"You deliberately avoid me because you don't want to put me..."
Su Song didn't want to listen, she cut off his words, "Teacher Qin, I don't want to hurt anyone."
It took a long time for Qin Huaiyang to react. He thought he had recognized it, and he planned to give up. It turned out that he was just being angry all the time, so he kept asking questions.
In fact, he knew everything he knew, but he had to confirm it again from her.
Is it self-abuse? Qin Huaiyang thought.
It's ridiculous, the original rational self is also so unreasonable.
Is this so-called hypocrisy
He admitted that he couldn't deal with her as if he were facing others, being very open-minded, sensible, and indifferent. As long as he is concerned about her, he can't control it, he can only care about it very much.
Moreover, it's terribly caring.
He is not a confident person, even his true heart is very inferior.
He has a bit of fatalism.
I believe that some things are destined, and hard work cannot be changed.
However, he also believes that he has the right to be absolutely unwilling. Therefore, he must be struggling to get into a wall in order to persuade him to truly accept the so-called fate.
Only this time, and only this time, he hit a wall without even fighting for the opportunity.
So, how could he be willing? He can only be more absolutely unwilling.
He couldn't accept it, such a state of "can neither continue to fight for it, nor can he retreat and give up".
He couldn't understand, what is this in the end
And... what should he do
Qin Huaiyang turned his head and deliberately didn't look at her, but as Yu Guang moved, her quiet appearance was so clearly reflected in his own eyes.
Qin Huaiyang smiled helplessly.
She looks so much like herself. So I understand her, and know why she did it. Perhaps, he just couldn't accept her reason and restraint beyond his own.
Because it means that I am in her, completely useless.
Yes, it's totally useless. Otherwise, reason is nothing.
restraint? Get out of here!
He, Qin Huaiyang is a living example! Who would have thought that he has today.
—
Silence, all silence.
The surroundings were silent, and suddenly a bell rang from the teaching building opposite. Then, the noisy sound came from one after another.
Playing, chasing, making noise.
That is, it belongs to the voice that only comes after class, and it is also the unbridled voice that belongs to youth.
This is also what these two silent adults don't have.
So now, they can only stand here in a stalemate, and no one is willing to back down.
Su Song thought, do you want to tell him, because you are the ironest buddy in Wu Huaiyue High School, and because you have such affection for me, everything becomes complicated and troublesome? Because I really don't know what to do, can I just avoid him blindly
Do you want to say that
Su Song didn't know, she only knew that she really didn't want to hurt anyone.
But why? Did she hurt in the end
So why on earth? She restrained herself from avoiding him in an attempt to avoid possible harm, she did nothing else.
He turned his head away, Su Song felt it. At that moment, she suddenly understood that she was wrong there.
The fault is her self-righteousness.
Avoid everything in a self-righteous manner, thinking that it won't cause harm. But how could she, who is self-righteous, understand that she has done nothing, which is the greatest harm to Qin Huaiyang.
What he wants is that he can have an opportunity to fight for it, and he can fight for the opportunity without being treated differently.
—
After a long time, Su Song said, "Teacher Qin, I can only say, I'm sorry."
She feels tired, she is really tired.
She doesn't even understand now, what kind of person she is? Also, is she qualified to like a person who cannot be redeemed? Is it even qualified to be liked by others
Okay, is it liked
May I
How Su Song thought, could someone answer her now and help her recognize everything, can it
—
Silence, silence again.
"Teacher Qin, I just ran into the dean of education downstairs, and he is looking for you."
It is Wang Zhao, he is coming here.
They looked at him together and breathed a sigh of relief together, because someone finally broke the silence.
"okay, I get it."
After Qin Huaiyang finished speaking, he took a special look at Su Song and moved his mouth to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything.
Yup! What can I say? Qin Huaiyang turned and walked away.
Qin Huaiyang walked to the corner of the corridor and stopped.
He leaned his back against the wall, took out the cigarette, lit it, and took a breath. Sure enough, it still felt a bit choked, which was uncomfortable.
Qin Huaiyang always carried cigarettes on his body. Although he did not smoke, he would ignite them.
He is obsessed with the smell of smoke.
For Qin Huaiyang, cigarettes have always been an item that can make him sober and wary of the life he is carrying.
After so many years, the child in his heart still only wants to shrink in the corner and hug himself.
That kid, he has a lot of doubts.
His biggest doubt is, why doesn't everyone like me
"Can't I be liked?"
Many times, many nights, he always asked himself over and over again. However, I have not been able to find the answer.
Just now, he really wanted to ask Su Song this question.
However, he was sensible and restrained after all, he did not ask.
He knew that this answer could not be given to him by Su Song.
—
He turned and looked up and looked at the window, where a small green plant had grown unexpectedly.
The small green leaves glow all over in the sun, with clear veins.
Qin Huaiyang thought, plants grow in light, but humans are not.
He laughed, and finally he seriously thought about the thing that he had been reluctant to touch.
Thinking of himself hiding in the dark, he asked, is it because he really likes her, or is it just because he can't swallow this breath
In the past, when he was a student, he would secretly compete with Wu Huaiyue.
Competing the performances other than mathematics, and even secretly comparing, which one is more temperamental or has better grades between the girl who likes him and the girl who likes him, as if this can also prove who is better than him.
In fact, this is a normal psychology. It is inevitable for a young teenager to be immature. Also use this as a standard to know yourself and improve yourself.
I just didn't expect that these years passed and I was no longer a student. But the adult Qin Huaiyang still wants to compare with him.
So, why on earth
—
He stared at the smoke between his fingers, and when the wind blew from the window, the faint light was brighter and redder.
Cigarettes are also consumed faster.
The wafting smoke dispersed.
He squeezed the cigarette butt out on the trash can next to him, and he told himself that it would not be contaminated, absolutely not.
It's definitely not like that bastard.
Will not.
The hand holding the cigarette butt was shaking, and Qin Huaiyang stretched out his other hand to hold it down.
This child who grew up in the mud, how can he compare with Wu Huaiyue, the son of the Chosen
What can there be
Can a scumbag child be liked
Who can tell me.