First of all, I apologize to everyone. In the last year, the update is really bad.
This is my third year since I turned 30. At 30, in all fairness, there is a lot to say and show off. The online literature industry is booming, and I have made more money. I don’t need to worry about expenses like I did in previous years. In 2017, the copyright of “Zhoufu” was sold, and film and television dramas began to be made. I got two One is the silver award of the "Second Internet Literature Biennial Award", and the other is the "Mao Dun Internet Literature Newcomer Award". He became the vice chairman of the Hunan Internet Writers Association, participated in several activities, and received several interviews. , can be said to be very satisfied with vanity.
Life with the family is basically on track. We bought a puppy, a border shepherd for more than two months. The puppy came into the house for ten days. I was in a state of high tension. Going to bed early was often impossible, but I had to get up early and cook food for the puppy. , change the diaper under the cage, clean up the feces, and teach the puppy where to go to the toilet every day. The puppy is named Xiaoxiong, which is very cute.
Bought this puppy because the body had to start exercising, last year I found out I couldn't do a pull-up myself, I have gallstones and fatty liver and probably more. In the process of writing a book for a long time, I rarely find time to exercise, even after realizing the problem, intermittent exercise does not solve many problems. Bian Shepherd is a dog with a lot of exercise. After one year old, their daily exercise starts at about 30 kilometers, and they can even run 90 kilometers. We didn't realize this problem before buying it. After buying it, I checked the information, I said.
Anyway, if everything is ideal, this puppy will torment me for more than ten years, and it will probably allow me to maintain a good body and reach the other side of writing. Although I was tired every day for these ten days, but the night before yesterday in the community park, I found Can do a pull-up myself... Anyway, that's how I was at thirty-three, and I can't gauge whether it's worth it.
The puppy can finally go to the toilet in the diaper, and it doesn't make any trouble when entering the cage. I made time for the past two days, soaked coffee and sat in front of the computer to write, suddenly there was a long-lost freshness, like I used to go to school I feel like when I finish my class and my homework, I bury my head in writing the beginning of a story in my free time in self-study classes or between classes, and I am full of longing for the beauty of literature.
Today is twenty-six, and 2017 is still a few days away. I threw the puppy into the cage at 9 o'clock in the evening, and the time did not allow me to write a complete chapter of my son-in-law. I wrote a small beginning, I thought it was interesting, and then I found a song that I haven't heard for a long time, but it is very important to me. It is Wang Zheng's "Tell You". I listened to this song repeatedly when I wrote "Invisible Kill". I imagined a mother looking at her child and humming her longing for his future, but this night I suddenly saw myself.
"Like you, I don't know what the future holds
I really want to block the wind and rain and confusion for you
Let your sky only see rainbows
Until one day you became me too..."
When I was in my teens, I had a love for literature. In a life that had gradually become dark at the time, it could always give me a temporary place to live, in which I saw a new world and experienced a life after another. When I was in my early twenties, I gave up college, and I wrote all kinds of things that made me feel novel between work. I saw what people were thinking, and whenever I figured out something, I was excited about it.
I look forward to Balzac, Hugo, Lu Xun, Lu Yao, Shi Tiesheng... I look forward to every author who has reached the perfect state. Like I said before, people said that I had ambitions when I came out with "The Son-in-law", but no, my fourth grade goal was to write "War and Peace". People who don't have this kind of thinking are incomprehensible to me. .
I am thirty-three years old, how is it different from the past? I think it is because I have been able to measure the specific distance from perfection. When I was in my teens and twenties, I only knew that I was going to a certain place, and the distance was so far away. Instead, I was full of fighting spirit and enjoyment. But as I gradually measured the distance from perfection, life and literature became more and more demanding for me. And measuring the distance clearly does not mean that I can reach it in my life, but every step after that, I can only tremble with fear.
I now look at the old self who embraced literature in embarrassment, and I am very envious. I have a lot to say to him, but it was so fast that he became me in a blink of an eye.
I thought that in the future I would be someone else too.
Not long ago, someone privately messaged me on Weibo, which is a kind of information that often comes up: This person thinks that my "Invisible Killing" is the best. I like it, he ran to post, but was deleted and banned. This person thinks that he really thinks "Zaozi" is a scumbag, but he can't get over it, so he has to come and tell me this... It seems that he is expecting some of my kind of answer.
After I took a look, I put people on the blacklist.
I never keep anyone, and I never care who likes my book. I don't care about this kind of "sincerity", it really means nothing to me.
What is the truth
Each of us is moving forward. What I wanted to write when I was 30 must be different from what I wanted to write when I was 20. The world I saw when I was 30 must be different from when I was 20. When I was forty, I remembered my Youth is definitely different from the feeling described in "Invisible Kill". I recalled "Invisible Kill" some time ago, and I wanted to write something about Gu Jiaming, Ye Lingjing, Liu Huaisha, when they were forty and fifty years old. The story of each other's love for each other is very warm and heart-warming in my mind.
I didn't write it in the end.
Time is too cruel, "Invisible Killing" is already very good, there is no need to make people cry.
I have become a different person from many people on Weibo. I write very serious things, which is very different from when I was 20 years old. When I was 20 years old, I also liked relaxed and happy things. Now Don't write anymore. When I was writing the book, I broke apart some so-called great truths and put them in. I usually don’t like this on Weibo, because Weibo is my pastime. In the process of my thoughts gradually becoming out of tune with my simple-minded friends, I suddenly realized that maybe one day, I will become like those stubborn old people, talking about things that only I can understand, sighing at the degeneration of the world, People's incurable.
At that time, did I become profound, or did I become rotten? I think it's possible.
I can only guarantee that the direction of my change must go through my repeated thinking.
I used to tell people that when my son-in-law was on fire, I could choose a super-profitable direction. If my quality dropped and I updated it every day, I would also convince myself at that time that updating was the greatest responsibility to readers, and then There is no work ethic to laugh at people who have more chapters a month. That "I" will definitely not think that there is anything wrong with him.
The me now and the me in the future.
A person who liked "The Invisible Kill" eight years ago, I hope that I will continue to write "The Invisible Kill" eight years later, which is a pity. When I was willing to write "Invisible Kill", we ran into each other. It was fate. When I wanted to write "The Son-in-law", it was my fate with other people, and in my next book, it will also be my fate with other people. So I never struggle with that, people come when ideas are in sync, and leave when they don't. Instead of thinking about serving tens of thousands or hundreds of thousands of readers, I think I can only be myself. So you can see, oh, I don't have too many fans, I prefer to regard it as a like-minded fate.
2018 is approaching, and in the new year, activities will probably be reduced as much as possible. I hope to be able to complete "The Son-in-law" as soon as possible with such an enthusiastic mood tonight. I hope my body can get better, and I hope the puppy is good , I hope the goddess of literature can take care of me as always, and I hope everyone can be healthy and all the best.
In addition: The simplified version of "Zuofu" has been handed in and has entered the proofreading stage. It should be available in bookstores in 2018.
Sincerely, salute.