Gu Mang stared at this man, hesitant and alert, dazed and confused in his eyes.
Finally, he stepped forward, tentatively, raised his hand and touched Mo Xi's neck.
Mo Xi suddenly raised his head and stared at him with reddish eyes.
His breathing was a little violent due to his excitement, the front of his clothes was slightly open, and the lotus mantra marks on his neck rose and fell, pulsing vividly at the arteries. He is obviously someone who has not been tempered by any demons, but his expression at this time is no different from that of a beast.
"doing what."
"I..." Gu Mang hesitated, "but I... don't know you..."
"… "
"Why would you have..."
Mo Xi was stabbed violently. His self-esteem and resentment made him so cruel. He opened his hand and said sternly, "—I never needed this kind of thing. You are forcing me."
"..." Gu Mang raised his head and looked at the man whose reason was overturned.
In this dim firewood room that no one could see, in front of Gu Mang, Xi Hejun, who was already standing, was out of control, like a boy from yesterday.
"Isn't it always you?" Mo Xi's chest trembled, and the end of his eyes were a little red, "You came to provoke me, you came to find me..."
When disappointed.
Pleasure.
Either poor or successful, or when the future is uncertain.
It's you who took the initiative to approach me with a smile.
"You made me believe..."
I believe that there are other friendships in this world that don't matter, and there is one person who will be kind to another person regardless of return.
I believe that this floating world still has pure kindness, sincerity, and a pure heart that never regrets death.
"You brought me back—"
Mo Xi really lost his mind. He suppressed it for so long, waited so long, and waited until this day, wasn't it just to ask Gu Mang the truth
Didn't he just want to see what was in Gu Mang's heart...
Why can't you even get a little relief from this.
Betrayed, abandoned, betrayed.
Saying that you like it is false, saying that you are willing is false, and saying that you will not leave is false.
There was nothing left, and in the end there were only two lotus lines on the neck, which confirmed the things that happened to them in the past, and the sincerity of being so stupid, so unreserved, fearless, and hesitant when he was young.
It proves that the ignorant young man at that time was in love.
Stupid enough to give my heart to him.
Stupid enough to think that all promises can come true.
Stupid to this day... Stupid to this day still hurts.
Excessive excitement made his mind buzz, and there was a burst of dizziness in front of him.
Mo Xi looked at Gu Mang in front of him. In this dizziness, his vision began to gradually dry up and become less clear.
He seemed to see the young man standing on the side deck of the ship again. So far and so close, so familiar yet so unfamiliar, against the sea breeze, wearing a black robe, with a bandage wrapped around his waist, and a crooked silk band on his head, he said with a sneer.
"I'm going to kill you."
Mo Xi grabbed him and pushed him against the wall, regardless of whether it was today or tomorrow: "Yes... I knew you would kill me. Didn't you already stab me... Why are you not willing to stay in Wangshu Residence? Stab a second time?!"
He knew he had lost his way, he knew it was ridiculous to do so. But a person who has been suppressing himself to the death, how can he hold back once he gets out of control and erupts.
What's more, what Mo Xi has always wanted more than ever was just this one turning back.
Just an answer.
"You made me believe... In the end, you made me disbelieve... "
"You said that I don't care about anything, and I have nothing to lose, so I don't care..." The voice softened and finally choked, "But do you know what I lost after you took that road?!"
do you know what i lost...
Mo Xi turned his face to the side abruptly, lowered his head, and after a while, two words came out between his lips and teeth, crushed to pieces by hatred.
"It's not me who doesn't care about anything."
"… "
"It's you."
"… "
"I wish I could take you—"
Suddenly aphasia.
Because Gu Mang suddenly stretched out his hand, carefully and hesitantly, cupped his face, and said, "You... don't be so sad."
Mo Xi turned his head abruptly, and met those eyes that were as pure and blue as the sea water.
"… I do not know what you're talking about."
"But can you...don't be so sad." Gu Mang slowly, laboriously, word by word, so clumsily, "...don't... be sad."
Like a burning blade that was about to melt, it was suddenly immersed in the water.
Hissing and billowing smoke ignited, but the frenzied heat was extinguished in an instant.
The blood cooled little by little, and reason came back little by little.
Gu Mang looked at him and slowly said, "You are not a bad person..."
He said cautiously, his eyelashes fluttered, and he added: "I don't know you, but you...not bad..."
"… "
"So...don't be sad..."
Mo Xi felt extremely uncomfortable in his heart. He couldn't distinguish between hatred, impatience, anger, and other things. He looked at Gu Mang's familiar face and at those unfamiliar blue eyes.
He used to be the same person, looking at him with dark and deep eyes, smiling, calling him loudly and saying, "Mo Xi."
"It's okay, don't be sad."
"No matter what, we will always be together, no matter how difficult it is, I will survive."
"Come on, let's go home together."
A feeling of exhaustion suddenly surged into his heart, Mo Xi closed his eyes, almost weary, as if a dying vulture had exhausted its last strength and remained stubborn: "... I'm not sad."
He clearly hates him so much that he can't be strangled to death in his own hands. Let's see if he can escape again, whether he can cheat again, and whether he can leave him again.
I can't wait to see his skull shatter and blood flow through him, ending all hope and despair.
But when Gu Mang carefully persuaded him, begging him not to be sad. Suddenly he thought-
Many, many years ago, Gu Mang sat by the blood-stained trench and summoned his ridiculous little Shenwu suona, which he had never used since treason, and blew it with anger and resentment.
Such a rotten song, everyone blocked his ears and scolded him for playing a ghost, crying and mourning, he just laughed, laughing back and forth, and then continued to puff his cheeks, playing a song "Hundred Birds to the Phoenix" for the dead. To be so affectionate, so serious.
When he squinted to look at him, the bottom of his eyes was moist.
Gu Mang has a heart.
Deceiving people and ghosts for so many years, but Mo Xi knew that he had intentions.
He still wanted to believe him—the events of those years were not all false.
For this result, he can wait.
"… Forget it. You can't remember. Forget it."
Mo Xi's voice was moist, and he finally said this.
"It's me who talks too much."
"It doesn't matter if you are real or fake." After a few moments of silence, Mo Xi stood up straight, and slowly, he straightened the front of his clothes without any extra folds, and covered his neck. The lotus pattern of the "I'll be waiting."
"I'll wait for a result. Wait for your truth."
His eyes were still a little red, and so was the tip of his nose.
Gu Mang hesitated: "You... wait for me...?"
"Yes, I'll wait for you."
"I'll wait for you no matter what. I'll wait no matter how long."
"But you have to remember that if you lie to me again, if I find out that you are still lying to me - I can't get stabbed a second time in the same spot on my chest."
"I'll let you live rather than die."
It's quiet around.
"..." Gu Mang lowered his head and thought for a while, then suddenly said in confusion, "What is... life is better than death?"
That confused and innocent tone made Mo Xi look at him coldly, but because of the redness at the end of his eyes that didn't subside, it didn't look as sharp as usual.
Gu Mang noticed his gaze and raised his head to look at him. He knew that this man had obviously broken his sword formation and removed his "sharp claws", but he did not bite his neck, nor did he look like others. same as insulting him.
So Gu Mang tentatively asked: "Life is better than death... Yes... do you mean to let me go?"
Mo Xi: "...No."
"But you didn't kill me, and you didn't hit me."
"...I don't fight idiots."
Gu Mang didn't speak, he still looked at him, but suddenly. He leaned close to him and sniffed it.
Mo Xi raised his hand to stop the tip of his nose: "What to do."
Gu Mang licked his dry lips and said softly, "Remember you."
"… "
Remember him? Remember him, face? smell
Or remember he's a guy who doesn't fight idiots
But Gu Mang didn't explain. At this time, he let go of his guard a little bit, or maybe it wasn't because he wanted to let go, but the hunger for more than ten days had made him powerless. He didn't care about Mo Xi, anyway, his last fangs were useless in front of the other party.
Gu Mang slowly lowered his head and curled back into his corner. Those eyes that glowed in the darkness like a wolf blinked wearily.
"Thank you," he said. "Only you are willing to make me 'better to die'."
A word suddenly fell into his heart, and Mo Xi's chest suddenly felt sour.
He stood there for a while, looking at the dilapidated hut, the small mattress with cotton wool exposed, and the figure curled up in the corner.
"..." Mo Xi closed his eyes, his long eyelashes trembling slightly.
Finally went out and came back with some pancakes and hot soup. Feed this man who is about to starve to death.
"ate."
"..." Gu Mang hurriedly leaned over to smell it. After smelling it, he swallowed, but hesitated again, "But you didn't prostitute..."
As soon as the word of whoring came out, Mo Xi raised his black eyebrows and slapped the cake directly on his face without saying a word.
It was late at night when we returned to the mansion.
"Lord, you're back—ah! what's the matter with you?"
"I'm fine."
"But why are your eyes..." Why are they red
"Into the sand." After saying that, he left Li Wei and walked to the bedroom without looking back.
After tossing around in Luomei Bieyuan for so long, he didn't feel sleepy at all. Tossing and turning in bed, he simply put on a black fur coat and stood under the corridor, looking at the moonlight in the bright hall. And Gu Mang's haggard face was always shaking in front of his eyes, lingering.
Is he really stupid...
Liao Guo sent him back, was it really just to negotiate peace, or did he have other intentions
He tried his best to figure it out, but no matter how many times he did it, in the end, his thoughts stopped in those wolf-like blue eyes.
"Thank you, only you are willing to make my life worse than death."
Mo Xi closed his eyes abruptly.
For a long time after that, he never went to Luomei Bieyuan to see Gu Mang again.
One is that there are more things going on, and the other is that Luomei Bieyuan is Murong Lian's territory after all, and it is always bad to go too much.
He only glanced at the backyard of Luomei Bieyuan once when he led the Imperial Army to patrol the city. Gu Mang was squatting there again, watching the fish, with the dirty big black dog beside him, everything was the same as before.
At the end of the month, the first goose feather snow of this winter floated outside the military aircraft office.
This evening was unusually cold, and most of the people in the Military Aircraft Department went home early to feed their grandchildren. A few young monks also took advantage of the weather to go back to the main city in groups of three or five to drink and eat meat.
Mo Xi was about to go back to the mansion, when suddenly a timid voice sounded in front of his desk: "Xihe-Jun, can I... Can I ask you for a favor?"
The author has something to say:
Today's little theater is a real joke—
Friend: Let me draw a picture of Gu Mang and Qian Qian. Can you tell me what their usual weapons are
Me: Oh... The current setting is that Sissy uses a whip, a sword, and a cane, and the cane will turn into a big whale! Awesome!
Friends: Good drop, what about the vastness
I:…
Friend: What about the vastness? ?
Me: Suona.
Friend (dropping the brush): What
Me: Gu Mang's weapon is a suona = = I'm not kidding...
friend:…
Liao Guo did at least one good thing, that is, they gave Gu Mang a new weapon, saved his taste, and made him use a bayonet instead = =