Sarah wanted to be a human being, but the more she thought about it, the more she realized that she would probably never be a "human being."
Some things may have been doomed from the beginning.
Even if her soul is finally completely completed in the future and becomes no different from ordinary people. Then, as time continued to pass, everyone who knew her identity and origins died - yes, she did have this ability, but after all, she could not deceive herself, let alone the world.
Her existence is like the natural rules of this world. No matter how much it changes, what actually changes is just everyone's perception. Apart from all subjective factors, the rules themselves are naturally eternal.
Therefore, she, Sarah Hohenheim, is the biggest failure and miracle in the history of alchemy. She is the only life born of rules.
That's right, even when she was "born", as a defective product, she was actually a living being. However, although she is a life, she is still not a "person".
This sense of alienation bounded by rules is probably the real reason why Sarah has always had difficulty integrating herself into the crowd.
"... Miss Lovegood, you know, I have never been very understanding of people's emotions. So, I hope you don't mind if I am wrong... I feel like you are hesitating?"
Sarah lowered her head, fiddled with the doll parts in her hands, and spoke casually. But even if her voice was very soft and the movement outside was extremely noisy, Luna could still hear it clearly in the attic.
After all, the two of them were almost sitting side by side at this moment.
"Um."
Hearing Sarah's words in her ears, Luna paused, but did not deny her guess. In a tone that she didn't know whether to affirm or deny, she responded slightly, and then said leisurely:
"I didn't really hesitate before, and I don't like hesitation either - a person's life is actually very short. If you have to hesitate about anything, if you delay a few more times, this life will be over!"
Luna probably recalled her mother, and suddenly felt a little sorry for the other person. In order not to have any regrets in her life, for herself and her father, she always hoped that she could live a happier life.
But after a slight pause, she seemed to think of something else, and suddenly pursed her lips.
"But... then I met Hermione," she said. "Hermione is a very smart person. If she gets serious, she might be smarter than Maka! However, she always hesitates when doing things. , think over and over again, and sometimes even deny myself... I didn't understand it before, but now I know that sometimes, hesitation is not a bad thing."
Having said this, she turned her head, put her hand on Sarah's shoulder, smiled softly and said:
"You should know, Hermione likes Maka."
"Yes!" Sarah nodded, "Everyone who stayed at Hogwarts at that time probably knew about this."
"Well," Luna smiled again, then blinked, "so I hesitated... Well, maybe... because I didn't quite know what I was thinking at that time. It wasn't until later that I finally understood , and then I became hesitant.”
It seemed that she was recalling her days at Hogwarts. Although the smile on Luna's face was always so faint, it never faded.
She continued to mutter:
"Then we made it difficult for Maka... Well, human emotions are too complicated. I can't understand them. Maybe Maka doesn't understand them very well either. Everyone is confused."
"That's what I should say." Sarah joked casually, but Luna nodded seriously.
"Yes! That's true." She looked at Sarah again, a little curious, but she just took a glance and continued, "But I don't understand either... Maybe it's because of this that I learned the rune of empathy rules. Yeah! I just want to know more about what other people think, maybe it can be used as a reference - Oh, it seems like we shouldn’t talk about this now, we just... Yes, 'hesitate', we were talking about hesitation."
As if realizing that the conversation had strayed from the subject, Luna abruptly brought the topic back. However, her speaking style has always been like this. If she didn't go out of her way, it wouldn't be like her. But when she changed the topic, it seemed very natural to her.
"Sarah, you just said that I was hesitant... You are right! In the past, I always felt that I should not disturb Maka when he was doing things - it would be difficult for me to help him, so at least You can't drag him down, right? When he works hard and rushes forward, there must be someone who stays behind to guard a quiet place for him. When he gets tired, there will be a place where he can lie down and rest at any time...
However, now looking at Hermione chasing Maka's back in front, she is still unwilling to stop even if she can't see her anymore. I just felt... maybe what I have always thought may not be right.
Sarah, so...what do you think will happen 'in the future' if this continues? "
Luna's last words sounded melancholy to Sarah's ears - this kind of emotion was absolutely rare in Luna, and even Sarah knew this.
But Sarah also knew that when Luna asked this question, she didn't actually want an answer from her, but more of just asking herself.
So, Sarah didn't say anything, she just turned around and reached out to gently stroke Luna's long pale golden hair.
This scene actually looks very weird. Judging from the appearance of injuries, Sarah is actually younger than Luna. But her movements were extremely natural, as if she were a mother comforting her daughter, without any abrupt feeling.
Luna also seemed to accept Sarah's actions and didn't feel any rejection.
After a moment of silence, Sarah turned her head and glanced at the unclosed trap door at the top, and at the cloudy sky outside.
The wind picked up, whistling on the roof, causing Sarah to raise her eyebrows subconsciously.
At this time, Luna probably also felt some changes outside, and hesitantly raised his head and looked at it and said:
"Is it going to rain...?"
Sarah nodded, frowning slightly.
"Well, that's what it looks like."