The air in the room is warm, and the snow scene in winter brightens the inside and outside of the room! In the sound of reading and reading, Jin'er always thinks of that late autumn.
It was a night when the fireflies no longer appeared. The flames passed through the cover of the lanterns, and the courtyards would turn into an orange-red color, lining the garden rocks between the courtyards. For Jin'er, the scenery at the end of autumn always seemed to be shrouded in an ambiguous smokescreen. Sister Yunzhu's illness was a surprise for both her and Ning Yi.
During this period, Ning Yi was the first to react. Soon after, one thing was separated from Yunzhu. In fact, most of them were about Zhuji. For these things, Yunzhu, who was weak at the time, still felt a little guilty, but Ning Yi, who was by the bedside, took it on with a wry smile. responsibility.
"Remember what I said to you in front of the small building. The sand I couldn't hold, I lifted it. Actually... I originally hoped that you would find it fun to open a shop. It was indeed possible, After the incident with the Su family, it was my fault that I wanted to use Zhuji as a carrier to expand the business. I started to make the same mistake again... "
In Ning Yi's wry smile, Jin'er and Yunzhu didn't understand what he meant by the same mistake he said. But when Ning Yi realized the problem and the means to solve it, it might not be surprising.
After taking care of Zhuji, he went to the most famous pianist in the capital, Lehu, and accompanied Yunzhu to visit. The reason was not to communicate with each other, but just to listen to someone's song, which was regarded as a distraction. During the incident, occasionally came over to chat with Yunzhu, and read to her the stories in the book. In this way, Yunzhu's mood gradually relaxed, but it was Ning Yi, who went to learn a lot about the rhythm of the qin music, and occasionally asked Yunzhu a question. Relax.
Heart disease is like a mountain when it comes, and it is like a continuous spring rain when it goes away. Autumn and winter came, and then heavy snow fell in Bianliang City, and Yunzhu gradually improved. On the contrary, the relationship with Jin'er was put on hold in such days.
Before going to Shandong, the two agreed that when Ning Yi returned, they would give Jin'er an explanation. Unfortunately, after returning, Yunzhu fell ill, and the two took care of her. When they were alone, there were jokes and jokes. But for these things, Jin'er knew that he seemed a little guilty, and even listened to him when the two were chatting in the corridor one day. He said that he was a little "insufficient".
"Sometimes, I feel that many things are very good, and after I think they are good, I want them all. Whether it's Yunzhu or you, I didn't think I was a careless person before, but now I may forget it. Only these things, I don't I know how to solve it. I promised you before, and now I can't do it for a while... "
Ning Yi was sitting under the orange-lit railing at the time, and when he said it, it seemed like an apology. Jin'er stood up and kicked him in the back, but the two didn't talk much about it after that. Ning Yi was actually a little surprised by Jin'er's silence. Fortunately, after that incident, Jin'er didn't show any rejection towards him. Time to bicker with him and fight.
In November, Ning Yi took free time to visit musicians, violinists, and some craftsmen. When he arrived at the beginning of December, he came to give Yunzhu a guqin. The qin is made by hand, with high-quality materials but rough handwork. It seems that it is just to stretch some good strings on a piece of wood. Although some paintings are painted on it, it is still beautiful, but in the eyes of people like Yunzhujiner -Perhaps in anyone's eyes, this violin is a very poor handicraft.
On the contrary, this piano whose tone is not accurate, made Yunzhu laugh and cry for a while.
But when Ning Yi left that evening, Jin'er who followed him kicked him. When Ning Yi looked back suspiciously, she saw her head bowed.
"Ning Yi, I'm so stupid, I don't understand what you're thinking. But Sister Yunzhu and I both came out of the brothel. Being a concubine or being raised outside is normal and should be happy. It's an extra thing that men treat us well. If it's normal, it can be considered a home. You think a lot of things are good, and you want them. Isn't that what all men are like? When you see someone you like Woman, take it into the house. I don't know what you think, but how to live is also our business. Sister Yunzhu will get sick, many people will get sick, but the disease will always get better, neither I nor Sister Yunzhu If you think it's your business, don't think too much of it all the time."
Ning Yi was stunned for a moment. When he reached out to touch Jin'er's head, Jin'er took a step closer and hugged him. Ning Yi could feel the fragrance and softness of her body, and her chest was pressed against his. Ning Yi hugged her.
"I know you won't listen to me, do you?"
Jin'er spoke in his arms, and there was no resentment in her tone. Ning Yi smiled, even though she seemed heartless on weekdays, the woman in front of her had a smart and exquisite heart. When she applied that tenderness to herself, her own thoughts and temperament were actually Can't hide too much from her.
"I...I can understand, but I feel that I have a responsibility..."
"Yeah." Jin'er nodded softly and arched in his arms, "Actually, Sister Yunzhu and I both know, and we are both very happy, although the night you said those words to me, I felt like crying. ...I just think you're going to have a hard time doing this."
"Men just have to be hard on themselves, but I will remember what you said."
"That's good… "
Since these days, Ning Yi has been remembering the feeling of that evening, the body of the woman in his arms, and the words he said. Even though he was still a little uneasy about his inability to solve the problem, he felt much more relaxed after all.
This day, I accompanied Yunzhu and Jin'er to study and chat, and listened to Yunzhu playing a piece of music with the guqin he made. Although the quality of the qin was extremely poor, it still had a beautiful tone on Yunzhu's fingertips. Yunzhu laughed and said that she wanted to write a book on how to use a bad piano to play a good voice. Although she said so, she was very nervous about the bad piano in her hand. !
After that, Ning Yi took a ham and went home. When he arrived at the yard that is now regarded as the "Ning family", Su Wenyu was chatting with Tan'er and others about what happened during this time. After dinner, Ning Yi and Su Wenyu chatted for a while about the camp in Shandong. When they returned to the courtyard where they lived, the lights were bright, and Tan'er hugged Ning Xi and watched the snowmen piled up in the courtyard from the window.
Ning Yi returned to the room and teased his wife and children for a while. Su Tan'er hugged Ning Yi and sat on top of him and whispered, "What did you do in Shandong to toss Wen Yu like that... "
"What's wrong?"
"After he came back, he wanted to hug Xi'er. He looked very gentle, but it made Xi'er cry. Wen Yu was a little embarrassed. I could see that he was not the same as before. I haven't seen much of it. What can make a rich boy like this in a month... If he is in prison, it may change his temperament, but it's not like this..."
"It's hard to say." Ning Yi shook his head, "It's not that I can't say it, but it doesn't make any sense. It shouldn't happen in the future. That is... something that can subvert everyone's outlook on life..."
"That's fine, so that the child won't hear it." Tan'er pursed her lips and put her cheek against Ning Xi's little face and smiled. Ning Yi was also teasing him, making the child giggled and shook her body. .
"Anyway, after having different experiences, I finally started to become a good person, right?"
"That's right."
When the couple talked about it in the warm room. In the lively Right Prime Minister's Mansion in Bianliang City, in the lit study room, Qin Siyuan was also asking Wang Shanyue about various things in Shandong alone. There were voices of children running from the courtyard outside, talking about the camp. At that time, Wang Shanyue was also slightly hesitant.
"...Actually, it's hard to say. Ning Liheng acted very solemnly about it. I went to see it and saw the situation of Su Wenyu of the Su family. I think... it's too weird..."
The candle flickered, and Wang Shanyue stood there, talking about the detailed process.
"...In the beginning, it seemed that they were just asked to obey the above orders, simple training all day, and at night, let them tell some bad things they had done before, and let a few monks tell stories and talk about karma, but The story is actually very simple, not very deep... The whole big process is actually that simple, but on the one hand, the camp is very strict, and on the other hand, Ning Liheng treats these people's confession as a reward... "
"... Whoever speaks the most sincere, the best, and the most reasonable, he will let whoever live a better life and manage others... At first, he personally supervised them, Pick those who confessed. At that time, maybe someone deliberately pretended to plead guilty, deliberately pretended to tell a story, but as time passed, things slowly changed. Life in that camp was boring, and it felt like, Life may pass slowly, in a month, he has established the entire system operation, and then most of them have actually let them take care of themselves..."
"In that kind of environment, it's hard for people to pretend and lie wholeheartedly. Everyone starts listening to stories, scrambling to say what they did wrong and why they did it wrong. Even if they pretend, they say they regret it." As he talks, he can't hold back what he really thinks, because in it, admitting mistakes is a kind of honor... People won't let themselves live in an environment that they don't agree with all the time, either change the environment, or... they have to change Myself, this is what Liheng once said, it seems to be a syndrome of tearing something."
"...It seems that a group of robbers kidnapped a group of people. At first, these people were afraid of robbers. After a long time, they tended to have a good impression of the robbers. People are good people... Not because they really think that way, but because people have to deceive themselves, they can't let themselves live in a background of fear, they can only give themselves a reason in turn to make themselves feel that the environment is okay... ··"
"Then in the second month, after Liheng left, things became more and more intense. Those who confessed became more and more sincere, but those who felt dangerous began to secretly tell others not to do this, and then Several riots. My people and people from Zhujiazhuang have been there a few times, but most of the actions were actually suppressed by them. Those who confessed their guilt and felt that they had done something wrong prevented others people… "
"At that time, the little leader Ning Yi selected was the team leader. One of the team leaders tried to stop him because his subordinates wanted to kill people and run away, inciting others to stir up trouble. Even after stopping it, others were not allowed to make trouble, saying that It was also his own fault that his subordinates were obsessed, and finally committed suicide in front of that person..."
"This whole situation is in the third month, more than a hundred people were sent away, more than 30 died, 12 of them committed suicide... It was only three months, when the entire camp was The situation here is that everyone feels that they are guilty all day long. Some men who were still killing people a few months ago washed their faces in tears. Everyone wants to do something good, but as an outsider, it really makes people feel... Very scary, Fortunately, Liheng started to stop at this time, and sent more than 300 children in to learn skills from them and be a master and apprentice inheritance..."
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