Song Zhixing had never truly felt "love", so she didn't know if she loved Tang Yu. But when she thought he was going to marry her aunt, she was so sad, so painful, angry, and jealous. She knew that it must be because she didn't want to lose him. Was it because of dependence, or because of family affection, or because of... love
"If you don't say anything, then you don't really like me." Li Hanyan asked with a smile: "Then tell me what kind of boys you like."
how is it like
The face that flashed through Song Zhixing's mind was Tang Yu's. Mature, calm, and rational. She didn't know when she changed her opinion of him. Before, she thought he was boring, overbearing, and rude.
"Xingxing?" Not hearing any answer, Li Hanyan called her.
Song Zhixing suddenly came back to her senses and forced Tang Yu's face out of her mind. She pursed her lips and said, "Anything is fine... taller, thinner, younger..."
She answered somewhat perfunctorily.
"You add a little bit to this, but it's more than a little bit. It seems that our Xingxing has good taste. Xingxing, how about I introduce you to a friend and let you get to know her?"
Song Zhixing looked at her with some suspicion and confusion.
"Didn't you match me with your second uncle? To repay you, I'll introduce you to a good friend. Of course, I'm not asking you to have a romantic relationship. Your most important task right now is to study hard. However, that kid is a good stock and completely meets your requirements. So, you get to know him first, and after you finish your studies, it's also a good choice to develop a relationship with him."
Song Zhixing somewhat understood what her aunt meant, and she subconsciously refused, "Aunt..."
"It's settled, having more friends is good." Li Hanyan didn't give her room to refuse. She looked at her and asked, "Are you moving back to your second uncle's place tomorrow?"
When she mentioned his second uncle, Song Zhixing's heart skipped a beat. He calmed down his uneasy mind and nodded, "Yeah."
Li Hanyan reached out and hugged her, "Xingxing, I can't bear to leave you. When you are free in the future, you must come to see me more often, understand?"
Song Zhixing buried his face in Li Hanyan's neck. Thinking of all the care his aunt had given him during this period, his eyes became tight and uncomfortable.
After Li Hanyan left, she lay on the bed, her tears soaking the pillowcase. She was probably the type who would repay kindness with enmity and not know what was good for her. It turns out that it was so painful to betray family affection!
But if she really cut off her relationship with her second uncle, could she do it? If she could, she wouldn't be so painful today.
So, now she is like walking alone on a cliff. There is an abyss in front of her and a cliff behind her. If she takes a step forward or backward, she will be doomed. So, she is entangled and evasive. The only way to be safe is to stand still, not face it, and not make a choice.
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The next day, Song Zhixing arrived at school, and the first thing she did was to be called to the office by her class teacher to change her choice of major. Chen Cheng took out a letter from the drawer and handed it to her.
"What? Why are you writing to me for no reason?" Song Zhixing was a little confused.
"It wasn't me who wrote this to you, it was Xi Nan." Chen Cheng sighed and said in a depressed tone, "Xi Nan knew that you were leaving after the exam, so he asked me to give this letter to you. If he knew that you were not leaving now, he would be so happy."
"What did you write?" Song Zhixing asked.
"It says you wrote it yourself, so I didn't dare to open it." Chen Cheng leaned his head closer, "But I'm actually dying of curiosity."
Song Zhixing didn't think much and directly unfolded the letter. After reading two lines, he was slightly stunned. Chen Cheng seemed to have expected it, but he couldn't hide his excitement, "Xingxing, I knew he liked you. It turned out that I was right."
"Shh!" Song Zhixing made a gesture.
Chen Cheng immediately lowered his voice and jokingly said, "You're fine now. The love letter you sent out finally got a response."
"Nervous." Song Zhixing put the 'love letter' directly into the notebook and threw it into his schoolbag. Then he took out his book and studied seriously.
"Hey, you're not replying?" Chen Cheng bumped into her arm.
"I'll go find him after the exam and talk to him face to face then." Song Zhixing felt that it was she who wrote the letter first and caused Xi Nan to misunderstand, so it was necessary for her to explain the matter thoroughly to avoid misunderstandings.
"So heroic." Chen Cheng praised: "Xingxing, will you agree to him?"
Song Zhixing shook his head without even thinking, "No."
"Why? Actually, I think Xi Nan is pretty good. Not only is he handsome, he's also a top student. Moreover, his family conditions are also very..."
Song Zhixing's mind instinctively flashed through Tang Yu's face. Thinking of his furious look, she shook her head and said, "Anyway, I don't want to fall in love."
Chen Cheng looked at her for a long time, "Xingxing, do you not want to fall in love, or do you just not want to fall in love with Xi Nan?"
"Um?"
Chen Cheng looked around and saw that no one was looking at her. She lowered her voice and asked inquiringly, "Are you and your second uncle... together?"
Song Zhixing stared at Chen Cheng in astonishment, "You... why are you asking this suddenly?"
"What's so strange about that?" Chen Cheng pouted. "If it were me, I would also like a perfect man like your second uncle."
"Perfect?" Song Zhixing asked casually. How could it be perfect? He was obviously fierce, had a bad temper, and was very controlling. However, when he heard Chen Cheng say this, he felt a little proud in his heart. It was as if he was praising himself.
"Then you acquiesced! In fact, I noticed it last time at the farmhouse..." Chen Cheng looked at Song Zhixing and continued, "Your second uncle was angry, and you didn't sleep all night, you were so flustered. I could tell something was wrong with you. Plus, you suddenly said you didn't want to leave Youcheng today, so I guessed it. You like your second uncle, right?"
"No way." In order to appear convincing, Song Zhixing straightened her chin, but her blushing face betrayed her.
"Stop pretending in front of me. But, didn't you also say that your second uncle and your aunt..." Chen Cheng said this, glanced at her, and didn't continue speaking.
Song Zhixing's face darkened. After a while, he spoke in a gloomy and depressed tone: "Chengcheng, if...if one day I really get together with my second uncle, I mean... fall in love. Do you think you can accept it?"
The word "incest" from her aunt was still irritating her nerves.
"As long as you think clearly and know what you will face in the future, I will certainly support you." Chen Cheng said solemnly. Then, he couldn't help but ask: "But, are you really sure that you want to date your second uncle?"