed. As for the hospital, I only said that I was his friend, but I think that most medical staff regard me as his girlfriend. Of course, in the eyes of most people, who would believe that an ordinary friend would be so undressed care for a bedridden patient. So, after a period of time, when the doctor on duty teased him, "The young man is lucky, he can still save his life after the car crashed like that, and there is a professional doctor girlfriend who takes care of you like this", we did not make it clear .
His physical condition was already very good, so the wounds recovered very quickly. After more than 20 days, he was able to sit up on the bed halfway. The gauze on his face was also removed, but his hands and feet were still in plaster casts. Life still can't take care of itself. After he wakes up, when he wipes his body, every time he wipes his lower body, his face will flush red and his whole body will be unnaturally tense. It's just an organ, so I usually say to him, "You don't need to feel weird in front of a doctor, I've seen one bigger than you, and I've seen one smaller than you, you can rest assured that it's not at all. Special." Only one day after a month, when I was accustomed to cleaning him again, I found that a certain part had a strange reaction. At that time, I admitted that my embarrassment was no less than his, and I had to cough lightly: "Look at it. Come on, you really recovered well."
Accompanying each other for more than two months, I almost thought we were the only ones left in this world, and I lived in the escort bed in his VIP ward. Every night I would chat with him from all over the world, and then lie down on the bed five meters apart to say good night: He dislikes the heavy hands of the nursing workers, and generally does not want them to take care of them personally; even the food does not pass through my hands. , and refused to eat honestly; even once I was walking around the hospital and came back a little late, and before I entered the ward, I heard that he couldn't find anyone and lost his temper at the nursing staff. I really almost thought that I was important to him, until the day when he recovered and was discharged from the hospital, I went to the hospital cafeteria to have breakfast, and I would no longer be able to squeeze into his ward, his parents, relatives, friends, company The subordinates blocked the ward so that the smell of flowers could be smelled far away.
I was on the other side of the hospital, eating two breakfasts by myself. When the stomach is full, it is not easy to be sad. When I finished everything and walked back to the ward, the people had already dispersed, how sad, I even longed for him to be like the hero at eight o'clock, and when I was almost desperate, I stayed alone and said : "I'm still here."
Of course he's gone. People are like this, they know it's impossible, but they still have expectations.
The one who stayed in the ward was a middle-aged man who claimed to be his father's assistant. He politely expressed his gratitude to me on behalf of Zhou Ziyi and his family. It could be seen that he was a man older than accidents, so when he said : "We all understand that Miss Mo is taking care of Mr. Zhou out of the love of a good friend, but it took so much time for you. If you can't accept this, you won't be Mr. Zhou as a friend." Then put the kraft paper When the kit was handed to me, I didn't seem to have any reason to refuse. So I took it, put it in my hand and weighed it. The Zhou family really has a lot of money, and this money is enough to hire any of the best nursing staff in the country. I opened the envelope, counted out twenty pink bills carefully, and handed the rest back to him. "Please go back and tell you Mr. Zhou, thank him for giving me the money for the flight back."
Flying back to City G, the first thing I did after returning to the hospital was to see Yunjin. She was lying on the hospital bed, her face was no different from the white sheets. Seeing me, she took a long time to say a word: "Yu Hua, the child is gone. The doctor said that I will never have another child."
I sat on the edge of her bed, grabbed her hand and covered my eyes with mine, tears seeping from between her fingers. She is such a woman who is good at protecting herself, so she would do such stupid things. Does a woman always have to be stupid this time in her life, and then her heart will slowly become hard? She is like this, and so do I.
In front of Yunjin's hospital bed, I received a call from Zhou Ziyi. He said, "Yu Hua, I am grateful to you, and I will never forget that if one day you need me, I will do it for you."
I listened to him quietly, and then told him, "What do I want you to do, don't think too much about yourself, I'm going to Shanghai, not for you, but for myself. You don't owe anything."
After hanging up the phone, I said to Yun Jin, "He's a shrewd man, and everything has a price, you hear him, he said that in order to thank me, he would like to go through fire and wind, and this is the price he gave me... But What's wrong with him, he didn't ask me to do anything for him, go to Shanghai, I'm doing it for my heart, not for mercy."
The tears dried and I was relieved.
After returning to the hospital, I was warned and punished by the hospital leaders and the school. Fortunately, I have always been diligent in the past, and finally did not make things worse.
Half a year later, I received Zhou Ziyi's wedding invitation, which clearly stated: The bridegroom Zhou Ziyi, and the bride Chen Jiejie would like to hold the wedding ceremony on the date of xx, xx, xx year, with a glass of wine, and looking forward to Miss Mo Yuhua's visit.
She finally came back, the prince and the princess are always together, so that's fine, the lovers get married.
The day before the wedding, Yun Jin asked me, "Yu Hua, will you go?"
I said, "Go, why don't you go, since red envelopes always have to be shot, then I at least have to see it clearly."
"That's fine. If you go, take the red envelope with me. If my company has something to do that day, I won't go."
I said yes. Because I knew the reason for her not going, she didn't want to meet that person.
On the day of the wedding, I didn't dress up because I knew I should never compare myself to a happy bride, and I was never a beauty. When I put the red envelope on the bridesmaid's tray, I seriously said to the pair of beautiful people in front of me, "I wish you all the best of luck." I looked at Zhou Ziyi, and kept seeing the depths of his eyes, he avoided mine. eyes. Then I put Yunjin's share and said, "This is Yunjin's. She asked me to congratulate you both on her behalf." Yingting's best man's eyes quickly dimmed.
I think of Yun Jin's pale face, love is such a thing, it won't let another person get it just because one person loses it, it will only break everyone's heart.
I walked out of the bathroom, forgot the two poor little nurses, and went back to my consulting room. When Dr. Zhang, who was sitting across from me, saw me coming back, I immediately got up and said, "Doctor Mo, hold on, it's my turn to deal with it. Let's take a moment." Life, old age, sickness and death are human nature, so the "business" of the hospital is always so good.
I immersed myself in the case of a patient, and said to the outside: "Next." Soon someone sat diagonally across from me. I looked up and waited for my patient to speak.
He said, "Doctor, I'm in pain here."
He pointed to his chest. I said seriously: "If it's chest pain, I suggest you go to the internal medicine department first."
"What if there is blood?"
"Then I can give you a Band-Aid." I pretended not to see his spoof expression pretending to be Xizi holding his heart.
My patient was silent for a while, and finally put away his hippie smile, "Yu Hua, I'm divorced."
This is not new and hot news. I said, "If so, you can see a psychiatrist, or go to a counseling center."
"Yu Hua, can we talk in a different way?" he said.
"Now that you're sitting here for the number fee, that's all we can talk about. If you have nothing else to say, next."
I called Yun Jin at night. After she returned home because of her mother's illness, I never saw her. On the other end of the phone, she said she had resigned. Then I heard a familiar voice, "Yunjin, who are you talking to on the phone." She covered the receiver and didn't know what to say. After a while, she said to me, "Let's continue."
I immediately understood: "Is the resignation also for him?"
Yun Jin said: "It can also be said that since I decided to get back together, I naturally have to give him an explanation. He can say that he doesn't care, but I can't continue to work under Xu Zhiheng, which will make me feel very awkward. "
"Are you really sure that you can start over? Aren't you afraid of repeating the same mistakes." I didn't pour cold water on her, but I saw her and Cheng Zheng's split and close in the past few years. If love can solve the problem, then they Will not be separated in the first place.
"I'm not sure about anything. It's impossible for two people to solve all problems together. I'm only now beginning to understand that love can't be too serious, it can only be said to be tolerant of each other."
Maybe she is right.
Yunjin went on to say: "There's something funny. I woke up in the middle of the night the day before yesterday and heard the sound of someone rummaging through boxes and cabinets in the room. I was shocked and turned on the light, only to find out that it was him. I asked him, Looking for something in the middle of the night, he said he was looking for the household registration certificate of the two of us."
I smiled and asked, "He's not proposing to you, is he?"
Yunjin also smiled and said, "I asked him the same, but he just said to me, 'Su Yunjin, a man is like a flower at twenty-eight years old, but women can be disabled at this age, so we have to get married'."
"This is indeed Cheng Zheng's style."
"Yu Hua, do you believe it, sometimes love really needs a little blindness and impulsiveness, so I just answered him at the time: I don't know what time the Civil Affairs Bureau opens. No one believes that, the Civil Affairs Bureau goes to work at eight o'clock, and I and I The two fools of him were already waiting at the door at seven o'clock, and it was hard to wait until the clerks were in place to realize that it was only a divorce that day."
I couldn't help laughing out loud, and then I said to her, "Yun Jin, did I ever say I was jealous of you."
Yes, no matter how much suffering she has had, as long as she is willing to turn around, there will always be that person waiting for her. But where is the person waiting for me.
After Zhou Ziyi and Cheng Zheng became business partners, the focus of work gradually shifted to G city. Anyway, they got divorced and had nothing to worry about in Shanghai. One day after half a year, I had already gone to bed, but I received a phone call from a drunken man. The background was the sound of boiling music. He said, "I've had a little more to drink, can you come and pick me up?" I Knowing that I should reject him severely at this time, but in the end, I still asked him where he was, then put on his clothes again and went out, and transported him home after drinking.
Everything has a first time and a second time, and I became his fire brigade. Gradually, sometimes when he ended the entertainment by himself, he would also drive to the place where I lived and take a seat. He said it was because he liked the tea I made.
Zhou Ziyi likes Biluochun, but I don't like that "scaring fragrance". On the contrary, Lu'an melon slices are more to my liking. Every time he comes, I always make tea for him, and then drink my own melon slices. He usually leaves after his tea, unless he's very drunk, rarely stays overnight, and occasionally, I have leftovers in my guest room.
Yun Jin asked me, "What are you doing?"
I did not answer. I know the warmth of his attachment to me, which perhaps neither his rich parents nor his beautiful ex-wife gave him. Later, I also gradually learned the reason for his divorce. It was actually very simple. She was dissatisfied with his socializing too much, and he blamed her for not taking the family too seriously. Beautiful and proud people are alike, prone to squandering their waywardness, both he and she. Originally, the small differences became bigger and bigger. In the end, everyone felt tired and had to go their own way.
Every time I saw him off, I would sit there by myself for a long time until the tea was cold. Yunjin was right, she said, "Zhou Ziyi is just using your feelings to enjoy the feeling of being loved with peace of mind and no burden." But sometimes, some people just choose to indulge soberly.
Sometimes he would also say, "Yu Hua, you're not too young anymore, don't drag it on, find a good man." Yes, I'm not too young, how much time can a thirty-year-old woman have to waste? In my rural hometown, a twenty-five-year-old unmarried girl is already a problem in my parents' hearts. At my age, she can be regarded as a freak. My parents who used to be proud of me are now most afraid of being mentioned by the villagers. In my marriage, they were anxious, urged, blamed, and they were desperately trying to arrange it, and slowly they lost their minds, so I went, so I didn’t have a daughter, and I didn’t have to worry about it.
On my 30th birthday, Zhou Ziyi celebrated my birthday. He said, "Yu Hua, why are you not my family?" I remained silent. He was a realistic and cruel person. He clearly knew better than anyone else that I wanted to Not this sentence.
At that time, Yun Jin and Cheng Zheng were already married, and the two stubborn people would inevitably bump into each other, but those who have lost will always know how to cherish them more. As Yun Jin said, love requires a little ambiguity and compromise. It's a pity that such a man and woman have no children. In the past two years, it's not that they haven't tried all kinds of methods, but they are always disappointed. Yun Jin doesn't say it, but I can feel her pressure. A family like Cheng Zheng , he is the only son again, which is exactly what he said: even if the case is raised, it will be difficult to calm down in the end. Maybe this is the price of youthful frivolity.
The second month after my birthday, Zhou Ziyi officially invited me to dinner alone. He was already there when I arrived, and for so many years, he has rarely arrived early.
I sat down and found that he was inexplicably serious and nervous, so I simply didn't order first, and said to him directly: "If there is anything, you can say it directly."
He hesitated for a long time, but still looked up at me.
"... Jiejie came back, and I found that I still love her, so... I plan to remarry."
Just stepping indoors from the freezing cold outside, a thin layer of mist shrouded my glasses. I took off my glasses, wiped them with a cloth, and when he became anxious waiting for an answer, I just said, "Oh."
From start to finish, I was just an outsider with no power but knowledge.
Before I left, I said to him, "I wish you happiness."
When I said this, I was sincere, I hoped that he would be happy, and then we would forget each other in the rivers and lakes.
I am on duty as usual in the afternoon, and there are still so many patients on hand. Walking through the operating room, I heard a heart-wrenching cry from a patient's family. After a long time in the hospital, it is easy to get used to life and death. Every day and every night, someone died in a car accident, someone died in a fight, someone died from a tumor, someone died from a virus, but... no one ever died of grief.
Yunjin was drinking with me in the evening, and when each of them was a little drunk, she cursed in a low voice, "Zhou Ziyi, you bastard."
After knowing each other for so many years, I have never heard Su Yunjin swear at anyone, and I can't help but smile. What law in the world says you love someone and he has to love you? Yes, not at all. So I said, "He's not wrong, he just doesn't love me."