"It's not just my fate. Do you know that once I met an ascetic monk, he saw me and said that fate is different. If you force everything, you will only suffer bad results. I can't bear it... I hope I can keep it. Sincerely..."
"Just last year, I couldn't understand what he said, and I didn't want to tell you, but I always felt that somewhere, I felt that it must have something to do with you, maybe you know."
"It's just that I didn't dare to ask. After the vampire incident happened, I realized that this was the case. After a month of calmness, I found that I understood the meaning of keeping my heart and not being able to bear it."
"When I had doubts, I felt that you must know, but I was afraid of knowing the result, just like people have some awareness of their own danger."
"And this selfishness has changed my original heart. I think I also understand what the ascetic monk said. He is thinking about the future. My selfishness may become bigger in the future. I may not do anything. I don't want my future self to become completely unrecognizable, I can't even recognize myself, and finally become nothing, and everything I own will be lost because of me... "
"I think that feeling should be the main reason why I have changed."
"Since this is the case, I would rather let this end when it doesn't happen!"
"Because this is the only way, when everyone thinks of me, there is not only one regretful sentence, but also many, many words!"
Bai Kangning leaned against Hua Lin's feet, just like when he was a child, whenever he was happy or unhappy, he liked to hug his mother's thigh.
I share my happiness and unhappiness with my mother. .
And Hua Lin would happily touch Bai Kangning's head every time...
This kind of scene must have disappeared in the past month, but Bai Kangning didn't hold any resentment, just distressed and numb.
"But you can't let your aunt kill you, you are still so young..."
Hua Lin watched Bai Kangning hugging herself, then knelt down again, hugging Bai Kangning, she couldn't help but shed tears again, why did the world treat their mother and child like this.
Treat them so cruelly.
She didn't do anything bad in her life, and she was also the tempered and the best in the family, but she got cancer at the best age of her life. She thought she would definitely die, but luckily she survived...
Just when she thought she was happy, another accident occurred...
"Isn't it nice to be young? While I'm still sober, isn't it?"
"Does mom still know me now?"
"I don't want to become like this. I don't want to be a completely unrecognizable self, because it hurts the closest people like that. Then what's the point of me living for a few more years?"
"It doesn't make any sense!"
Bai Kangning lowered his head. When he said this, his voice was very soft and low, but with sincerity, his mother's behavior could be regarded as a wake-up call for him.
If he doesn't want to become unrecognizable, it's better to end it early, because people's desires are endless.
Bai Kangning understood Hua Lin's words, but he couldn't accept it. His own life was his own, and other people were worthless. He... still had a little conscience.
"What do you mean?"
"My son, do you look down on your mother? Because she thinks you are alive?"
Hua Lin was hugging Bai Kangning, but when she heard Bai Kangning's words, she let go of her hands, looked down at Bai Kangning, her eyes were red from crying.