After the dinner, Lu Yan didn't go out for two days.
I hardly do anything except sleep. When I am hungry, I get up to make instant noodles, and then fall back to sleep after eating.
He didn't care about the automatic shutdown of the phone when it ran out of power, and kept throwing it on the bedside without moving it.
He also couldn't tell what state he was in now, whether he was escaping or adjusting.
After Jiang Yaoming and Huang Xu left the band, all the band's performance activities had to be temporarily suspended. Not only the performance, but also a lot of time for rehearsal every week, and now these times have been wiped out.
This blankness is like an invisible vine, entangled bit by bit.
Although life is not much different from before.
On the third morning, he finally washed his face, shaved off the stubble carefully, and went to a nearby barber shop to have his hair trimmed. After I came back, I boiled some hot water. While waiting for the water to boil, I searched for a charging cable. After searching in the cabinet for a long time, I found a CD album with rough drawings.
It was the first album released by their band.
The name was obtained especially in the second grade, called 'Ogre'.
The cover of the album was drawn by Lu Yan himself, and he drew a goat's head with the potential of an abstract painter. He didn't learn to draw, but since most of the budget was invested in the recording studio, he had to do it himself.
The title song has a special style. The climax of the song begins with Lu Yan's two low-pitched a cappella, and then the overwhelming drumbeats and rhythms swept across the sky in an instant:
"Break the past
who is left
move
move
let's go
…
what name of god
It doesn’t matter if you keep falling.”
Intense rhythm, with arrogance that wants to tear everything apart.
The album was sold on consignment in the audio-visual store, and the sales were surprisingly good. The owner of the audio-visual store even joked with them: "When are you going to hold a concert?"
"One day," Jiang Yaoming wiped off his sweat and said vigorously, "We will stand on the highest and biggest stage!"
Lu Yan found the charging cable, plugged in the phone, waited for the boot interface to pop up automatically, and then saw a long list of missed calls.
Sun Tong, Li Zhen, Huang Xu...
Lu Yanxian called Sun Tong back.
The temporary cancellation of the performance was done in a disingenuous manner. The performance information was sent out a few days ago. The temporary cancellation also had a certain impact on the bar. Lu Yan felt that no matter what happened, he had to make amends to Sun Tong.
But Sun Tong is a straightforward person, he is not someone who cares about such things, he cares more about these four young people than the performance: "Don't be sorry for talking to me, how did you guys talk in the end?"
Lu Yan didn't say much, just said: "Something happened to their family."
As Sun Tong said before, he also played in a band when he was young, so he couldn't understand the meaning behind "something at home".
The same is true of the campus band he formed back then. After graduating from college, they went their separate ways, going to work, getting married, having children...
Sun Tong sighed silently in his heart.
Lu Yan's band is definitely not the first band to sing in their bar. These young people play bands and come and go, but this "Devil Band" called by people in the rivers and lakes is definitely the one that has been singing in their bar for the longest time.
Four years.
What does four years mean? Sun Tong remembered that Lu Yan was still a lead singer who had never been on stage at that time.
The ability to control the field is very bad, performance accidents happen all the time, the microphone has fallen off the stage several times, and the most ruthless one even fell off the stage with the microphone.
Sun Xiong felt uncomfortable looking at him as an outsider, let alone Lu Yan, so he comforted him: "Life is like this, ideals are too empty. Sometimes no matter how many ideals you talk about, you have to return to life in the end. Especially playing rock and roll... Don't be discouraged, our environment is like this, stay underground, it's okay, if you want to go to the ground, it's too difficult."
Lu Yan didn't speak.
Sun Tong: "Life, sometimes it teaches you how to compromise."
Sun Tong was talking, but Lu Yan suddenly called him: "Brother Tong."
Sun Tong: "?"
"But I think," when Lu Yan spoke, he went back to a few years ago in a trance, and he slowed down the second half of the sentence, "...life is never compromise."
Sun Tong was stunned when he heard this.
Lu Yan said again: "Don't talk about Brother Tong, I have to go to the station to see them off later."
Lu Yan packed up and was about to go out, when there was a loud noise outside the door.
It was the sound of kicking the door.
Immediately afterwards, the strange woman's voice became more and more crazy: "Bitch, seduce someone else's husband, you should think about today, you come out—"
601 opened the door.
The unknown woman in 601 was wearing a short black backless skirt today, with a very dusty appearance. It seemed that he had just returned to the building not long ago, and he hadn't had time to remove his makeup yet. His brows and eyes were tired, and his lipstick and eye shadow were stacked very thickly, forming a very cheap and gorgeous look.
She was leaning against the door frame, holding a slender lady's cigarette between her fingertips. After opening the door, she was slapped and turned away by the strange woman who smashed the door.
But she didn't seem to care, she pinned the strands of hair scattered on her cheeks behind her ears, took another puff of cigarette and said, "Is that enough?"
"You can't control your own man," she laughed as she puffed out the cigarette, "what are you crazy about running away from me?"
This sentence made the strange woman's eyes red.
But 601 didn't intend to say anything more to her, and just said: "If you don't leave, I will call the police."
"You call the police? You report it. Let me see if the police arrest me first or arrest you, the whore—"
The word whore is so sharp that it seems to cut through the air.
601 didn't say anything, and she closed the door again.
Lu Yan witnessed a farce and felt embarrassed, and now when he saw the door of 601, he could think of the young master with a bad temper.
The two of them couldn't get in touch no matter what they thought.
What did he want her for
Want to talk to her
But everyone said no.
Lu Yan struggled between meddling in his own business.
… never mind.
Lu Yan looked away.
My heart said, why bother so much.
Jiang Yaoming and Huang Xu bought the train tickets to Qingcheng at 10 o'clock this morning. Li Zhen called him for this purpose and asked him if he was going to see him off, but the phone didn't get through.
The train station was crowded.
In the sweltering weather, there are people sweating and rushing around everywhere.
Lu Yan saw the two members of their band at a glance in a group of people with suitcases in their hands and big sacks on their shoulders - in the endless stream of people, they were the only ones carrying a gig bag on their backs.
After four years of struggle in Xiamen, the two of them didn't have much luggage.
Before Lu Yan got close, Huang Xu saw him from a distance.
"Brother Yan!" Huang Xu shouted, and then said in surprise, "Have you changed your hairstyle?"
Lu Yan smiled and said, "Well, how is it?"
Huang Xu: "Handsome."
He was afraid that Lu Yan would not believe it, so he emphasized again: "It's really handsome, not the same handsome as before."
Although Lu Yan was not as deviant as before after cutting his hair short, his facial features looked more prominent, and the broken hair on his forehead was parted in the middle by the wind.
"I called you last night but I couldn't get in touch with you. I thought you weren't coming." Li Zhen said.
"The phone is dead, I forgot to charge it."
"I've convinced you, why don't you forget yourself."
"Aren't you bothered, isn't this here?" Lu Yan handed over the snacks he bought in advance, "I'm afraid you have too many things and it's hard to take them. You didn't buy much, just make do with it."
"Why do you buy these?" Jiang Yaoming took over and said, "We all have them."
Lu Yan was decisive: "Okay, give it back to me."
Jiang Yaoming: "Are you human?"
Lu Yan: "Give it back to me."
"How can anyone take back what someone sent out???"
A few people chatted for a few cents and did not eat nutritiously.
Lu Yan looked up at the scrolling and updated arrival information on the screen, train K126 bound for Qingcheng from Xiamen: "Is it time to check in?"
"Bring all the documents."
"Take it with you, and I'll send you Qingcheng's local specialties when I go back! Our pancakes are really amazing..."
Just as Jiang Yaoming was talking, Lu Yan stepped forward and patted him and Huang Xu on the shoulders: "Okay, I'll wait. Have a good trip."
Li Zhen also joined in to join in the fun.
The scene of the four big men hugging each other shoulder to shoulder was not very good, Lu Yan was about to let go and take a step back, when Huang Xu said three words in a low voice in the small space where the four of them faced each other: "I'm sorry. "
It's actually a wonderful feeling.
Teammates who have been together for four years are about to part ways.
Xiamen City and Qingcheng, these two cities are more than 2,000 kilometers apart.
Lu Yan thought that after two days of adjustment, he should have adjusted his mood, but it was only at this time that he deeply realized that the reality was completely different from the various preparations made in his mind: these two people were really going to leave.
Although Huang Xu's guitar skills have not improved much in the past few years, he will not be able to hear it in the future.
Jiang Yaoming always felt that his bass presence was too low, so he secretly turned up his own volume in the recording studio, and "boomed" against the speakers during performances.
There was another low voice in his ear: "I'm sorry."
This sentence was said by Jiang Yaoming.
"Passengers on train K126, please get ready to check in and get on the train."
The voice broadcast was broadcast twice, and the two of them looked down for the ticket documents, dragging the suitcase to go in to check the ticket, when they heard Lu Yan say something behind them: "... you two have never finished."
"I'm sorry for what, I'll take back all the sorry."
"So you want to quit the team?"
"Have I approved this withdrawal application?"
Lu Yan's sudden and blunt words made the other three people feel stupid.
"It's really beautiful to think about."
"No matter where you two go or what you want to do in the future, whether it's selling pancakes in Qingcheng or growing green onions in the countryside, you will always be a part of Vent."
Lu Yan finally said: "This is not quitting the team, nor is it disbanding. The V group will not be disbanded."
Li Zhen reacted: "Yes! We won't disband! Selling pancakes is fine, but what kind of strange job is growing green onions..."
After these words were finished, no one spoke for a while.
Jiang Yaoming turned his back and quickly wiped his eyes with the back of his hand.
Huang Xu's eyes turned red little by little, tears streaming down his face: "Brother Yan..."
After Lu Yan finished speaking, he also felt touched, and seeing Huang Xu's appearance made him want to reach out and pat him on the head.
As a result, Huang Xu said in a broken voice with a crying voice in the next second: "Yan, Brother Yan, after I leave, you really have to practice your guitar... Your guitar playing is really, really bad."
"You, you play badly and you still make so many demands. It's really annoying. Not every guitarist is as easy-talking as I am. If you have the ability, you can play it yourself..."
Lu Yan stretched his hand halfway and froze.
Huang Xu cried so much that he almost hiccupped and continued: "You said your fingers are so long, what's the use..."
Lu Yan: "..."
Lu Yan wanted to take back what he said earlier.
This band can break up.
In the end, the farewell party almost ended with Li Zhen dragging Lu Yan to prevent him from beating up his teammates in public. Jiang Yaoming and Huang Xu cried and handed the ticket to the ticket inspector.
The train to Qingcheng finally took away two rock youths who used to carry pianos on their backs and asked one by one at the door of the air-raid shelter, "Is your band recruiting?"