You Have the Right to Keep a Secret Love

Chapter 42: So Qi Xi, do you still want me?

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Probably because of the rain and the fruit wine, Qi Xi's head was a little groggy, and he felt like he couldn't cheer up anything. But thinking that Gu Yan must be with his girlfriend at this moment, while he is miserable alone in the rented house, the contrast is too strong in the future.

Qi Xi thought about it, but changed her mind, she stopped Zhao Yiran who was about to go out—

"Can I go to the bar with you?"

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Qi Xi originally hoped that tonight would be more lively, but after going to the bar with Zhao Yiran and her colleagues in the court enforcement division, she regretted it a bit. Because a sentence in the bar is very vividly reflected-"The excitement is theirs, I have nothing".

The judge of the executive court went to deal with the seizure of Rolls-Royce. It was the first time for Zhao to come to the bar. She was very curious, so she simply sat down and ordered a drink. She took a bunch of photos and selfies, and posted them on Moments. Then he proudly expressed that he would order a drink for Qi Xi, who also came to the bar for the first time.

"I'm not drinking anymore. I just drank some fruit wine tonight." Qi Xi waved her hands again and again. It was a non-alcoholic drink, and she called the waiter, "Give me a bitter orange iced tea."

The atmosphere in the bar was lively, and after a while, Zhao Yiran and Qi Xi sat next to someone.

He was a decent-looking man, obviously expensive from the looks of his clothes, and he was holding a Ferrari car key in his hand.

The other party smiled at Qi Xi and Zhao Yiran: "Hello, I paid attention to you just now, I want to ask what do you do? Can I make a friend?"

Zhao Yiran wisely got up and was about to give way, but the man stopped Zhao Yiran: "I'm asking you, how did you leave?"

Zhao still was a little surprised, she pointed at Qi Xi: "Aren't you talking to her?"

The other party raised his eyebrows: "I'm talking to you."

"Oh." Zhao Yiran sat back in her seat, but she, who has always loved the moderate life, obviously didn't have much interest in the not-so-moderate man in front of her, "Assistant Judge."

"It's amazing, so what case will you judge? Can you tell me about any particularly interesting cases? Is there anyone in my family who works in law? I'm quite curious about your profession."

Zhao Yiran glanced at the other party: "Yes, I'm from the criminal court, you know the criminal court? In fact, it's not a big case, just a few rich second generations who drive Ferraris were sentenced to death."

"..."

It's a pity that it was quite unexpected. The rich second generation who drove a sports car was not repelled by Zhao Yiran's ruthlessness. After persisting in striking up a conversation, he and Zhao Yiran really found some common hobbies, and the two started chatting.

Just like that, Qi Xi's only companion, Zhao Yiran, was divided up and left by the other party.

Qi Xi was even more bored by himself, so he started drinking his bitter orange iced tea.

It's just that after the first sip, Qi Xi felt something was wrong, because it didn't taste like tea, and it wasn't bitter. It also seems to have some booze.

But the name is called bitter orange iced tea, it should be a tea drink, is it made according to the standard of iced black tea

As for the faint smell of alcohol, Qi Xi has heard that some non-alcoholic cocktails taste alcohol-like. I'm afraid it's because he doesn't know how to make jokes when he comes to a bar for the first time, and he didn't dare to ask the waiter. Only took a few more sips.

She hadn't had a serious drink of water since dinner, and she was a little thirsty at the moment. The bitter orange iced tea was quite sweet and delicious, so she unconsciously drank a few more sips.

It was only when the strong alcohol reaction hit her that Qi Xi finally realized something was wrong.

It's just that it's too late.

She felt dizzy, the lights in the bar became strange, and the crowd walking in front of her also had double images. She was like Alice who had fallen into the rabbit hole. Everything around her became illusory and unreal. As for her hallucinations - she saw Gu Yan.

Everything was in slow motion, Qi Xi propped her chin with both hands, she saw Gu Yan push open the door of the bar, and then walked in along the long corridor, his expression was ugly, and the windbreaker he was wearing was covered by the wind and rain outside. The traces of getting wet, like dusty people, are incompatible with the sensual atmosphere of this bar. It doesn't look like someone who came to drink, but like someone who came to catch rape and make trouble.

On the one hand, Qi Xi felt powerless and hopeless because of the fact that she could imagine Gu Yan even when she was drunk. He and his girlfriend are probably indulging in the tenderness at this moment, enjoying themselves.

Alcohol magnified her grievances, anxiety, pain and struggles during this period, and Qi Xi suddenly gave up on herself.

Zhao still didn't know when he had left the bar with the rich second generation, so Qi Xi was left alone. A girl with her appearance was flushed with obvious drunkenness. At this time, she was single again, and her eyes changed. It was blurred and slow, like a rabbit in a wolf's den, and soon a man with malicious intentions came up to strike up a conversation——

"Beauty, are you alone? Do you want to play with me?"

This person not only moved his mouth, but also started to try to move his hands and feet, and he was about to reach out to grab Qixi's waist.

"You let her go."

Gu Yan's extremely cold voice sounded at this time.

The man next to Qi Xi raised his voice: "Who are you? Can you control me talking to her beauty?" The other party said, and wanted to touch Qi Xi's hand, "Beauty, tell me, you want to talk to my brother?" Do you want to play? I know a lot of things, I promise you will have a good night."

Because of alcohol, Qi Xi's brain became very slow, so her thinking became very direct, as if she was completely unable to use euphemistic social language to maturely deal with the situation in front of her.

She couldn't tell if it was a dream or reality.

The erratic feeling like stepping on cotton candy paralyzed Qi Xi's reason, she thought, it should be a hallucination or a dream, so she created a caring person who would abandon her girlfriend to care for her according to the will of herself, the owner of the dream. Yan, since I am the absolute controller and master of this dream, why don't I indulge in arranging according to the plot I want

It was just a dream anyway.

With this thought in mind, Qi Xi simply stopped restraining her behavior, so she willfully pushed away the slovenly man next to her, with a tone like a child throwing away an unsatisfactory toy: "I don't want you, go away."

Then she stared straight at Gu Yan, pointed at him: "I want you."

Gu Yan in the dream was really stunned, the cold expression on his face disintegrated, showing a look of surprise and bewilderment, then he frowned slightly, with a displeasure on the corner of his lips: "Why do you drink like this? Still?"

Gu Yan obviously wanted to say something else.

Qi Xi didn't want Gu Yan to speak again, for fear that even in a dream, this man would say something that would make her uncomfortable.

She staggered and threw herself into Gu Yan's arms, then hugged him tightly, buried her head in Gu Yan's coat, like a wayward child: "I want this, I want this."

Even in the dream, after being hugged by Qi Xi, Gu Yan's body still visibly stiffened, but Qi Xi didn't want to care about it anymore.

This dream was so real, even the wind, rain and cold outside on Gu Yan's coat, and the smell on Gu Yan's body were so simulated.

Gu Yan obviously appeared according to his own request, and it should be a plot that he was satisfied with, but Qi Xi clearly felt the monstrous grievance and unwillingness, as well as the great sadness and discomfort.

Is there anyone more miserable and ridiculous than her

It takes fantasy to get what you want.

Alcohol made the tight string in her mind collapse easily, and Qi Xi became not calm at all, not rational at all, let alone tasteful.

She couldn't control her tear glands and emotions, like a child who had been wronged so much, she began to cry.

It was all Gu Yan's fault.

While hugging Gu Yan and not letting go, Qi Xi began to accuse him of his excessive behavior: "It's all you, you hate me so much, I really hate you Gu Yan too much."

"Why are you still so ambiguous to me when you obviously have someone you like, and why you obviously have a girlfriend?"

"I regret it so much. I shouldn't have thought about repairing any relationship with you. It's fine as before. I shouldn't be close to you at all to get to know you well, so that I won't be sad."

"Can you stop being so nice to everyone? Since you already have a girlfriend, then keep a good distance from other people of the opposite sex. Don't say things that are easy to daydream, and don't do things that are easy to misunderstand."

"Don't be indecisive, don't seem to want everything, don't always give me hope, and don't always contact your girlfriend in front of me. I was originally a petty person, and I was very jealous, but I And I have no position to be jealous, you force me like this, I don't even know what to do."

Qi Xi knew that she was making trouble out of no reason, but she couldn't control it anymore, her voice was choked up, and she whined like an abandoned puppy, making a weak but powerless accusation : "I really really hate you, I obviously avoided suspicion, I obviously avoided it, why do you still repost it every time, I want to leave the competition, why do you treat me like this, when Am I flying a kite? If the kite flies far away, pull the string to bring me back... "

"You really have the means, can't I lose? I used to be you first and I second in school, and now I have lost even more. I admit defeat, you can stay away from me!"

Qi Xi kept crying, Gu Yan seemed completely flustered, he didn't know how to react, he just explained and repeated clumsily: "Qi Xi, I have never been ambiguous to you."

This is even sophistry? !

Qi Xi was aggrieved and angry: "What medicine will I get when I'm sick? And each medicine is so clearly marked on how to use it? I got dessert on my mouth and wiped it for me. I don't like pink or durian, but I don't like it. Accept it with restraint, what do you mean, Gu Yan? You stinky trash! Scum! Since you have a girlfriend, you should treat your girlfriend well and stop interacting with other girls so much! I'm sorry for your girlfriend, and I don't respect other girls!"

"Why should I waste time on people like you? I'll shout out now, the people who want to fall in love with me can be lined up from one end of the world to the other!"

At this moment, Qi Xi's desire to be strong and competitive was magnified countless times, and she began to express passionately: "And what's wrong with me? How can I not compare to your white moonlight? She is not as beautiful as me! The skin is not as beautiful as me! I'm not as white, my eyes are not as big, my hair is not as dark as mine, my waist is not as thin as mine, and my breasts are not as big as mine!"

Qi Xi also knows that such a comparison is not right, she actually has no hostility towards Gu Yan's girlfriend, now that she is angry with that girl after being drunk, but she can't control it at all, like a wayward child Similarly, she knew the truth, but she just didn't abide by it. She still didn't forget to summarize her statement and draw a conclusion after such a bad speech—

"That's why I'm the best!"

"The person who will be my boyfriend in the future will be the happiest and most discerning man in the world!"

"Gu Yan, you are the most blind idiot in the universe!"

It was obvious that she was boasting, but Qi Xi still felt very sad, because excellence is not the basis for love, it seems that no matter how excellent she is, Gu Yan would not like her, so she felt even sadder after boasting.

Buried in the imaginary Gu Yan's chest and cried for a while, Qi Xi's heart was already filled with a new round of self-disgust and boredom, maybe this dream made her finally able to vent her emotions all the time, she completely let go After realizing his own feelings, he felt that this was the case anyway, so he thought to himself that it would be a good idea to lose face in front of Gu Yan.

It's just a dream anyway.

Gu Yan's coat was covered with tears and snot.

It was obvious that he was still hugging Gu Yan tightly just now, but the next moment, Qi Xi, who was in a moody mood, pushed him out: "You go! Go to your girlfriend and get out of my dream."

She sucked her red nose and said pitifully, "I never want to see you in my dreams again."

It's a pity that Gu Yan didn't leave. After experiencing a huge shock, he has recovered his composure and composure. The man stared into Qi Xi's eyes, not only didn't retreat, but took a step forward, his voice trembling slightly , seemed excited, but also seemed nervous: "Qi Xi, is everything you said true?"

Qi Xi's head was dizzy, and he just repeated the movement of rejection: "You go! You go!"

It's just that Gu Yan's body remained motionless, this trash man seemed determined to pay attention to Lai's dominance in Qi Xi's dream, he grabbed Qi Xi's hand: "Didn't you want me just now?"

Qi Xi tried her best to look more imposing, she glared at Gu Yan with red eyes: "No more!"

But Gu Yan still didn't leave.

The man suddenly smiled shyly, as if he could light up all the ambiguous darkness in the entire bar: "Qi Xi, I'm really happy."

"It's almost like a dream."

"I'm not flirting with you."

"I don't have a girlfriend either."

"I don't know what you've been thinking about all day."

A person who has always been so calm and logical has become a little incoherent at the moment, but the only thing that remains the same is that Gu Yan is holding Qi Xi's hand tightly, as if he is afraid that she will run away.

"I've always liked you alone."

"I don't know if you have misunderstood something recently. I came to you just to clarify this matter with you."

The man looked straight into Qi Xi's eyes, and forced her hand to touch his chest: "When you hugged me just now, I felt like my heart was beating so fast that I was about to have a heart attack."

Qi Xi was a little dazed, Gu Yan held her hand in his palm, and it was now on Gu Yan's chest.

Although his face was so calm, Gu Yan's heartbeat couldn't lie, it was a very chaotic and urgent rhythm, and it seemed to resonate with Qi Xi's heartbeat at the moment, they both beat so fast .

And amidst Qi Xi's uncontrollable throbbing and indescribable emotions, she heard Gu Yan's voice sound again—

"So Qi Xi, do you still want me?"