"He ordered me to open the sack, and when I saw a woman's head exposed inside, I was paralyzed and sat on the ground. The woman was drugged, she was confused and her expression was like sleepwalking. He laughed and said that you are still scared. He learned the whole process of kidnapping this woman from my novel, including how to use ether,'Today you have to surpass yourself', he said.
"Vaguely aware of his intentions, I desperately shook my head and said hurry up and let him go. You can do anything to me, killing is absolutely impossible. He held my face and asked me. I vividly described killing in the novel. What is it like in the situation? Isn’t it about substituting myself into the inner world of the murderer? He said that the things I wrote recently are dull and tasteless. I need some'growth', and I need a strong and lasting mental stimulation to stare at him. I felt a deep terror in my eyes. It was the look in the eyes that had killed people.
"He said many, many things to me, and I was always reluctant to agree. He was extremely disappointed in me. He asked me to observe the whole killing process and record it in the first person. You will find these in another notebook. I don’t want to repeat the cruel experience again. Does the killing help me? No, not at all. I fell into a sequelae of self-blame, guilt, and fear, because when the woman was killed by him, her eyes were crying and begging. He looked like a cow that was slaughtered, and the murderer had his back to me. I could obviously take what I had to hit him and save this woman, but I didn’t. I didn’t dare to resist him anymore. I am guilty! I am guilty! I am guilty!"
The following long section is all about Xin Bai watching the murderer's murder experience. There were a total of six murders. It mentioned the fat man discovered by the police. His name was Xi Xiaohu, and he seemed to be Xin Bai's colleague.
The murderer's "teaching" to him was gradual. Xin Bai didn't dare to kill, so he let him beat him. First, he cleaned the bathroom, then let him dismember the body, and then let him hold the organ of the corpse to take pictures, Chen Shi I thought to myself that in time, Xin Bai would gradually lose himself under his control, and perhaps would kill strangers numbly and mercilessly!
This has nothing to do with his personal morality, the human heart is like this, he will constantly adapt to the environment and become accustomed to it.
"There is no mention of Lan Xiao here." Chen Shi said, "When I talked about the name Lan Xiao with Xin Bai, he reacted calmly. If he had seen or witnessed him being killed, he would definitely not be so peaceful."
"But Lan Xiao’s ID card is indeed in the hands of the murderer. When renting a house, he used this ID card. If Lan Xiao had been'missing' at that time, Xin Bai wouldn’t know... Did the murderer not give this gift? 'Give it to him, Lan Xiao is still alive, where is he imprisoned?"
"Lan Xiao is Xin Bai's childhood nightmare. I think the murderer must hope that Xin Bai will kill him personally... By the way, that novel has entered the main line. The identity of the villain Lan Xiao has been exposed, and the betrayal of the relatives is not far away."
"Old Chen, look at this text."
Lin Dongxue pointed out a piece of text—
"He told me that he did all this to make me the best. He saw himself in me, but he was not well-educated, his head was stupid, and he couldn't write these amazing stories. He wanted me to be the best. Writer, let my name last forever. A good writer must have extraordinary experiences. He said that one day he might be arrested by the police and shot to death, but these experiences will be carved in my bones. , There is an important role in this novel, that is, he, in this way, is like eternal life, accomplishing me is equal to accomplishing himself! Talking and talking, he shed tears, I also shed tears, my tears are fake, My heart has long been numb, I just hope that all this can end early, hope this demon will die!
"He mysteriously revealed to me that when the plot of the novel enters the final chapter, I have a gift to give me, but when I receive this gift, I must be prepared... The so-called preparation means that I was at that time Already have the guts to kill!
"I hope I can hold the last bit of self, and no longer lose, so that those who discover this passage in the future, perhaps I who will be arrested in the future, will close myself in front of you, and behave numbly and indifferently. I know that I will eventually become that one. Looks like, but please don't abandon me. I have seen hell. Please have mercy on this weak and helpless soul and give it a little warmth!
"PS: For my'health', he forbids me to eat fried chicken. I really want to eat fried chicken. God fried chicken is crispy and crispy. It is covered with cumin and chili noodles. If you bite it down, the juice under the crispy skin will be enough. It will overflow... If you read this and are willing to help me, please buy me a God’s fried chicken, remember to add French fries and cola, my heart may have been lost, please wake me up in other ways, remember, God's fried chicken in Chang'an Alley!"
The text ends here. Although the last paragraph is a bit weird, neither Lin Dongxue nor Chen Shi laughed. They heard the call of a lost soul. Lin Dongxue said: "Is the fried chicken shop in Chang'an Lane still open? "
"It's not very clear, I don't usually like to eat this, or go early tomorrow morning!"
"Miss Gu should be here?"
The two walked outside. A takeaway guy parked his motorcycle there. A policeman said, "Hey, don't park the car at the door."
The takeaway boy only agreed and pushed the car away. He glanced at Chen Shi inadvertently. This man looked honest, but Chen Shi caught some abnormality in his eyes.
"Miss Gu is here." Lin Dongxue poked him.
Gu You's car appeared, Lin Dongxue greeted him, Tao Yueyue got out of the car first, and then Gu You went to the parking lot to park.
Gu You changed her clothes. Although she was slender and tall, she was wearing loose, unobtrusive clothes. The psychologist seemed to have regulations in this regard, not to dress too sexy.
Gu You came over and asked, "What's the situation?"
Chen Shi replied: "Well, PTSD and learned helplessness."
Gu Youle said, "I asked you what the symptoms of that person were, and you told me what disease he had? The doctor asked you where it hurts, did you just talk about duodenal ulcers?"
"Okay, okay, let me rephrase it, it's probably symptoms of PTSD and learned helplessness."
"Oh, got it."
"What is PTSD?" Lin Dongxue asked.
Tao Yueyue, who held her hand, said: "Sister Lin, don't you know that, it's post-creative stress disorder syndrome."
"My sister reads as many books as you!" Lin Dongxue smiled, "Yueyue is really knowledgeable."
"Don't look at whose child it is..." Chen Shi said proudly, and suddenly noticed that the takeaway boy just walked away, and a trace of doubt passed through his mind.