After Big Eye left, I began to waver between saving Su Meng and not saving Su Meng, and I couldn't make up my mind.
The reason for not saving Su Meng is very simple. I don't want to put myself in a dangerous situation. Just like the big eye said, just take care of myself, take the money that should be taken, and do the things that should be done.
The reasons for wanting to save Su Meng are somewhat complicated: First of all, I think that Su Meng was abducted by the wicked to a certain extent, and even if I didn’t put her to the torch, I should bring her out from under the cliff of miserable water. It won't end up where it is now;
Secondly, I feel that if I don’t save Su Meng, the black cat will definitely be very angry and come to me for trouble. Thirdly, and most importantly, I believe that all the records in the Wordless Heavenly Book must have lost my "heart". , And the reason for the loss must be related to Su Meng or Black Cat.
The dish has no intention to live, and the person has no intention to die.
Therefore, I think that although I am living well now, death may come at any time, and I faintly feel that the reason for my "not raising" some time ago is probably a sign that I am approaching death. Although there is no basis for this conjecture, the incident is surprisingly strange.
In the painful and confused entanglement, time passed by every minute and every second, and finally sleepiness struck me sitting on the office chair and fell asleep in a daze. It wasn't until someone pushed my arm that I woke up and looked up and found that Yan Fengjiao was standing in front of me.
"Brother Chen, you are really early enough. When will you come to the company?"
I didn’t want to tell her that He Dayan came to the company in the middle of the night.
"Is there something to come to the company so early? Is there something I need to do?"
"No. You go out first."
People always ask for help from onlookers when they are unable to make a choice. Seeing Yan Fengjiao twisting the water snake's waist and walking out, I stopped her again and said, "Assistant Yan, wait a minute."
Yan Fengjiao immediately twisted back and asked, "Brother Chen, what's the matter?"
"I want to ask you a question. What should one do when facing difficulties and doubts?"
Yan Fengjiao immediately became interested, and said gossiping: "Brother Chen, did you encounter something? Is there a relationship problem? Or did you break up with your girlfriend?"
"I don't have a girlfriend yet."
Yan Fengjiao said happily, "Really
what. Do you need me to introduce you to someone as beautiful as me? "Although she is 100% a stunner among women, it is rare that she is so narcissistic.
But I'm not in the mood to talk nonsense with her now, saying: "You answer my question first."
"It depends on what's going on. It's a relationship issue or a career issue. The way you cope is definitely different. If it's a relationship issue, naturally you have to go forward and swear not to give up if you don't chase the other person; if it's a career issue..."
I interrupted her with a wave of my hand and said, "It's not a relationship problem, nor a career problem, but... how to say, I just want to avoid some things, but these things can't be avoided, which makes people very entangled."
"That's it." Yan Fengjiao pondered for a while and said, "In my opinion, avoiding anything will only make it more complicated, and facing it directly will make it easier."
I thought about what she said, and then said, "Thank you. You can go ahead."
Yan Fengjiao asked with concern: "Brother Chen, are you really okay?"
"It's okay."
Yan Fengjiao walked out of the office with a face full of doubts. I lit a cigarette to refresh myself, and the more I thought about it, the more I felt that Yan Fengjiao's words made sense. Avoidance does not solve the problem. Just like when I drove a truck, I was cautious all day for fear of breaking a taboo, but what should come will still come, making it hard to guard against.
Even if it is not for Su Meng, but for the sake of a stable life for myself in the future, I should try to face and solve this matter as much as I can.
Is this looking for death? Yes. But my instinct tells me that even if I don’t look for death, death will take the initiative to find me. The only difference is that the latter can live a few more days.
Since I can't escape the catastrophe, then I might as well face it calmly.
He took out his mobile phone and called Pan Lulu, saying that he had come back from Fetus Qu and had something to talk to her face-to-face. Pan Lulu said that she happened to have something to tell me, and asked me where I was. She came over to find me.
Because talking to Pan Lulu is not official, I suggest finding a place to meet outside. Pan Lulu is a shrewd woman. She immediately heard the overtones from my words and didn't ask anything. She made an appointment with me directly at the Qinyuanchun Teahouse at 9:30 in the morning.
Qinyuanchun Teahouse is a place where people with a taste of life will come. Sitting in the teahouse makes me feel self-defeating
dirty.
I rushed to the teahouse at nine o'clock and ordered a pot of ordinary tea while drinking and waiting for Pan Lulu.
It is said that tea can refresh my mind, but the more I drink it, the more sleepy I get, and I keep yawning. After a careful calculation, in more than 20 hours, I only took a nap for two hours. In addition to yesterday's high mental stress, the boats and cars were tired, and it almost reached the limit of my body's capacity.
Pan Lulu was very punctual, almost stepping on the half past nine. She saw that I was not in good condition, and she asked me with concern what happened.
I said it was all right, but I didn't rest well. Pan Lulu immediately took the posture of a domineering female president, and said that I should take a rest first, and wait until I have a good spirit to talk to her. She also said that if she is in a bad state, her thinking will become dull. Pan Lulu is right, because my mind is really a bit unclear, and my head sinks like Da Xia Tian wearing a dog-skin hat, dizzy.
I was also afraid that I could not express it clearly, so I followed Pan Lulu's suggestion, and went to the hotel to open a guest room and fell asleep. When I woke up, it was already dark, and Pan Lulu sat and looked at the information.
I said apologetically, "Sister Pan, have you been guarding me in the room?"
Pan Lulu put the information in her handbag and said, "Yes. I was too busy with the company's affairs recently, so I just took this to hide. You are hungry, go and clean up. Let's go out to eat and talk while eating. ."
After washing in the bathroom, Pan Lulu and I left the hotel. Pan Lulu asked me what I wanted to eat, and I said, "Sister Pan, let's talk about it. I'll make a treat today. I'm embarrassed to always ask you to treat me."
Pan Lulu smiled and said, "What's the embarrassment? It's normal for my sister to invite my brother to eat."
"Let me ask you." I have to make a difference with her, otherwise, once things fall apart, I won't be able to get off the stage.
"Well, since you insist, then let you spend it once. Wherever you and Master Yang usually eat, you take me to wherever you go."
Pan Lulu usually eats more than a thousand yuan for a dish. How can Dayan and I get into her dharma vision? I said embarrassingly: "The place we go is not suitable for you."
"Afraid of me disgusting? It seems that you have never regarded me as a sister from the bottom of your heart." Seeing me to explain, Pan Lulu said domineering again: "Well, that's it, let's get in the car."
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