She remembered that four years ago when she was in school, a male classmate had a crush on her. When she wasn't paying attention, he hugged her forcefully. She hit him on the head with a vase, causing him to leave a lot of She was also sent in and forcibly detained for two days. After learning that she was pregnant, she was released.
Later, the boy stayed away from her.
And she simply stopped studying and stayed in the small apartment she rented.
"Do you know what caused you to have such instinctive resistance?"
"I know!" Tang Youyou's face suddenly turned red again.
Dr. Liu seemed reluctant to talk when she saw her fussing. She immediately smiled and said: "Ms. Tang, please relax. In fact, Mr. Ji also told you in detail what happened between you and Mr. Ji five years ago. As I said, he feels that it was probably the night you two met five years ago that caused these not-so-good memories for you."
"Ah... what did he say?" Tang Youyou was still wondering how to describe this matter, but now listening to the doctor's meaning, Ji Xiaohan had already described it once, wow!
Dr. Liu pushed up the frame and said in a gentle tone: "Don't be shy. We are all women. I can understand what you have experienced. Mr. Ji said that you had an intimate relationship five years ago by chance. At that time, he was given a very domineering and violent drug. He would only do that kind of behavior to you under unavoidable circumstances. He also said that he actually regretted hurting you like that. .”
Tang Youyou couldn't tell what she was feeling in her heart at the moment, it was complicated, and her face was a little pale because of the reminder of old memories.
"He didn't describe anything in detail." Tang Youyou really felt that this kind of thing was still very taboo.
"Yes!" Dr. Liu nodded: "He said that he may have caused you very serious injuries and left a lot of blood. He actually went to that room the next day and saw the scene with his own eyes."
Tang Youyou suddenly pressed her head hard, inexplicably resisting recalling those things.
"Doctor Liu, I...can I rest for a while first."
"Ms. Tang, you must open your heart and face it. Don't run away anymore. Now tell me how you felt at that time."
"I was very scared and confused. I felt that life was in darkness and I couldn't find a way out. That night, my father forcibly put me on the plane. I stayed on the plane with my eyes open for more than ten hours. I don't dare to sleep, and I still have to endure the physical pain. In short, I am very desperate!" Under the doctor's gentle gaze, Tang Youyou began to touch the things in the past.
"Then do you hate the person who hurt you?"
"I hate it, I want to kill him, but I also feel that I actually hate myself even more. I hate that I am useless and can't protect myself. Also, I hate those people who knocked me unconscious and sent me to the room. No matter what, I hate myself. In this way, I may not be able to escape that night, no matter who that person is." When Tang Youyou said this, her whole body felt cold and trembling, because it really takes courage to open old wounds again.
In the past, she selectively forgot everything and adjusted her life to start from the moment the child was born.
All the joy has been accumulated bit by bit since having children.
Dr. Liu looked at her pale face and cold sweat on her forehead. Perhaps her nightmare was caused by being suppressed for a long time.
"Ms. Tang, please relax. Can you tell me what your nightmare is like?" Dr. Liu could only ask her in a gentle voice.
Tang Youyou nodded, her beautiful eyes a little hollow, confused, and a little scared.
"Sometimes, I feel like I'm being torn apart by a wild beast, and sometimes, I feel like I'm trapped in a dark room."
"To be more specific, have you ever dreamed about something between a man and a woman?"
"Yes, yes!"
"Can you see the face of the person in the dream?"
"It's very blurry and can't be seen clearly!"
Dr. Liu wrote down her symptoms. After thinking for a while, she suddenly said, "Now that you know that person is Mr. Ji, do you hate him in your heart?"
Tang Youyou froze, and her expression remained dull for a long time.
"Do you hate him?" Dr. Liu asked her again.
Tang Youyou lowered his head, feeling weak and confused.
"I hated it before, but I don't hate it anymore!" Tang Youyou bit her lip and answered softly.
"Why don't you hate him anymore?"
Tang Youyou really didn't think about this problem carefully. Then, she had to face the problem and answered: "Because he didn't mean to hurt me, he had no choice but to do it. Moreover, I have a child with him. He was good to the kids and he’s always been good to me.”
"Have you fallen in love with him?" Dr. Liu smiled.
Tang Youyou's empty eyes slowly gained focus. She looked at Dr. Liu and shook her head: "I don't know if that's love. I'm getting along with him quite relaxed and happily now."
"Okay, let's stop here today. Thank you for sharing your experience. You can go back first."
"That's it? Don't you need any more treatment?" Tang Youyou suddenly stood up, thinking that this shouldn't be considered treatment.
Dr. Liu immediately smiled and said: "Psychological treatment is to find the root cause of the problem and solve it. This is not the same as physical treatment. An operation and some medicine can make the wound heal. Let's take our time. Then, I think your situation is not too serious. The only thing you lack is that you fail to face your own heart. After you go back, communicate more with Mr. Ji. It is best to have inner communication. Of course, you can also talk to him Try to make physical contact, for example, hug each other every day, hold each other's hands more, and feel each other's warmth, which is very helpful for your treatment."
"Hug every day?" Tang Youyou's beautiful eyes widened in surprise.
"It's best to do this. If you want to take further steps, you can do it step by step." Dr. Liu said with a chuckle.
Tang Youyou secretly breathed a sigh of relief: "Then I'll try my best. Thank you, Doctor Liu. I suddenly realized that after chatting with you, I felt much better. I never talked about these things to others before. I didn’t even dare to say anything.”
"It is because you have suppressed your inner fear for a long time that your body has a rejection instinct now. Miss Tang, I think your personality is quite cheerful and you are not the kind of person who is very autistic. I believe your condition should be It will get better after some time." Dr. Liu told her with certainty.
"I hope so. Thank you, Doctor Liu. I'll take the first step!"
"Walk slowly!"