Yu Shan's tone was calm and unfamiliar. She slowly said, "My brother was born when I was five years old. The day my brother came home from the hospital, it rained heavily. I was waiting at the alley with a small umbrella. The car that brought my brother home, waiting for the little guy who was expected by the whole family, and the little guy who made me even more forgotten by the family at the same time.
I remember very clearly that my younger brother was put on the bed, and his little hands and legs kept moving unwillingly, as if he was demonstrating to me.
I lie next to him and keep a close eye on him, I think he looks so ugly! There is basically no hair, no eyebrows, red skin, eyes closed all the time, and light beige eye feces in the corners of the eyes.
But it's so strange that every adult will just boast when they see it, saying what they are good-looking! Even after prophesying, what big fat boy will definitely arouse the girls' favor in the future. Also, what is the future of the family..."
Speaking of this, Yu Shan stopped, leaving nothing but breathing.
They were too close to each other, and Su Song could clearly feel that when she breathed, the breath exhaled was hotter and more anxious than when she was talking.
The breath flicked across Su Song's face restlessly.
At that time, Su Song actually resisted too close physical contact with people, especially hugging, which was an absolute taboo. So when the surroundings were quiet and only heard each other's breathing, Su Song was so surprised. I could be so calm and soberly aware of my abnormality.
He was forcibly hugged, but there was no irritable resistance reaction in his body, and he was very calm, his hands froze on both sides of his body. That's it, nothing more.
The string in my heart hasn't been tightened!
How surprising!
So, is the disease getting better? Su Song thought.
When Su Song was still wondering, Yu Shan had already been relieved for a while, and she went on to say, "I remember very clearly. At that time, a relative and aunt said,'Little prince, you should be born before your sister. . Your parents don’t have to risk the fuss.'
I used to be young and didn't understand what this meant.
What is meant by "just be born before my sister"? What is the risk of parents tossing? However, I always remembered this sentence, because when she said it, her glance at me was strange and scared me.
So I remembered, I wanted to wait for myself to understand when I grew up.
Later, I really understood and recognized. But after such a long wait, only a pot of cold water was obtained in exchange.
Understand and recognize in an instant, how tragic this is! "
Yup! Knowing and recognizing is just a matter of a moment.
Everyone will encounter such a moment.
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Su Song didn't have time to realize that he had already landed on Jishan's back with his hands that had nowhere to be dangling, and he was already patting her gently.
Yu Shan said thank you in a low voice, and then went on to say, "In the mid-term exam in the first half of the second semester of junior high, I took the first place in the whole grade. At that time, I was in the High School Attached to the Normal University in the city.
For a junior high school student, what a pride and honor this is!
The naughty ghost Yushan can even get the first place in the whole grade, in such a very good school.
However, when I got home, I didn't have a word of appreciation that I wanted most.
Because his brother didn't do well that time, he was very depressed, he lost his temper, and his parents felt distressed! They have been only caring about comforting the younger brother and have no time for me.
At that time, I thought, the gap between my parents' teeth must be leaking! Otherwise, a perfunctory compliment to her daughter would not be leaked.
As a result, many issues that I have been neglecting to think about have all compelled me.
Why should I live in my grandmother's house since I was young, but not in my own home? Why can't I call my mom and dad as my mom and dad when I'm in my mom and dad's unit
I felt like I was tapped on the acupuncture points, and I understood it all at once, including the look in that aunt's eyes back then.
Those eyes were ridicule, ridicule, and deep contempt behind the patriarchy. "
Patriarchal...
Su Song was a little fascinated, and the thought of patriarchalism was too far away for her.
Su Song, a child in a big city, could not personally understand such a corrupt thought.
This is the 21st century!
How to pay...
"My parents are dual employees, so they can only have one child. At the same time, they prefer boys over girls. They only want boys instead of girls. They don't want me, so I grew up with my grandmother's parents, and my household registration was also in my grandmother's house. Laws Come on, I am not their child."
Su Song's patted hand had stopped, and she firmly hugged Kindness.
Later, when the hug was over and when they separated from each other, Su Song suddenly realized that even if he was already riddled with defects and resisted embracing himself, he could take the initiative to hug others tightly in front of more tragic stories.
It turns out that in the face of misfortune, after comparison, people can more frankly accept the misfortune that happened to them from the side comparison.
People, it turns out that they live in comparison, maybe! Su Song thought.
"Later, my grades began to decline. Although it wasn't messed up, I didn't make it to the market.
Looking back now, it was silly at that time, just pure blind and stupid anger.
I thought that as long as my grades degraded, my parents would feel sorry for me like my younger brother. But no, probably the hearts of the people are too small, so small that they can only hold their precious son.
At that time, I finally realized that no matter how sweet a smile is, no matter how good grades are, it is useless.
Unreachable love is unreachable love. As a son, the younger brother has an innate preference, and as a daughter, he can only be fostered at his grandmother's house.
There is no reason for this, and there is no reason at all, that's it.
I'm really ignorant. Because of this, I told myself that if I don't get it, I won't get it. What else do I have to fight for!
And, why bother? Just don't want anything! That's it for a lifetime!
Eat whatever you want, drink whatever you want, just like a happy fool. "
This is the best coping method that 14-year-old Yu Shan can think of.
Yup! What else can she do at that age, with such a pure and kind character.
However, Yu Shan no longer thinks that way.