"If you can't get it, you can't get it, because I'm good at good."
In this case, it sounds more or less fatalistic.
Su Song stretched out his hand and smashed Yu Shan, "Who said to classmate Wang Zha when school started, what are these small failures? It's just a test, whether you are worth having a real pirate dream.
People who are deceived can bear everything for this, right? "
Yu Shan sneered, "These words are nothing more than this girl relayed to Captain Lin.
I am also a victim of being induced! Wasn't it because of being young? That's why I was bewildered by Captain Lin's words, and he stupidly persisted until now.
But, Sister Song, you should know that it is always so easy to persuade others, but when you use the same words to persuade yourself, it is not so easy.
After all, talking about others is just fine. But I have to do it myself! "
Su Song was immediately said to be stupid by Yu Shan. After all, she herself was a high school student. In terms of her academic performance, she went smoothly from childhood to most of her studies. She had never had such troubles, so she couldn’t really understand Yu Shan’s feelings. She didn't know what to say.
In the end she just said, "Isn't there still almost a year left! You didn't skip this time and go directly to the college entrance examination. Moreover, you are in the ninth grade, right?"
Yes! But ninth grade has a fart. Who didn't know, the difference between the first grade and the second grade was more than 100 points, let alone her ninth.
Only elementary school students care about rankings, high school students care about their real grades, not to mention that she is a senior in high school. Those rankings do not represent much, the college entrance examination is not for students in a school, but for candidates from across the country.
What she cares about is not the rankings, but the real results of being admitted to Tsinghua University and Peking University.
Yu Shan looked at Su Song with a "university bully really can't understand the big ambitions of elementary school scum". She wanted to explain something, but let's just think about it. Elementary school scum has the ambition of a university scum, which is a bit shameful. The self-defeating.
All the coy and inferior ambitions of a commoner girl would not understand the fairy song sister who was born to get everything easily.
However, Yu Shan still couldn't help but want to complain about himself! What else can she do besides complaining about herself
"Sister Song, I can't really understand now. Why could I say that I wanted to join him in the Tsinghua Peking University entrance examination? How much do I value myself!
Sometimes I think, why doesn’t he blame me! Even if I am stupid, I will feel more at ease.
However, I also know that if he accuses me, blames me, and says that I have poor grades, I will definitely break up with him. I never disliked him back then, so why did he say that to me! "
After that, Yu Shan stomped her foot and made a clunky sound from the soles of her shoes. Her actions were a bit funny.
Su Song chuckled, and the healing ability of the Octopus girl was really fast, and it seemed that she was not sad at all.
But, suddenly, Yu Shan looked down at his shoes and said, "Or maybe, what I can't accept is the fact that he believes in me that way but I can't do it."
Every young person will suddenly understand at a certain growth stall that desire is one thing, and fulfillment is another.
Yu Shan looked up at Su Song and asked, "So Sister Song, why do you say people are so contradictory and strange? There are always two completely opposite expectations for the same person and the same thing? Why?"
This question struck Su Song's heart hard.
For the same person, there are two completely opposite expectations. Why
To put it bluntly, isn't she the way she feels towards Wang Zhao now
A feeling of wanting to approach and push away.
After a while, Yu Shan’s voice weakened. She said, “I’ve read a sentence before and said that the greatest significance of inter-class exercises is to blatantly look at people who usually don’t dare to be stationed.
I really couldn't understand it before. But in the inter-class exercises this morning, I understood.
Before, I couldn't understand it, maybe it was just because, the person I wanted to arrogate, I could always look at him blatantly, and I knew everything about him. Because he has always been by my side, I have always believed that he belongs to me. "
Yu Shan sniffed, and then said, "I think I have a certain dependence on Captain Lin.
It's just that before, I didn't really think about whether my dependence on him was the kind of love between men and women.
Because all the time, from 6 to 18 years old, 12 years, everything between me and him has become accustomed to it, and even affirmed that we will be together forever until we die.
But this morning, I was suddenly very scared, afraid that he would leave me, afraid that I would never find him again.
Because it is too clear, he will fly to his big world, the big world that I can't reach. "
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The sky was completely dark, and the wind at night was blowing one after another. At some point, a plastic bag floated at Su Song's feet.
Su Song raised her foot and touched it lightly, not daring to make a sound, and then tilted her head to look at kindness.
Yu Shan suddenly turned her head and her eyes widened. She had been immersed in the memories she had told, as if she had forgotten that there was an audience around her.
For a long time, they were silent.
At night, it is easy to leave people speechless.
When listening to other people's stories, the listener will be emotional, and in many cases it is simply because of thinking of themselves.
Su Song was emotional, and she even burst into tears because she thought of herself.
Listening to Yushan's story, she sank into her own compassion. She understood that she was spinning in place, but she had to watch the other person fly into the larger world.
That was how she watched Wu Huaiyue flying to the big world he longed for that year.
It was a feeling that felt like dying.
But now, the feeling of dying at that time is too far away. Probably that sentence, time will heal everything.
No, it's the years that will make you meet someone, and that person will help you to appease everything.
However, if she was comforted by her own experience, she would be even more sad. Su Song knew that Yu Shan didn't want to meet another person, she only wanted her Captain Lin.
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The sun just disappeared silently.
Yu Shan thinks, today's sunset seems to be joking!
Yu Shan finally said, "Is it because people start to have the people and things they care about, so everything starts to become complicated? Then they become contradictory adults.
I finally understand now that it is because I care about him so much that I am suffering, contradictory, and complicated.
Is this kind of feeling called secret love? "
Yu Shan turned to face Su Song, clasping her hands on her shoulders, as if to be forced to ask, Yu Shan asked, "Where is Sister Song? Does Sister Song have a crush?"