"What else do you want me to say? Is what I say useful? It has been eighteen years since we were together, and it has been almost twenty years. How many times have I said it? Did you listen to me that time? You're used to it, aren't you?"
"Anyway, no matter what I say, you will still do what you have to do. When did you worry about my feelings? Actually, I don't care. We have come to this day, and I am really used to it. I am used to worrying about you, and I am used to not being able to sleep at night. Get used to worrying, get used to which time you open the door, and never see you again... "
"It's just, Fengxi, can you look at the child? He's so young, yet... just looking at the door, waiting for you. Although he can't speak, he has a very clear mind. He is not stupid at all. He knows what you are going to do. It is more clear that you have to go and can’t stop you, so I worry about you, and even pretend to sleep to prevent you from worrying. If I didn’t go to see if he has covered the quilt, I wouldn’t have noticed. I just sat on the bed, waiting for you..."
"Do you know how heavy my heart was when I saw Qin Xiaobao like that? I suddenly realized that I was a failure. I used to wait for you in fear, and it has become a habit. Now I want my son to follow me, Fengxi, When can you stop? In the past few years, because of Qin Xiaobao's body, you seldom care about outside affairs, but your heart has always been paying attention to the outside world, and you even wish to create a clone and send out the patron saints. Feng family, take care of this Jiangcheng, I know you have a heavy burden, and I also comfort myself, I know your affairs from the beginning, what I can do, a qualified husband, is to arrange your backing, etc. I want you to come back and let you have a warm place after being exhausted from running around outside. Over the years, I think that what I have done is not enough, and I shouldn’t complain at this time, it’s too hypocritical.”
"It's not the first day I know! But because I understand everything, I can't let it go. Do I want Qin Xiaobao to continue on my path? I'm worried, and I can still complain and say a few hypocritical words, but what about him... Now I can’t even post one.”
Qin Wanyu said in the end, leaning against the wall, squatting on the ground, with his hands on his face, making his expression invisible.
That kind of depression and collapse was Qin Wanyu's heart, and he couldn't say it all the time, so he could only talk like this, but Qin Wanyu also knew that it was meaningless for him to say these things now, but Qin Wanyu was really going crazy. It is true that Feng Xi seldom went out for a few years, but as Qin Xiaobao grew up, Feng Xi became busy again and began to take care of outside affairs again.
It used to be Hua Sheng, now it's Jiang Xinrui...
Qin Wanyu wanted to smash the wall very much. He knew very well that whether it was Hua Sheng or Jiang Xinrui, they didn't blame them, they just got together, but this didn't prevent Qin Wanyu from smashing the wall, the whole person was about to be tortured died.
In the past, Qin Wanyu would never easily say that he was going to die or live, but now Qin Wanyu only feels that life is difficult.
For a long time, Qin Wanyu thought that he was a very optimistic person, and he was also very optimistic to drive Feng Xi.
It's just that now Qin Wanyu really feels that it has never been more difficult. Will they follow Jiang Xinrui in the future, to her child...
Feng Xi is a good person, and he has never done anything wrong to anyone over the years...