The weather today is obviously very good!
But why should it be arranged for such a thing to happen? Can't it be delayed for a few more days? Su Song didn't understand.
Now, she tapped the yogurt she was holding in her hands with her thumb a little uneasy, looked up at him, barely squeezed and said, "You said."
"Why do I always feel that you have been deliberately avoiding me and pushing me away? Why?"
The tone is light, but the blame is heavy.
Su Song's eyes dodged, she knew that he was trying to suppress a certain clear anger.
He looked at Su Song with straight eyes, and continued to force him to ask, "I was treated differently by you, right?"
Qin Huaiyang didn't want to be like this, such behavior is in his definition, it is simply self-inflicted humiliation! Otherwise, he would not wait until now to break out.
Because of her, he is not like himself anymore.
Su Song's calm tone and expression just now really annoyed him, and even made him manic.
So, he lost control.
The change of Qin Huaiyang was really sudden, and Su Song was really frightened.
At this moment, she dared not raise her eyes to look at him.
—
In the past two years, there have been many unavoidable contacts at work, and she knows Qin Huaiyang somewhat.
In Su Song's eyes, Qin Huaiyang can definitely be regarded as a calm and self-controlling person.
Last year, he was a class teacher for the first time and had no experience. For a while, many tricky things happened in the class he led, and even the parents made trouble at school. But the new head teacher can still be calm and composed, facing aggressive and unreasonable parents, he can handle everything in an orderly manner.
Afterwards, the teachers all praised him, especially the enthusiastic Teacher Liu who always wanted to be a matchmaker. She even went to Su Song's office to praise him like a storyteller.
Throwing away Teacher Liu’s wild flowers, Su Song knows that in dealing with that kind of thing, the most difficult thing to do is to control emotions, because you will really deeply understand "what is unreasonable at all", and you will feel that you are like this. Years of education experience is simply eaten by dogs. In the end, there is no doubt that you will be so angry that you will be emotionally broken.
In that situation, even a middle-aged teacher with rich experience can hardly control emotions.
However, the young and energetic Qin Huaiyang, he did.
At that time, Su Song understood how restrained this person could be. On the other hand, he is a person who will be cruel to himself.
Therefore, his emotions are a little broken for him now, Su Song is scared, inexplicably scared.
She recalled that in the past two years, in addition to the necessary communication at work, she always deliberately and tried her best to avoid contact with him outside.
Therefore, avoiding him has almost become a habit.
After getting used to it for a long time, it has become an obvious fact.
That means rejection.
Qin Huaiyang naturally understood, so how else could she answer? Do you want her to say clearly that because of Wu Huaiyue's existence, I must treat you differently
However, what is the logic behind this reason? How would she explain this absurd reason.
Is a person inexplicably guilty of conscience, and a person inexplicably mischievous
After a while, Su Song said, "Teacher Qin, this is my personal problem. So, I beg you. Can you..." Don't mess with me again, okay
She should say something cruel, even more cruel words than "to provoke". However, she still couldn't do it.
She really can't do it.
Now, Su Song finally understands that no matter how hard she tries to change, her essence is still the original Su Song.
Yup! No matter how awkwardly she imitates Yushan, she still cannot be a girl like Yushan.
She couldn't be truly optimistic, and now, she finally couldn't pretend.
She failed.
Su Song's life background is pessimistic. Therefore, it is impossible to turn to optimism.
Su Song is even beginning to convince himself.
give up!
—
Qin Huaiyang smiled, a weird smile, a mockery, but also helpless.
He said, "Because Wu Huaiyue, right!"
The tone is very positive.
Su Song suddenly felt that he was a complete outsider, a pure bystander.
She thought, Qin Huaiyang had already seen Su Song clearly. The secret she clung to has long been discovered.
But Su Song knew that there was no surprise or doubt. Qin Huaiyang, he is such a smart person. How could I not know!
Now, he found out everything.
So how good it is to stop talking secretly with smart people.
Su Song looked up at him, her eyes no longer dodge, she finally said firmly, "Yes."
"You like him, and..." Qin Huaiyang said halfway, hesitated after all, "and...this is the real reason you came here, right?"
He finally told the fact by "asking".
But how ridiculous! He knew everything, but why did he have to ask her for a personal affirmative answer
Does she have to say "right"
why
—
Su Song made no response. She knew, he knew it all.
He is just stubborn.
Like myself, he is very persistent, and he just refuses to let go of what he believes.
One thing must be made clear and clear. Otherwise, no matter how you are persuaded, you will not be able to pass the barrier in your heart.
"In a word, I just refuse to let myself go."
This sentence was said by the doctor to Su Song. But, that's it, she can't control herself, she just can't help it.
There is no way to learn and let yourself go.
Therefore, she chose to escape if she couldn't learn to let it go. She thought this was the only way.
Su Song suddenly realized that perhaps she was not here because she was curious about Wu Huaiyue's past, she was just running away from the thing that changed the trajectory of her life.
Mian'an No. 1 Middle School, the alma mater of Huai Jue's senior, is just a shell for her to escape that unchangeable thing.
This fragile shell was finally broken.
Su Song thought, okay if it is broken.