At this moment, another light flashed beside it.
Nan Yan turned her head slowly, only to see Qin Ruolan holding a candlestick, standing silently in the cold wind.
She also looked forward, the direction where Zhu Feng disappeared.
The candle in the wind flickered a little light, reflecting in her bright eyes, but at this moment, there was an indescribable sadness, as if it would be extinguished in the wind the next moment.
After a while, she slowly turned her head and looked at Nanyan.
The two of them met their eyes and fell silent.
After an unknown amount of time, the two people who had been blown cold by the cold wind walked into Nanyan's room.
Qin Ruolan walked in by herself.
As for Nan Yan, she did not refuse at all. There seemed to be a tacit understanding between the two of them. When she came in, Nan Yan closed the door and lit the candlestick on the table.
The light from the two candlesticks made the room a little brighter.
But still, it couldn't illuminate the gloom in Qin Ruolan's eyes.
She sat at the table, looking at the flaming flames, her mind seemed to have fallen into a daze.
Until Nan Yan walked to the table and sat down too.
She raised her head to look at Nanyan, and said, "He came to look for you?"
"Um."
"..."
Qin Ruolan was silent for a while, as if she didn't want to believe it, or, unwillingly, she asked again: "Why did he come to you?"
"..."
Nan Yan looked at her for a while, then said calmly: "I don't know what he is going to do, nor what purpose he has."
"..."
"All I know is that he entered the cold palace and broke into my room."
Of course, it almost killed her.
It wasn't until this time that Nan Yan finally understood that what Ye Zheng said to her back then, "It's easy to kill people in my dreams", turned out to be not entirely a joke.
She could feel that she was almost suffocating at that moment.
Even now, the bones in her whole body still seem to be spliced together after falling apart, and there are severe pains in many places.
At that moment, she probably already had one leg into hell.
Zhu Feng, really almost killed her.
But why
Why did he suddenly enter the cold palace inexplicably, find himself inexplicably, and even kill himself.
Does he know what he is doing
And what does He Yi mean by "Life and Death Pass"
Thinking of this, she raised her head, looked at the pale Qin Ruolan under the candlelight, and said, "You once told me that he was different back then than he is now."
"..."
"Then what was he like back then?"
"..."
Qin Ruolan quietly looked at the candlestick on the table, the blazing fire shone in her eyes, but there was a deep darkness inside, as if even the light could not penetrate it.
After an unknown amount of time, she said softly in a somewhat hoarse voice: "Back then, he was a very insecure person."
"What?"
Nan Yan couldn't believe her first words.
How is it possible for someone who has no sense of security
People like Zhu Feng are brave and resolute, and will go forward bravely in the face of any difficulties. He is the backbone of everyone and the person who gives everyone a sense of security.
Why is he so insecure
"You don't believe it, do you?"
Qin Ruolan turned to look at her, and said calmly: "But the fact is like this. He is an insecure person, like a solitary boat drifting in the vast ocean. The solitary boat hopes to find any place to dock, but is afraid of that place There will be another wave, and you will be caught in the torrent.”
"..."
"That's what he is."
"..."
"He can't trust anyone, but in his heart, he hopes that there is someone who can make him believe and rely on him."
Nan Yan frowned: "How could this happen?"
Qin Ruolan said word by word: "Because, he is a person who has no past."
"What?"
Nan Yan's eyes widened all of a sudden: "There is no past, you mean—"
"Before he was ten years old, he had no memory."
"..."
"He couldn't remember his childhood clearly and didn't know what happened, but when I saw him, he was a person without a past."
Nanyan gasped.
Zhu Feng doesn't remember what happened before he was ten years old
So, in his memory, it was a blank.
However, the "place" of a person, the positioning of a person, or the shaping of a person's character, was originally self-confirmed and defined during that period of time, but the memory of that period was blank for him.
"..."
Nan Yan felt that the howling wind suddenly broke into this room, and also broke into her own mind, disrupting all previous thoughts.
She never knew that Zhu Feng, who was as tall as the mountain in front of her, made people rely on, and gave people a sense of security, had lost her memory.
He doesn't remember his childhood.
Then, what was it like for him to live in the palace of Emperor Gao
so he-
"So he," Qin Ruolan said here, paused, "very lonely."
"..."
"It took him a long time to learn to get along with people."
"..."
"But in the palace—I think you also understand that at any time, the palace is not a place where people can communicate with each other and show their sincerity."
"..."
"He suffered a lot of injuries... Later, he met me."
Nanyan's throat stuck.
Of course she knew what happened after meeting Qin Ruolan.
In Zhu Feng's life, she brought the deepest scars in his heart.
Thinking of this, her heart ached even more.
She thought that Zhu Feng once said that it would be great if she met her at that time, but she just laughed lightly and said that she was still young at that time, so she brought this topic to the fore.
Only now did she really understand the meaning of his words.
If he appeared at that time, wouldn't he have to suffer those injuries, and wouldn't have to endure those pains, then wouldn't he later have that kind of bloodthirsty, bloodthirsty and brutal temperament
Nan Yan's breathing became constricted.
She stretched out her hand and tugged at the skirt of her chest.
After a long time, she raised her head to look at the pale Qin Ruolan. Her eyes were full of guilt, which seemed to overflow from her eye sockets.
It's just that now, Nan Yan doesn't have the heart to pay attention to her "guilty".
She asked, "Then, why did he lose that memory?"
"No one knows the specific reason."
"..."
"Emperor Gao doesn't let anyone know."
"..."
"But, I heard that it was Emperor Gao who made the attack."
"What?"
Nan Yan was startled again, and looked at her in astonishment.
Qin Ruolan also looked at her, and said solemnly: "I heard that it was Emperor Gao's order that made him lose his previous memory."