It took Ruan Yu nearly eleven years to finally say "I miss you" when this thrilling day was about to end.
It wasn't a sudden change of sex, but on this day, after witnessing a life-long regretful miss, she suddenly discovered that in a relationship, she shouldn't care about fairness or loss.
It shouldn't matter who has the upper hand, who speaks first or who bows first.
Because you never know, when you are doing these meaningless calculations, there will be a sudden disaster that will completely and permanently separate you, and even the opportunity to care about will be lost.
Therefore, when you can still say "miss you", you must say it to him.
It doesn't matter if you lose.
The moment the voice fell, it seemed as if the world stood still on the other end of the phone, and there was no echo.
Ruan Yu blinked twice, and was about to remove the phone to check the signal when Xu Huaisong said, "The signal is still on."
Xu Huaisong leaned against the railing of the hospital corridor, raised his head from the warm yellow halo, and slowly stood up straight.
The signal was not broken, but his brain circuit was broken.
He said suddenly, "Wait for me." Then he hurried to the end of the corridor and down the stairs.
Ruan Yu was confused, and it took a long time before he heard the footsteps on the other end stop, and a slightly panting voice said, "Me too."
"What?" She almost forgot what she just said.
"I miss you too, or... maybe I miss you more than you miss me." Xu Huaisong finished speaking every word, and then subconsciously held his breath.
It wasn't until Ruan Yu on the other end laughed that he completely let go of his tense body and began to breathe again with ease.
After he was out of breath, Ruan Yu asked, "Why do you have to run around before you speak?"
He choked, and replied, "Just now, outside the ward, there was a nurse on duty in the corridor." So at first, he clearly heard that she wanted to be comforted, and he pretended to be stupid and didn't say anything explicit.
"What's the matter? Can they understand Chinese?"
"..."
makes sense. He forgot.
Xu Huaisong lowered his head and smiled, "Today I've consumed too much, I might be a little confused."
"Consume what?"
He looked helplessly: "What do you say?"
Ruan Yu muttered, "I didn't know, so I asked you."
Xu Huaisong gritted his teeth and had to say clearly: "I'm worried about you."
Ruan Yu laughed again.
See, it's not that hard to be straightforward.
She pondered for a while, and said: "But at that time on the phone, you were obviously calm and said that the police would protect me, so I don't need to worry."
"That's for your comfort."
He didn't trust the police that much. The one in ten thousand chance that something happened to her was enough to make him unable to sit still.
It's been twice, and she will never know how powerless he is to suffocate after hearing her bad news across thousands of mountains and rivers. He just pretended to be calm to comfort her.
He moved his phone away, turned to the ticket booking page, and took a screenshot for her.
Ruan Yu received the news and saw that it was a flight to China at 11:00 p.m. San Francisco time.
Within five minutes of getting her call, he had bought the plane ticket. It was only after confirming that she was safe that she did not rush to the airport.
With a sore nose, she took a breath with a touch of crying.
This crying reminded Xu Huaisong, and his voice became a little harsh: "From now on, if you have to cry on the phone, speak clearly before crying."
Agitated by his tone, Ruan Yu's emotion disappeared in an instant.
He then made a serious statement: "You may be fine, my heart will be scared to stop first."
Ruan Yu choked, "Oh". But she got the comfort she wanted, so she didn't care about his harsh tone. She said, "Got it, you go back to the ward and look at uncle."
Xu Huaisong stood under the streetlight with his mobile phone in his hand, and looked in the direction of the inpatient department: "It's okay, the nurse is here, the situation has basically stabilized, and he's asleep now."
"You like standing outside to feed mosquitoes so much?"
"Well, last time I pinched the one under your chin to death, I still feel sorry for it, and take care of its compatriots."
"..."
Ruan Yu smiled, took the mobile phone and left from the door, let out a sigh of relief, and fell on the bed.
Hearing this rustling, Xu Huaisong asked, "What are you doing?"
"Tired, lie down for a while." She sighed and said, "Actually, I'm still very scared today, my legs are weak. I didn't know that I had to go up the ladder..."
"You went up the ladder?" Xu Huaisong's tone was a little surprised, "Aren't you afraid of heights?"
This time it was Ruan Yu's turn to be surprised: "How do you know?"
Because on the day of the 40th anniversary of No. 1 Middle School, many students were arranged by the teacher to arrange the reception venue. It may be that there is too much work, the teacher assigns tasks randomly, and does not take care of men and women. At the beginning, she was assigned a job of tying ribbons. She had to wrap the ribbons around the poles on the window sills. Because she dared not climb high, she looked around for someone to change them.
Then he went.
When she came back after finding a replacement, she looked up and saw that the ribbon had been tied, and thought that someone had done the wrong job.
Xu Huaisong was silent for a long time in the night, and finally looked up at the first quarter moon in the sky and said, "I'll tell you when I come back."
What, mysterious.
But Ruan Yu was really tired, so he didn't think deeply. Turning over on the bed, he thought of something and said, "What do you think will happen to Zhou Jun? I will take a record in the afternoon and see him enter the interrogation room, and he hasn't come out for a long time."
Xu Huaisong had a general understanding of the case from the police, and said: "The current situation is that the objective evidence points to him, and his subjective explanation is only one-sided. Even if he didn't kill anyone, it is difficult to clear the suspicion easily."
Ruan Yu's throat choked, and he continued: "There are two possibilities for him to be released. First, other suspects appeared before the trial, and all the evidence pointing to him has been reasonably refuted. Second, He was acquitted at trial due to insufficient evidence."
"According to the current situation, assuming that the real culprit does exist, he must be a very experienced and repeat offender. He may not be caught in a short period of time. Therefore, there is a high probability that he will try the second way."
Ruan Yu said "hmm", "You can't defend him?"
"cannot."
Not to mention that he hasn't taken the domestic judicial examination yet, even if he has passed the examination and obtained a lawyer's qualification certificate, he is not a professional criminal lawyer. This matter should still follow the principle of "specialization in the art industry".
He said: "I have asked Liu Mao to arrange the matter of the defense lawyer. I will discuss the details with them after I return to China after I finish my work in two days."
Xu Huaisong kept feeding the mosquitoes until after two o'clock in the morning before returning to the ward.
Ruan Yu got up to cook, then went to bed early, and ended up having a nightmare all night. So early the next morning, Ruan's father and Ruan's mother, who saw her dark circles, drove her back to the city.
This place is too close to the crime scene, she is timid, and she probably has nightmares all the time in this house.
Ruan Yu also felt that it should be due to the geographical location, and it would be better when he arrived in the urban area, so he listened to his parents.
Unexpectedly, even in the urban area, once she left the lively environment and returned to a quiet place, especially at night, she still felt physically and mentally unwell.
Because Shen Mingying happened to be out of town to buy goods for the online store these few days, she went to the hotel in the city to pick up Xu Pipi, leaned on this cat for two consecutive nights, and barely fell asleep with Xu Huaisong Lianmai.
Her night is his day. Xu Huaisong could hardly do anything else for two consecutive days. Occasionally, he had something to deal with. After turning off the mic for a while, she woke up, and when she heard his lifeless side, she immediately asked, "Why is there no sound?" He had no choice but to turn on the mic to explain , and then accompany her to sleep again.
He knew she was a sensible person.
If you are not really afraid, you will never be willful.
So on the third day, Xu's father was transferred from the ICU to the general ward. He was able to eat and drink, and everything was normal. Xu Huaisong began to consider returning to China.
It happened that Lu Shenglan came to the hospital and went to the cubicle of the ward. Seeing that he was wearing earphones and the voice call interface was displayed on his mobile phone, he understood it and took a piece of paper to write to him: "I'm done with the case at hand. I can do it in the next few days." Work here, if you have something to do, go back to China first."
Xu Huaisong glanced at the note, but didn't answer for a moment.
She continued to write: "Uncle Xu is my mentor in the industry, I should take care of him, don't worry."
Xu Huaisong was about to take a pen to write back to her, but when she heard Ruan Yu's sleep talking through the earphones, she seemed to wake up from crying again.
Before he had time to write, he immediately said to Mai, "Did you have a nightmare? I'm here."
Ruan Yu's voice on the other end was indistinct, and it took a long time to recover: "Well...it's okay, I'll get up and pour a glass of water..."
"Well, turn on the bedside lamp first, remember to wear slippers, be careful when walking, and don't drink cold water." Xu Huaisong spoke very slowly, as if he didn't really want to tell her anything, but just kept his voice so that she could go away When you get to the living room, you won't be afraid.
After she returned to the bed after drinking the water, he said again: "Cover the quilt and continue to sleep. I won't hang up."
After more than 20 minutes, Ruan Yu's breathing returned to evenness, thinking that she should be able to sleep peacefully for a while, he gently closed the microphone, then raised his head and said to Lu Shenglan who had been standing aside for a long time, "I'm sorry."
Lu Shenglan shook her head to indicate that it was okay, then hesitated and asked, "Did something happen to her?"
Xu Huaisong simply explained: "The suspect took the hostage, and she was invited by the police to assist in the negotiation."
"The negotiation was successful?"
"Um."
"Did she act too calm then?"
Xu Huaisong frowned.
Lu Shenglan continued: "I have done research in this area. According to her personality, if she forcibly overcomes her stress response to complete the negotiation at the time of the incident, it is likely to cause a psychological rebound afterwards."
Xu Huaisong frowned even more: "You mean, do you need to contact a psychiatrist?"
"That should not have reached this point, but if there is no one around her now, and there are no other important enough events to divert her attention, this situation lasts for a long time, and it will have a great impact on her physical and mental health. You either Ask someone else to help take care of her for a few days, or go back as soon as possible."
Xu Huaisong took out his mobile phone and opened the ticket interface.
"If she has trouble falling asleep, try to avoid her sleeping time when you buy the ticket," Lu Shenglan added.
He said "um", raised his head and said, "Thank you."
When Ruan Yu woke up early the next morning, he found that Xu Huaisong's voice had stopped.
There is a message from him in the message box, from half an hour ago: "I am ready to take off now, and I will arrive before you go to bed tonight. Eat well and wait for me at home."
She put the cursor on the input box and typed "um", thinking that he couldn't see it, so she simply deleted it.
Just as he was about to get up and take a shower, his phone vibrated and he received another WeChat message.
From Xu Huaishi.
When she was sent back to Su City by Liu Mao a few days ago, he asked him for her WeChat.
Xu Huaishi: "Sister, the courier I sent to you is now being delivered, please remember to sign for it."
Ruan Yu woke up from his drowsiness and typed: "What the hell is it?"
Xu Huaishi asked her for her address the day before yesterday, saying that she had something very important to send to her, but she refused to tell what it was.
Xu Huaishi: "You will find out later."
As soon as the message came in, the doorbell rang.
Ruan Yu put on his clothes, got out of bed in a hurry, took a package from the courier, closed the door, and opened it with a knife.
Then, she saw an old looking old machine.