Nan Yan looked at him, and said in a desolate voice: "There are many, many things that my concubine has not figured out. It's like—"
Zhu Feng said: "What?"
Nan Yan said softly: "For example, why did she hurt the emperor? Why did the emperor hate her? If the emperor really hated her, why didn't he kill her? But he wanted to keep him, so that their mother and son could not recognize each other all these years? "
Zhu Feng said: "This is all the questions you want to ask me?"
Nan Yan looked at him quietly.
The two of them looked at each other like this for an unknown amount of time, and in the quiet Chen Qian Palace, her almost ethereal voice sounded: "Actually, concubine, what I want to ask most is—does the emperor still love her? If the emperor still loves her, then Where's the concubine?"
Zhu Feng slowly stood up from the bed and walked towards him step by step.
He didn't answer her words, but looked down at her almost red eyes.
Not only did she stay up all night for several days and nights, she was covered with red blood, but she also looked like tears were about to well up, and she was slightly reddened by the heat.
Zhu Feng raised his hand and stroked her cheek.
Then he said: "You ask these words, do you think that what I have told you in the past are all lies to you?"
"The emperor will not lie."
Nan Yan said softly: "Your Majesty only knows how to tell the truth."
"..."
Zhu Feng frowned again.
Nan Yan looked into his eyes and said seriously: "It's like the relationship between Concubine Ning and King Wei, just like the past between you and Concubine Ning. These things have always been in my heart, like a stick Stab, a knife, stuck in my heart."
"Nanyan..."
"Your Majesty, if you don't pull out this thorn, this knife, I don't know when, I will really be in unbearable pain, and I will really die."
"..."
"Your Majesty, Your Majesty once said that I may be jealous, but in fact, from the beginning to the end, I am not jealous of anyone, I just—"
"Just what?"
"I just, want a truth."
As she spoke, her tears also flickered.
Seeing her like this, Zhu Feng was silent for a long time, finally heaved a long sigh and said, "Okay."
He looked back at King Wei who was unconscious due to his high fever on the bed, and asked someone to come in to take care of him, and then walked out of the room with Nan Yan.
Outside Chengqian Palace, it still seemed very deserted.
Even if Zhu Chengxuan came back, it hadn't had time to become lively, only the rising sun lightly sprinkled on the corner of the wall.
As Zhu Feng walked forward, he said, "You know, at the beginning, I was a prince who was not liked by Emperor Gao."
"I know."
"But in fact, I am not only not liked by Emperor Gao, but also by my brothers."
"..."
Nan Yan was stunned for a moment.
Thinking back to Prince Ning and Prince Jing's attitude towards him, it was really unimaginable that they didn't like Zhu Feng either.
However, when I think about it, what I saw of him was that he had already accomplished many battles and became King Yan, the god of war in the north, and even became the emperor of Yan Kingdom after ascending the throne, but I really didn't know his past.
"Since I was sensible, when everyone was playing together, they almost never took me with them. Even if I went, there was a feeling of not being accepted, as if I was an outsider."
"..."
"For so many years, I have always come here like that."
Nan Yan looked up at his back.
Zhu Feng is very tall and has broad shoulders. Every time he walks behind him and looks up at him, he feels like looking up at the mountains.
But today, when I saw his back, I realized his loneliness.
He has always been someone else's reliance.
Few people know that he sometimes needs to rely on others, but he can't tell.
Nan Yan said softly: "Why don't they like you?"
"..."
Zhu Feng let out a heavy breath, as if he was holding back something, and didn't speak.
Nan Yan said: "Why don't you like you, there must be a reason, right or wrong, you can't - alienate the emperor for no reason, don't like you."
Zhu Feng didn't answer.
He just remained silent, took another two steps forward, and said, "But when Qin Ruolan appeared in front of me, it was different."
"...!"
Nan Yan's heart suddenly sank.
Finally, it came to Qin Ruolan.
It also talked about her "differentness" and her "specialness".
Nan Yan's voice trembled slightly: "What's the matter, it's different?"
"She is the daughter of the prince's young master and the niece of Concubine Qin Gui. Although Concubine Qin Gui had already passed away at that time, because of this relationship, she often went in and out of the palace and played with us brothers."
"..."
"She didn't alienate me."
"..."
"From the day we met, she has always been very gentle to me. At that time, I was only seventeen or eighteen years old, and I... was very obsessed with her gentleness."
Nan Yan didn't speak, but clenched her fists tightly.
The nails were about to pierce the skin and plunge into the palm.
The slight tingling made her suppress herself hard, and after a long time, she said softly, "Really?"
Zhu Feng continued: "Later, everyone gradually grew up, and began to have a relationship between men and women."
He stopped suddenly and turned his head to face Nanyan.
He said to her with a serious and defenseless look: "At that time, I really fell in love with her."
"..."
"I, really like her."
"..."
Nan Yan was speechless.
Her palms hurt, her heart hurt, but she had nothing to say.
It should be said that under such circumstances, it was hard not to like Qin Ruolan, such a beautiful girl, who was with her every day, and was the only one who was gentle with her in the cold imperial city.
Just imagine, even if it was me, if someone like him appeared when he was wronged in the Si family, then I would fall in love with him.
Just, think so.
When he spoke, his voice was choked with sobs, and there was a trace of tremor: "I understand."
Zhu Feng looked at her deeply.
Nan Yan took a deep breath, but turned her head to avoid his gaze, and said, "Then, what happened next?"
"..."
"Why did she say again that she was sorry for the emperor, she hurt the emperor."
At this time, Zhu Feng's gaze trembled slightly.
As if some old wound had been torn apart abruptly, he turned around slowly, continued to walk forward, and then said: "Do you still remember what I told you about Ye Quan? ?”
"certainly."
Ye Quan is Ye Zheng's older brother.
Originally, it was the person who was sent by the Crown Prince to Yanwang Mansion in Beiping to monitor him, but because Zhu Feng saved Ye Zheng, he also regarded Zhu Feng as his benefactor and did not disclose any news about him to Jinling.
And then, he died.
Zhu Feng said: "Before he died, he told me that he was not the one who leaked the news to Jinling, so I knew that there was an eyeliner by my side."