You Are Still Here

Chapter 8

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The day of the college entrance examination finally came in a rainstorm. After two and a half days in a hurry, I was in a trance like a dream in retrospect, but in the three years of high school life, all the hardships, tension, patience, and confusion followed these two and a half days. The end of time. On the night of the end of the college entrance examination, most of the graduating classes of senior three spontaneously organized carnival activities. Cheng Zheng and his class packed a large box in a KTV near the school. The box that could accommodate more than 30 people suddenly squeezed into more than 50 people. The scene was spectacular. The senior high school students, who have been tensing up since then, are eager to find an outlet for their emotions. Therefore, the atmosphere was once frenzied to the extreme. Chengzha's beer was continuously replenished, and even the head teacher, Lao Sun, was drinking on the sofa. .

After several boys grabbed the microphone and roared the song "True Hero", the mournful prelude of "Rolling Red Dust" began to sound, and a boy shouted: "Cheng Zheng, the song you ordered." Cheng Zheng stood up from his seat , just after taking the microphone, a few interesting male classmates began to shout strangely: "Love song duet... The heroine, please invite the heroine soon..." Su Yunjin, who was sitting in the corner, hadn't figured out the situation before she was caught Countless hands pushed and squeezed out from the shadows, and finally the boy who caught the narrow push pushed her hard behind her. She suddenly lost her focus and bumped into someone in the dark. She bumped into her. The person who arrived quickly grabbed her and shook her to stabilize her body, and then the overwhelming whistles and screams rang out.

Yun Jin didn't care that her forehead hurt from being hit, she was so embarrassed that she didn't know whether to say "sorry" or "thank you". Her hands, even in an instant, she could feel the tension and sweat in them, trembling slightly, as if they were trying to grab her with all her strength. As if being cast a spell, Yun Jin let him squeeze her hand and hurt her. In fact, everything was only a few seconds between lightning and flint, but she felt that time seemed to stand still. Then the hands were released equally quickly, Yun Jin raised his head and saw Cheng Zheng's seemingly nonchalant face, without saying a word, he handed the other microphone in his hand to Yun Jin.

Yun Jin moved her right hand and clenched it into a fist on the side of her leg. After that, she avoided his eyes and said apologetically, "I'm sorry, I can't sing this song." In the box The swaying smooth and sturdy cheeks alternated between light and dark on his face again and again, but there was no change in his expression, and even the hand that held out the microphone was frozen in the air. means to take back. There were already people around who saw that the atmosphere was not right, and they just looked at each other, not knowing how to resolve this slightly embarrassing scene.

"Exactly, this song is my favorite." A slender hand stretched out from behind Cheng Zheng, grabbing the microphone he handed out. I saw Meng Xue holding the microphone, tilting her head slightly, and smilingly looking at the big screen, as if she had no idea what just happened.

Yun Jin said in a low voice: "Borrow it, I'll go to the bathroom." She hurriedly walked sideways between Cheng Zheng and the coffee table, he had no intention of making way for her, her shoulder bumped against his stiff arm , There is a dull pain in the body.

Walking out of the boiling and noisy box, it was like another world outside. "...You, who was inadvertent at first, and me, who was inattentive as a young man, the love in the world is only because of the stalemate of life in a hurry. I think it is the fault of the world, or the cause and effect of the past life, and the possession of the whole life is not at all hesitant to gain for a moment. The exchange of yin and yang..." Through the closed door, the singing in the box could be heard faintly. This is Yun Jin's favorite song by Luo Dayou on weekdays. She never dared to sing it out loud, but only hummed it occasionally, so he remembered it.

She took a deep breath, and since she came out, she simply walked towards the bathroom. At the corner close to the bathroom, Yun Jin was hit by a reckless body again and let out a low voice, she rubbed her shoulders and raised her eyes, just in time to see a familiar face. Zhou Ziyi's face that always had a wicked smile was a little frightened at the moment. He knew that he bumped into his classmates, but he didn't say sorry, and ran past Yun Jin as if flying. mean. Yun Jin walked around the corner in confusion, only to see Mo Yuhua's figure half-hidden in the blind spot of the light.

Yunjin immediately understood eight or nine points in her heart, and she tried to take a few steps forward, "Yu Hua, what are you doing here alone?"

Hearing the sound, Mo Yuhua turned his head to look at Yun Jin, his eyes gleaming brightly in the dark, "Have you seen it? His appearance... It's no different than seeing a flood and a beast."

Yun Jin sighed in her heart and walked quietly to her roommate. After a moment of silence, he still said, "Did you tell him?"

Mo Yuhua looked away and said with a smile, "It's really stupid, isn't it?"

"Would it be better if I cried." Yun Jin felt uncomfortable in her heart.

"No, I don't want to cry." Mo Yuhua said slowly, "I expected this to happen, but I didn't expect any results, I knew it was impossible. Really, I just wanted to go to the bathroom, and I happened to be here. Met him and he drank a lot of beer. I said to myself maybe this is the last chance God has given me to tell him that there is a girl who has been watching him secretly for the past three years, despite the fact that She's neither beautiful nor smart, maybe he never looked at him, but she likes someone no different from other girls. So, I said, he ran away." She paused, He smiled hard at Yun Jin, "I just don't want to carry this secret all the time. After graduating, I don't know when I can see you again. Maybe I won't have the chance to say it in the future. Now he knows, and my purpose has been achieved, Qiu Ren. Deren, why should I be sad?"

Yun Jin's heart was numb, and the intermittent singing didn't let her go. Listening from a distance is also touching. Mo Yuhua had already gone back first, and Yun Jin hurried into the bathroom until the singing was no longer heard.

Standing in front of the mirror on the sink, Yun Jin washed her face with cold water, and then carefully looked at the wet face in the mirror. She doesn't have Mo Yuhua's courage, so she must protect herself. Even if she is in a shell, it is better than being hurt naked; she also doesn't have Mo Yuhua's sobriety, and she has no ability to force herself to pull away. When he walks, he will be addicted, so he has to keep himself away from it. She never mentioned it, but it didn't mean that she didn't remember that his kiss that night, with its unique and arrogant heat, still burned her for a long time. No one's heart is forged, let alone a young girl like her. For a long time, she has been thinking over and over again, with so many girls, why is he the only one who haunts her, why should it be her? Of course, it can be explained that love is unreasonable, and she can accept him just as logically as Cinderella accepts the prince. But the crux of the problem is precisely this - she doesn't want to be a Cinderella. Who stipulated that Cinderella must be saved by the prince? The fairy tale only says that Cinderella and the prince lived happily ever after, but no one has ever looked into how humble that happiness is. No one has ever asked Cinderella to be unwilling, as long as her feet wear crystals properly. Shoe, she should return to the palace with the prince gratefully, and then always be in awe in happiness. Without his rescue, she would still be washing yarn by the icy river. But what if Cinderella met an ordinary fisherman? They fell in love, and then she left the stepmother's home to stay with him, and there would be no Cinderella in the world, only a princess who was always loved by the fisherman. And she, Su Yunjin, may be silent and humble, but she is the princess in her heart. So she doesn't want Cheng Zheng's condescending feelings, don't be the Cinderella that others envy, and don't hear anyone say, look, how lucky Su Yunjin is to be loved by Cheng Zheng, why has no one ever said how lucky Cheng Zheng is to be able to love Su Yunjin . One flower, one world, one leaf and one bodhi, Cheng Zheng is indeed the favored son of heaven, however, even if she is a weed by the roadside, she is also unique.

Later, her father's death and the family's predicament made her understand that her decision was the right one. She was grateful to him, just like all the classmates who helped, but when Meng Xue handed the heavy envelope into her hands, and then When she said in her sweet voice, "Su Yunjin, we all sympathize with your experience. Cheng Zheng and I have donated pocket money to you for a whole month", Yunjin knew that she and Cheng Zheng had no chance. , she can humbly accept a kindness in front of a stranger, but she can't bow her head in front of the person she loves, no.