After the busy Yuan Xi, the intermittent snow stopped. The theory is that it is coming to spring. When I walked through the streets, the sky was still blue and blue. Between the courtyard walls on both sides, only a few spit out. Bright plum blossoms.
When he came to the courtyard where Yunzhu Jin'er lived, he usually didn't take a carriage. Today, I want to take a walk even more, recalling the confusion in my heart, after I came to the capital, or what I did earlier. In the blink of an eye, it has been three years since I came here. Looking back on the mentality when I first arrived, I have now adapted to the deep courtyard of Zhumen and Mingwa Qingqiang here. What you see in the day and what you think at night will accumulate in people's hearts, giving people the real feeling of being in a certain place, and then more things will come over in trivial and trivial ways, filling every gap that people can feel. .
A lot had happened in three years, and he didn't know whether it was a good start or a bad one. He is not a sentimental person at all, and he doesn't necessarily have too many melancholy sorrows. It is a very simple model to deal with things when they come over. Even if he encounters something that is not easy to solve, he can always figure out clues from his heart.
The chasing child ran past him.
Yunzhu's letterhead was placed in his sleeve, slightly hot. After the thunderstorm half a year ago, Yunzhu had a relationship with him. When he wanted to leave, he did it secretly, but this time it was different. Ning Yi could understand the difference in meaning. In the morning, he thought about it for a while, and then he came all the way like this, but went to the door of the small courtyard, raised his hand to knock on the door, hesitated for a moment, and finally knocked on.
It was Jin'er who opened the door, looking at him with a sullen face, holding the latch in his hand. The two faced each other for a while, Ning Yi nodded and said, "I see, I'll go first, I'll talk about it later, okay?" Jin'er then threw away the latch, turned and walked ahead.
When passing through the courtyard, the winter plums on the side of the courtyard were still open, and there were little snowmen piled up outside the corridor in front.
Ning Yi asked that Yunzhu was cooking in the kitchen at this time. As he passed by, Jin'er got angry for a while and chased after him and wanted to kick him, but Ning Yi avoided him.
There was the sound of cooking from the kitchen behind the courtyard. Ning Yi stopped by the door, took a breath, and entered through the door. Compared with the small building by the Qinhuai River in Jiangning, the kitchen in this courtyard is not too small. Yunzhu is standing by the stove in a plain white dress, her hair is pulled up behind her head, and she is wearing two simple bead hairpins. , There is the aroma of vegetables and blood in the kitchen, and there are various seasonings on the cutting board. There is chicken blood in a bowl. The kitchen has been sent out at this time, and everything here must be made by Yunzhu alone.
Ning Yi watched for a while, then walked over from behind, Yun Zhu tilted his head, and when he saw it was him, a smile appeared on the corner of his mouth. Walking behind Yunzhu, Ning Yi reached out and hugged her, their cheeks pressed together, Yunzhu closed his eyes.
"I received a letter from you..."
"Um."
"You want to go to Xuanzhou."
The food was still cooking in the kitchen, and the tone of both of them was a little light. After Ning Yi let go of her, he smiled slightly, squatted aside, and threw a piece of wood into the stove: "If I say... What will happen to you when you go?"
Yunzhu squatted down, folded his hands on his legs, looked at the fire in the earthen stove, leaned towards Ning Yi with a smile, and said softly, "Then I won't leave, you are my man, Yunzhu will do what you say...but Yunzhu's boss is not such a domineering person."
"You're the first person to say that to me." Ning Yi shook his head. When Yunzhu got up and fiddled with the spatula, he was silent for a moment, "You know, if you really just want to visit your parents' hometown and visit , I will definitely agree, but this time is different, isn't it... I put a lot of pressure on you... "
Yunzhu was silent for a moment, but also shook his head. Ning Yi rubbed his forehead, Yun Zhu trotted to the side and brought him a small bench for him to sit on. After recovering from her illness, she relied on the weakness of the past few months, and as before, she showed a flexible and pure temperament. The kitchen was quiet, Ning Yi sat there and made a fire, while Yunzhu chopped and cooked vegetables back and forth. The ingredient was a chicken, and the vegetables were cooked several times. There was actually quite a lot of tacit understanding between Ning Yi and Yunzhu, but this time, she made Ning Yi feel a little troublesome.
Like a small family in the past, the food was already cooked in a short time. Ning Yi and Yunzhu went to the living room and had lunch with Jin'er. The dishes were delicious, but Ning Yi and Jin'er's appetite was not good. After finishing the meal and washing the dishes, Yunzhu went upstairs, made tea for Ning Yi, and took the storybook that Ning Yi had not finished reading a few days ago for Ning Yi to read. The room on the second floor was warm. Ning Yi was halfway through reading, Yunzhu was already lying on his lap and seemed to be falling asleep, but Jin'er didn't come in. I wonder if she was listening to the door outside.
"We're eating chicken for lunch today..." When Ning Yi was thirsty and stopped to drink tea, Yunzhu, who was lying on his lap, just laughed and said this softly. Ning Yi pressed the book and waited for her to speak.
"Liheng...We have known each other for almost three years. Do you remember when I first met, I was killing the hen..." She said softly, "Yun Zhu felt that the best thing in his life was pulling Liheng into the river together."
"Yeah, you gave me a slap in the face for saving you." Ning Yi stretched out the hair on her head and pulled out the pearl hairpin, Yun Zhu closed his eyes and lay down like a cat.
"Yunzhu is always yours, you can take revenge any way you want." She put her cheek on Ning Yi's leg and shook it with a smile, "Afterwards...a lot of things happened...that cake stand... , Songhuadan, Zhuji, I learned to kill chickens, I learned to cook... You run by the river every morning, you know what I look forward to most every day is that you run over there and sit for a while, follow I have a few words to say..."
"Then what happened?" Ning Yi frowned, dragged her over, and asked directly, "Why are you leaving this time?"
"Then." Yun Zhu huddled in his arms and was silent for a moment, "Then... Liheng put too much pressure on himself.
"Pressure..." Ning Yi frowned, then shook his head, "I've solved a lot of things, Yunzhu, it's actually nothing, I can handle it, of course there will be pressure, but it's nothing at all. Men just have to be hard on themselves..."
"That's why I'm surprised, my man is a weirdo." Yunzhu smiled softly, she took a breath, and said softly, "Liheng, Liangshan is nothing in front of you, and family and country matters are in front of you. It's nothing, but you are embarrassed by just a few women. The strangest place for you is here. To the people around you, you think more important than family and country affairs. I am actually very happy, but also Because of this, I want to go out and relax..."
"I'm not embarrassed because of you!" Ning Yi was a little distressed. After denying it, he considered his words, "Actually... that's not what I said. In short, I don't think I'm good enough for you..."
"Not good enough?"
"Not the same thing."
"It's good enough. In the past few months, you have accompanied me to see a doctor, accompany me to relax, come and chat with me, read, and worry all day..."
"So you feel that I have delayed my affairs, but I still put pressure on you."
"No." Yunzhu hugged his hand, lay there and looked up at him, shaking his head softly, "Liheng, you put pressure on yourself, will you listen to me?"
She smiled: "In Yunzhu's life, there are good things and bad things. If I want to say good things, I have met a man who is worthy of my trust. If I say bad things, in the years in the brothel, I was worried. I don't think I can run away... Liheng, I used to be a lady of the official family. In the brothel, they said that I had a high spirit. After I came out of the brothel, they also said that I had a high vision. But my spirit is high. After all, my son is not very high, especially after following you, Yunzhu... You can do whatever you want, a good life, a bad life, but I also know that you will not blame me no matter what... "
"I want to stay by your side, and I don't want to go anywhere... Whether it's your concubine, or the woman you keep outside, I'm all satisfied. Liheng... Women are strange. Yes, maybe it's just me, I'm just worried that one day you really don't want me anymore, and if I really become a burden to you, then I really can't live anymore. After thinking about it like this, I get sick. …”
"But as long as I still have some use, this body is fine, I can sing to you, talk with you to relieve your boredom, even if you are really unhappy outside, come back and lose your temper like a normal man in the family, beat me After a while, if you are happy, I will also be happy... Liheng, I haven't told you this before, I'm afraid you think I'm weird."
"When I was in the brothel, I also thought that one day in the future, I would be like other people, get married, be a concubine, maybe meet a man in my tens of years, dote on you when I like you, and treat you when I am unhappy. You beat and scolded you. At that time, I was so scared... But then when I think about Liheng, I sometimes imagine that one day, you will be unhappy outside. I try my best to make you happy. You get angry and even beat up You slapped me for a while, maybe slapped your hands hard, and beat your head to the bone, and then your anger subsided. When I think of this, I actually feel happy in my heart, and then... um... think you… "
When she said this, she was slightly embarrassed, her face turned red, and her voice became even softer: "Although I know, Liheng, you will never do such a thing to me, but I want to For you. Woman, that's how it is..."
Ning Yi lowered his head, frowned slightly, and sighed softly: "After all, the relationship is for two people. You can do this. Of course I have to treat you better. It's normal for me to be under pressure."
"But I don't want that..."
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