Just like most A-level upper positions,
My life is also full of twists and turns.
My father is a noble young master who ran away from home in pursuit of romance, and my mother is a lady from a noble family who followed caravans from other countries to Europe curiously,
They fell in love just like in the story, and formed a family regardless of obstacles.
After a lot of hardships, he settled down in a small village and had a daughter.
They love her very much.
It’s just that I occasionally think that if they had quarreled and separated at that time because they both chose each other and had to live a much harder life than before,
Wouldn't it be better for them.
It's just that they didn't. They all felt that as long as they had each other's company in this world, even such a poor life would be very happy.
Both are parents with too naive and beautiful ideas.
Such them, being directly submerged by the cruel tide of war, may be seen everywhere...
Even so, those are my parents who love me the most in the world,
The most carefree time of my life,
Although I didn't realize it until I lost it all.
'Wait here, mom and I will bring you bread in a minute...'
After a century, they did not come back.
The world is huge and indifferent,
Especially for a teenage girl with no parents.
If there is no "owner of the white bungalow house" to save herself, maybe before she asks the family to adopt her, burn the house and run away with the money she left,
I'm already dead.
The days of hiding in the ruins, the first period when I woke up and didn’t know where to go, I was tired and had no place to go back, I was left alone, panic, helplessness and confusion washed my heart all the time,
I have never felt so clearly how big and indifferent the world is,
It doesn't care whether a teenage girl is alive or dead.
Holding the illusory expectation that his parents would come back to find him, he knocked on every household in the village to beg for food, and was disgusted and expelled because of his appearance.
Every night I fall asleep in fear, hunger, loneliness, and helpless crying,
In the end, I lost all the strength to cry.
Will get hungrier, so can't cry...
Without clothes, you can only wrap the rags you picked up around your hands and feet; without shelter, you can only stuff straw into the gaps under the ruins; without food, you can only do some rough work for others from morning till night.
In exchange for poor food that will not starve to death, we must save as much as possible, because there is no guarantee that it will be exchanged tomorrow,
At that time, I was struggling every day just wanting to live.
And then even this level of 'security' is taken away,
An already malnourished and emaciated body? A shoulder and wrist injured by a passing officer, even after more than a month has not healed? Pain when you lift it up
But compared to the pain, even the last berries are eaten,
Crouching in the crumbling ruins knowing that you might die? Maybe you won't survive this winter
What made me bite my lip? I was afraid that I would never wake up again if I cried.
Those memories are only cold, dark, and lonely.
No home, no parents, no one to accompany me? No place to go back to
In a world with billions of people? Huge and vast
I am all alone and have nothing.
The long and cold waiting with no hope in sight constitutes an indelible painful childhood in my memory.
Even life after that,
Rescued by that person again? Awakened as a participant? Assist her to complete the great cause of stopping the wheels of the Great War again, stop the war she hates the most,
The decades of being a member of the Zero Knights of the Evernight Palace were peaceful and satisfying times.
So when she found out that the person had been deliberately deceiving him, and the relationship of completely trusting her as a relative was shaken and collapsed,
I'm so broken.
hate her
how come...
Just half a century after leaving there,
I found that I became a person again.
There is no home, no parents, no one to accompany me, and no place to go back to.
Until one day I made a stupid mistake that made people laugh...
...
It is different from all A-level top positions,
My dreams are full of beauty.
The indelible memories of suffering branded in the bottom of my heart have all turned into dreamy happiness like a story.
Such an unbelievable degree, how... can I describe it.
grilled fish, sweet fruit, sun and siesta,
The life that no longer has to struggle for survival is obviously the same scene in memory, but there is a huge difference,
Those who are at a loss, afraid, cold and uneasy, those who have survived the loneliness and helplessness,
Everything disappeared like a fake, leaving only peace of mind and warmth.
Just because of the appearance of one person.
so foul...
Angrily grabbing the officer's head and smashing it against the table because of his injury, the kind of peace of mind that makes people feel protected, the kind that makes people feel that there are still people in this world who care about themselves and care about themselves,
I still have the warmth of someone to rely on.
It was too foul for myself at that time.
Obviously just an idiot...
Take yourself away from that small village, and let everything that would have happened afterwards disappear,
Abandoning the hardships and misery of struggling at the bottom, he took himself to see a gorgeous world that he had never seen before, and gave himself a precious gift that he could not even imagine.
It's a dream time for a teenage girl struggling to survive.
Steam train, Milan manor, noble ball...
And my self-satisfied skirt on the projection, and the pair of cowhide ankle boots that cost 50 lire silver coins...
The scenes of photos that have been frozen through time,
The life memory after the modification is that I returned to Milan alone, with the huge assets of the manor and shop, and the weapons he gave to me,
Without the hardships and hardships of wandering, I really grew up happily and slowly.
Although it was like fate to reconnect with a life similar to the original one, but I no longer feel the same loneliness as the original life,
because I know
In this world of billions of people, someone will always be by my side in the future.
but you idiot,
You're like this... it makes me not want to leave your side...
...
The light golden hair is spread out on the slender shoulders, and the slender and flawless legs under the skirt,
After a shallow breath, the eyelashes flutter,
Ling slowly opened those light golden eyes from her sleep, and murmured instinctively:
"Fangran?"
"Well, have you finally woken up? It's time to get up, my lord queen."
The memory that didn’t happen but was so real, I don’t want to pursue it anymore, what is the reason for this incredible phenomenon,
Waking up in the carriage, Ling supported her body from the fluffy blanket, looking at the young man in front of her as if she was still awake,
Then reach out and hug him.
Mattresses, wallpapers, drinking fountains, energy-saving lamps... There is even a small generator, like a small room in a carriage compartment,
Ling is like a stray cat that has found a home, nestling in the arms of the young man.
Holding his waist, rubbing his scent, feeling the warmth from his body, no matter what, there is a kind of nostalgia that makes me unwilling to let go.
She has been sleeping in such a dream, and she has personally experienced those times in the photos.
I don't need to be a participant, I don't want to be a night angel, I don't want to live so long,
As long as it lasts like this.
If possible, I want this dream to have no end...