Harry Potter’s Book of Sin

Chapter 1916: I'm not human

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It is actually a very pleasant thing to be able to sit down and drink tea and chat for a while after a good meal. Especially in today's situation, it can be called a "luxury".

However, it must be said that the more severe this period is, when no one knows what tomorrow will bring, the easier it is for people to be honest with each other unconsciously in a rare and leisurely atmosphere.

Now, after Luna persuaded Sarah who wanted to leave her seat after the meal, she just paused for a while and then began to talk about some of the little things she had experienced when she was a student at Hogwarts.

The past events she mentioned may not necessarily have all the ups and downs, and may even sound a bit bland to others.

It's just that among the people sitting around at this moment, either they have also experienced it, or, like the Geofine sisters, they simply have not seriously attended a magic school at all. As she has been facing too much heaviness and depression recently, the ordinary topics Luna talked about have become more and more attractive.

"...Oh! Sarah, I remember that Professor Snape also made a Boggart in the first-grade class, and he worked on it once a week for almost a semester. In fact, we also had it in the third grade. I once took a similar class... Guess what that Boggart turned into when it saw me?"

"What?" Sarah asked absently.

"It's mistletoe!" Luna opened her arms, drew a large circle in front of her, and gestured, "Such a big pile of mistletoe! It didn't tell me, but I know that there must be many, many flies in it. hook!"

"… What?"

Sarah couldn't help being slightly stunned after hearing this, and then repeated inexplicably.

"Owl hook!" Luna bent her fingers, "A black parasite with three eyes and thousands of teeth!"

Just as she said this, she suddenly shrugged again and said:

"Okay! Actually, I haven't really seen it. My dad told me this... Oh, by the way! Sarah, I actually want to ask, what became of your Boggart?"

Seeing Luna go back and ask about the Boggart, Sarah couldn't help but be slightly reminded of some memories.

I remember that when she enrolled in Hogwarts, it was almost entirely to get close to Maka. Therefore, although she did study hard in order not to reveal her true identity at that time, because she only needed to study most of the first-year content on her own, she did not pay too much attention to the time in class.

However, even so, she still vividly remembered the first Boggart lesson given by Snape.

After recalling it for a while, Sarah didn’t want to fool her and said directly:

“What it becomes is me—another me.”

"Another you?" Luna asked with interest, "Why is that? The thing you fear most is yourself?"

"Yes, I'm afraid of myself," Sarah said frankly, "because you think, if a 'monster' that shouldn't appear in this world suddenly appeared in front of you, wouldn't you be afraid? "

At this point, she shook her head slightly.

"It's a pity that the Boggart didn't know at the time that what it saw was actually not my fear - it was just that I kept telling myself that I should be 'fearful' of myself. Even at that time, I It’s not even clear what fear is.”

"What do you mean?" Hannah, who was sitting opposite, couldn't help but asked in confusion as she listened.

"In other words, I proved that Boggarts can actually be deceived," Sarah smiled, "If I deceive someone into believing something, then Boggarts will also be fooled... But In fact, it wasn’t that long ago that I really understood what emotions like laughter, sadness, and fear felt like.”

Finally, she picked up the tea that Luna poured for her, took a sip and said:

"Actually, I'm not a 'human being'."

Sarah can be a "person" who is very good at pretending.

Since she gradually integrated into human society, except for the head of the Hohenheim family and a few people, most other people only regarded her as a little girl.

In order to hide her true identity in front of others, she even forced herself to remember the reasonable expressions and actions she should show in all situations without even understanding human emotions.

However, Sarah can actually be a very honest "person".

Especially now, when she finally made up for her soul-level defects to a large extent with the help of Maka and truly had emotions, she rarely used those skills that she had spent a lot of effort to learn. camouflage skills.

After all, for her, true emotions are hard-won "treasures". Now that she finally has them, why should she hide them again

After saying "I'm not a human being", Sarah seemed to be interested in chatting, and suddenly began to talk about her long past with everyone present.

When she mentioned Phillips, she looked sad; when she talked about the interesting stories about generations of descendants of the Hohenheim family, she couldn't help but chuckle; and when she finally talked about Maca's help to her, she couldn't help but smile. He showed an expression of gratitude and joy without concealing it.

It is actually a pleasure to have a frank conversation with others—at least as Sarah talked, she felt more and more relaxed.

However, Sarah's story is obviously not that happy...it can even be said to be very sad and painful. As everyone listened, their hearts could not help but be touched by the emotions she revealed one after another, and everyone fell silent secretly.

After a while, when Sarah's narration and emotion finally came to an end, Ursula on the side finally couldn't help but said:

"I used to think that my life was scary enough, but... Miss Hohenheim, it's really hard for me to imagine what it would be like to live without emotion for hundreds of years."

"Well," Sarah shook her head, "Actually, there is no special feeling - it's like although people who are born blind often envy people with normal vision, they don't understand the state of their eyes really being able to see things, so … You know, they’re not going to have a tangible goal to envy.”

As she was speaking, she suddenly looked at Ursula again, and then said:

"Therefore, now I feel that a situation like yours, Miss Geofine, might make people feel more frightened and sad—"

"Because I once had it, I understand the horror of 'losing' more." Luna said softly, thoughtfully.