But it has been six years. In the past six years, Ai Jiujiu has been moved by Beichen Yun countless times. She has also thought more than once that it would be good to live with Beichen Yun like this. Maybe one day in the future, she will be completely different. I completely erased the word "Su Yan" from my heart.
Ai Jiujiu knew that such an idea was actually unfair to Bei Chenyun, but she really owed him too much. This debt, as well as Bei Chenyun's deep love, became the shackles that tightly bound Ai Jiujiu.
She had tried hard to fall in love with the man who only had eyes for her, but some things could not be achieved without hard work. Even though Ai Jiujiu didn't want to admit it, she had to admit that she had worked hard for six years, and she had worked hard for Beichen. Yun was moved and felt sorry for Beichen Yun.
She had thousands of "thank yous" and thousands of "sorry"s to him, but not one "I love you".
Ai Jiujiu wants to be with Beichen Yun because he wants to, not because he wants to.
Asking herself, Ai Jiujiu knew better than anyone else that she didn't want to be with Beichen Yun because his affection was too deep for her to bear. Of course, she didn't want to be with Su Yan either.
Looking at the man in front of her, she has already given up on him. Giving up means that she does not want to be with him, does not want to be by his side, and does not want to spend the rest of her life with him, but this does not mean that she will not Love him again.
Sometimes, Ai Jiujiu feels that she is masochistic. The person she loves deeply does not love her, or in other words, does not love her enough, but she does not love the person who loves her enough.
While thinking wildly, Ai Jiujiu realized that the people around him no longer knew where they were going. After looking around for a long time, he saw Su Yan walking to the door of a small store. There was a distance away. Ai Jiujiu didn't know what Su Yan was buying. , and when he turned back, Ai Jiujiu saw the red firecracker in Su Yan's hand.
Seeing Su Yan approaching step by step, he handed it to her with a smile on his face: "Here you go."
"You want me to let go?"
"Um."
Ai Jiujiu looked at the firecrackers in Su Yan's hand, then at him, and shook his head: "I won't touch this anymore."
Probably because the previous thoughts in her heart had not dissipated, Ai Jiujiu's mood was a bit complicated at this time. She wanted to say, "I won't touch this anymore, and I don't want to touch you anymore."
Fortunately, he finally endured it and turned around and walked towards home, leaving Su Yan standing there alone with a big "confused" on his face. He had no idea why the person who was fine just now suddenly became like this. .
When they got home, Ai's mother was already cooking vegetables. Seeing them coming back, Ai's father hurriedly said: "Quick, wash your hands, get ready to eat."
Ai Jiujiu washed her hands and came out to help set the table. Although there were only four people, the New Year's Eve dinner couldn't be careless. Ai's mother prepared a full table, including chicken, duck, and fish.
Su Yan brought sparkling wine, saying it was wine, but in fact there was no alcohol at all, so Dad Ai would have no problem drinking it.
"Come on, happy New Year!"
"Happy New Year!"
The glasses were clinked lightly, the sound of firecrackers continued outside, and looking at the smiles on his parents' faces, Ai Jiujiu's mood improved.
After toasting, Su Yan took out two red envelopes from somewhere and handed them to Dad and Mom Ai respectfully: "Dad, Mom, Happy New Year. This is my and 99's thoughts. I wish you happiness and health. Live a hundred years.”