Yes, she said she didn't blame him, but deep down she blamed him, otherwise she wouldn't have gone to Northern Qi in anger, let alone agreed to marry Qi Yanyu.
Even seeing him at the wedding made her heart ached and happy.
"Mo Chuan, I have thought about a lot of things during this time. I told you that I don't care. No matter what happens, I will stay by your side and will not leave you. But I still didn't do it. I saw that you were going to After I got married, I was angry, I was jealous, I hated you and blamed you, but I suppressed all my emotions in my heart and didn’t tell you at all. Instead, I smiled at you and told you that I didn’t care and that I would wait for you. , but I overestimated myself because I simply couldn’t do it.”
She looked into his eyes and said in a very calm tone.
Mo Chuan was shocked. He held her hand and wanted to speak, but she stopped him.
"Listen to me first. In fact, the person I blame the most is not you, but myself. I obviously promised to be with you and work together with you, but when things came to pass, I still escaped and I left you alone. I was left there, leaving you to face the difficulties alone, but I not only did not stand by your side during your most difficult time, but I stayed far away from you. I even agreed to marry another man. , deeply hurt your heart.”
She had never confessed her true feelings to Mo Chuan like this time.
But these words have been pressing in her heart for a long time. She has been reflecting on herself. Although Mo Chuan was wrong, did she really do the right thing
Mo Chuan was deeply shocked by her words.
He held her hand and trembled slightly.
"Ning'er..."
Shen Ning put a finger to his lips and shook her head at him.
"I'll give you a chance to speak. Now listen to me."
"The person who is really at fault is not you, but me. I shouldn't have left you. I made a mistake from the day I left you. I said I believed you, but when I knew that the palace maid had your flesh and blood, But I chose to believe her. Because of my distrust, I turned my back on you and left you. I even blamed you for all the mistakes. I hated you and blamed you for others. It seems that you have failed me, but the real fact is that I have failed you in your deep love for me. Sometimes people make mistakes and there is still time to correct them, but sometimes they make mistakes and it is too late to correct them... "
At this point, her throat choked.
Tears rolled down her cheeks. She raised her hand to wipe away the tears on her cheeks and continued: "If I really marry Qi Yanyu, then I will really make a big mistake. Fortunately, it's not too late. I didn't do it again." Mistake after mistake. Mo Chuan, can you forgive me for the wrong things I have done?"
She looked up at him, tears glistening in her clear eyes.
Mo Chuan was shocked by her words.
He came to ask her for forgiveness, but he didn't know how to say it, but he didn't expect that before he opened his mouth, she took all the fault on herself.
Stretching out his arms, he took her into his arms and hugged her tightly.
"No, you are not wrong. It is me who is wrong. It was me who failed to protect you. It was me who made you hurt. It was me who made you distrust me..."
"Mo Chuan, stop talking. Are you making me feel ashamed?" Shen Ning lay in his arms, all the grievances and pain she had felt over the past few days came to her heart, and she burst into tears.
It's like I want to cry out all my sadness.