This time, Gu Mang was caught off guard, and Gu Mang didn't have time to stand firm. He fell into the depths of the hot spring in embarrassment, drank several sips of the spring water, and was then held by Mo Xi with one hand and pressed against the edge of the pool.
Mo Xi reached out and was about to take off the silk belt in front of his forehead. For some reason, this action aroused the panic in Gu Mang's heart. He began to struggle violently. Beast, like a dying fish.
"No...don't...don't..."
In the back of his memory, it seemed that there was a person who wanted to take such a thing from him so resentfully, but Gu Mang couldn't remember who it was, and he couldn't even tell whether it was his hallucination or something that really happened.
He just felt a pain in his heart.
He only vaguely knew that this piece of silk was his... he deserved it... what he longed for, wanted, but could only see...
"Give me back."
"Don't... don't!"
The two men were fighting in the Tangquan Pond for this thing. The pool water was swaying and the moon shadow was messy. In a hurry, Gu Mang actually bit the back of Mo Xi's hand!
His spiritual core was shattered, his spiritual power was gone, his body was full of scars, and he was no longer the grand occasion he used to be.
Now brother Gu Mang no longer has any ability to compete with his junior brother Mo.
He was forced to the end, and he could only choose such a ridiculous and absurd beast behavior.
To protect his obsession with life and death.
Mo Xi was also really offended. In his heart, this was a taboo that he must never touch - he could endure Gu Mang stabbing him and betray him, but it was his father's relic.
It was his father, who died in battle under the Liaoren Iron Cavalry in order to protect the people of Chonghua from evacuating the market, the last thing left to him.
How does Gu Mang match him!
All of a sudden, his heart was filled with fire, and Gu Mang bit him with ruthless force, the back of his hand was bitten, blood seeped out, and Mo Xi didn't feel any pain. The bloodshot... He ignored it, pulled his hand out of Gu Mang's mouth, snatched the silk belt, and then slapped Gu Mang in the face!
There was a crisp "slap", and the slap was heavy and hard, as if all the hatred for the past seven years would be paid for in this palm. After the beating, Mo Xi's palms were burning with pain, and his fingertips were trembling slightly due to the violent emotional fluctuations.
There was hatred in his eyes, but the water mist was transpiring, but the bottom of his eyes was moist.
Mo Xi's throat rolled, and he opened his mouth with restraint. The first time, only his lips moved, but he couldn't make a sound. He closed his eyes and paused for a while before speaking again.
His voice was hoarse.
He said hoarsely, "... Gu Mang. Do you know how dirty you are!"
Gu Mang turned his face sideways, his ears were buzzing, and he didn't say a word. His cheeks were swollen, and the corners of his lips were still stained with blood from when he bit Mo Xi. He actually couldn't understand what Mo Xi meant.
Just faintly, I feel a pain in my heart.
It seems that many years ago, what I have been afraid of is hearing this sentence from the mouth of the man in front of me.
Do you know how dirty you are.
Do you know what you are.
How do you match.
- It seems that he has always been prepared for Mo Xi to say these words to himself. Even though his memory has been deprived, the psychological defense and the stinging pain caused by defense are still there.
Mo Xi took a deep breath, released his hand, and whispered, "Get out. I don't want to see you again."
The silk belt was torn off, and there was still a ridiculous red on his forehead. Gu Mang moved his lips and tried to say something, but in the end he couldn't say anything. He only looked at Mo Xi silently with red eyes, and climbed up to the edge of the pool in embarrassment and exhaustion.
Yes, he has never been able to compete with him... never with anyone.
It's rare to want something, and it's treated like this.
Before leaving the Tangquan Garden, Gu Mang turned his head and glanced at Mo Xi, who was holding the blue and gold silk belt, and he whispered, "I'm sorry... but..."
But I really feel that this thing is very important to me.
I really…
Mo Xi never looked back, and said in a hoarse voice, "Get out."
"..." Gu Mang knew there was nothing more to say, he bit his lip that was still stained with blood, lowered his head, and walked out of the yard slowly.
When Li Wei saw Gu Mang appearing in Mingtang, he was so shocked that he couldn't even speak. No wonder Butler Li was ignorant. He really didn't know what happened to make Gu Mang wear sacrificial clothes, soaked all over, and walk slowly in the long night and cold winter.
Like a wandering soul.
Like a ghost left in the world.
"Gu Mang... Hey, Gu Mang!"
He called him, but when Gu Mang heard his voice, he just paused in his footsteps, and then continued to walk towards the nest where he was curled up.
Li Wei hurried over and grabbed him: "What are you doing? Why are you wearing the Lord's sacrificial robe? Do you know how important this robe is? Do you know..."
"I know. Dao." Gu Mang finally opened his mouth. His brain was not good. When he was sad, he couldn't speak coherent sentences, and his words were completely incomprehensible and incoherent. He tried his best to express himself, but he could only The stuttering words came out from between the roots of the teeth, so ridiculous, so stupid.
“…I can… understand. I try to… understand…”
The winter night was too cold, his clothes soaked in water were sticking to his body, the wind blew the chill of Bianstone, he didn't know how long he walked slowly with bare feet, but when he raised his face to look at Li Wei, his lips They are all shivering.
"I... want to understand... I also want to recall..." Gu Mang covered his head in pain, "But I can't... I don't know where I am... I'm wrong again... I've been wrong... I've been wrong... So you guys . . . would do this to me..."
Li Wei was stunned.
This is, what's going on...
Why is there a dazzling red mark on his face, blood between his lips and teeth, and he still talks like this...
Li Wei was shocked and lost his voice: "I told you to take a bath, you won't go to the Tangquan Pool in the back to wash, right?!"
Gu Mang didn't say a word, his lips pursed tightly.
"Are you crazy?! That's where the Lord bathes. Didn't I tell you about his cleanliness? You don't know who you are? You know how—"
Gu Mang, however, seemed to be so frightened that he would take the word out of someone else's mouth, and shuddered suddenly. He grabbed Li Wei's hand and interrupted Li Wei. Gu Mang was trembling, he tried his best to stretch his face, like a wolf who wanted to save his dignity in the bloody defeat.
But his blue eyes blinked, and there was water in them that shattered.
Gu Mang trembled and said, "Yes... I know. I'm dirty. In the future, I won't. But..." His eyes were hesitant, his eyelashes twitched, and he suddenly choked up.
He didn't even know why he was so sad.
He crouched down abruptly and curled up into a small huddled ball. After so many years, he was successful, defeated, loyal, and betrayed, but he still couldn't change his vileness to his bones. Except for his scars and accusations of crimes, he was still the same. Nothing. Even if he touches the silk belt that symbolizes the blood of heroes, he will suffer the most painful insult.
He buried himself in the dust, his neck so low that he seemed to be crushed by something he had forgotten.
Gu Mang choked and said, "You don't understand, you don't understand... I should have... I should have... "
Li Wei was completely overwhelmed. Although he was a little bit overwhelmed and his mouth was a little shy, his heart was always warm, and he didn't have any direct hatred with Gu Mang. So when he saw this terrified man curled up in front of him and suddenly cried, he didn't know what to say.
With his hands and feet feeling uneasy for a long time, he couldn't help but ask Gu Mang, "What should you have?"
But Gu Mang couldn't tell.
He didn't even remember what that silk belt meant or symbolized.
He also knew that that thing belonged to Mo Xi, and he didn't understand why he had such severe pain.
"What exactly is yours?" Li Wei said helplessly, "Every grass and tree in the Xihe Mansion belongs to the Lord, even me, even yourself, and us. What can you and I have? ?"
He sighed and patted Gu Mang's shoulder: "Get up, go and change your clothes quickly. If other people see that you are wearing the sacrificial clothes of a high-ranking official, the Xi and the government will probably follow you. Bad luck."
Gu Mang returned to the "nest" he had made by pounding the old table and chairs with the broken mattress. He didn't have any obsession with the cold clothes on his body. He went in and took off all his clothes, changed back to his only wrinkled cotton robe, and returned the sacrificial clothes to Li Wei.
Li Wei took the clothes and originally wanted to say a few more words to him, but seeing him like this, he felt that he really didn't know what to say, so he sighed, turned and walked away, muttering as he walked: "Fortunately, this sacrificial costume has Two sets... or you'll get into trouble..."
Gu Mang sat down in the dimly lit hut, the rice pocket woke up, and the big black dog came up to him, as if smelling his sadness, put his warm head on him, whimpered, and licked his cheek. .
Gu Mang hugged it and whispered, "You don't think I'm dirty. Right?"
Fandou wagged his tail and put his paws on his legs.
Gu Mang opened his eyes in the dark night. This was the first time he felt "unwilling" and "pain" since he became conscious. But he didn't know what the two feelings were about. He felt that they made him uncomfortable, like an illness, a pain better than a whip.
Gu Mang closed his eyes, touched Fandou's head, and said in a low voice, "Fandou, I don't despise you for being dirty either."
"Woooooo!"
"Both of us, here. We have food to eat." Gu Mang rubbed his cool, wet little nose, "So it hurts a little bit. I can bear it. It's fine."
"Wow!"
Gu Mang put his hand on his chest and choked: "It's okay, I can endure this little bit of pain... I can endure it... "
Once you get used to it, it doesn't hurt anymore.
Endure it for a while, it's all over... It's all over.
Early the next morning, Mo Xi pushed the door out of the bedroom.
He has already changed into a sacrificial robe, and every year the people in the house look forward to this day, and feel that Xi Hejun looks very handsome in a formal robe.
But this year, when he came to the hall, the servants waiting there were all startled when they saw him.
Xi Hejun obviously hadn't slept all night, his expression was very ugly, and there was even a slight green rhythm in his eyes. He sat down at the table, Li Wei had already made the vegetable cloth, as usual, he didn't want to spread it out, only two cages of three fresh xiaolongbao, a casserole fish porridge, a plate of sweet and sour crispy fish, vinegar pickled radish, sesame oil cold fern Vegetables, crystal tofu, and a plate of colorful dim sum.
Mo Xi sat at the table for a while without moving his chopsticks.
Li Wei tentatively: "My lord?"
Mo Xi glanced at the empty space opposite him, and said nothing. After a while, he raised his hand to scoop out a bowl of porridge and ate it silently.
The water leak on the side table was dripping dripping, and Mo Xi ate some, but his appetite was not very good, and he stopped moving. He raised his eyes and said to Li Wei: "It's almost time, go to the East City Gate and prepare to leave. You..." He paused and said bluntly, "You call him out and let him follow the ceremonial team of Xihe House. I'll go first. already."
Li Wei agreed, but said in his heart, it seems that Gu Mangding did something that angered the Lord yesterday, and he was very angry. According to the original intention of the Lord, it was to vacate the position of the close guard to Gu Mang, so that he could keep an eye on the opponent's actions at all times.
But now, Mo Xi didn't seem to care anymore, and he didn't want to see Gu Mang so much, and he was thrown into the honor guard at will, as long as he didn't cause trouble under his nose.
Can you get so angry just by entering a hot spring
Li Wei felt a little drumbeat in his heart, but he didn't dare to guess. He is a smart man, and he knows very well that knowing something is more painful than not knowing it.
Curiosity is not the most intolerable thing in the world.
Keeping secrets is.
With the mentality of being willing to be a fool, Li Wei put all these inexplicable thoughts behind him, went to the backyard as ordered, and called Gu Mang out of his "nest".
After Gu Mang listened to his arrangement, he didn't have any unreasonable reactions. Insufficiency of mind also has the advantage of incompetence. After a night, he has calmed down a lot. Hearing that Li Wei asked him to follow the honor guard, he went without any objection.
However, Li Wei was not at ease. After leading him to the guard, he gave a few words to the captain of the guard, and then handed the decoction pot to the other party, exhorting: "This is the medicine for tranquilizing the heart prescribed by Pharmacist Jiang, I guess The lord will stare at him to drink, but not necessarily, you are in control anyway, if Gu Mang doesn't drink, you will force it. This thing is not a joke."
The captain of the guard agreed and took the pot.
The group went on their way.