Looking at Mu Xisha who was hesitating, Ling Yunxiang said: "The emotion is too deep. Apart from helplessness, it is heartache. Apart from helplessness, the only thing I can do is to put it in my heart, think about it quietly, and digest it slowly. Sometimes, it’s so tiring to love someone, it’s so painful to miss someone, it’s so hard to forget someone, and it hurts to give up someone. Some people can’t love, hate, let go, or let go. I think you should be being loved now. Torture these thoughts..."
"This has nothing to do with you." Mu Xisha lowered her head and said, her eyes already moist.
Li Yuguo in the distance was talking to Ouyang Qing about some cultivation matters. Topics between men are always so simple, and as an elder, Ouyang Qing knew everything about Li Yuguo's questions.
Mu Xisha felt so uncomfortable. Since she left Li Huguo last time, she didn't know how many times she thought about it in bed. Since she couldn't forget it and didn't deliberately think about it, she thought that maybe this was the only way to find her happy self. She thought that maybe only in this way could I live the carefree life I had before; she also thought that maybe only in this way could I have time to recuperate my body and mind.
But in fact, all this is just self-deception. How can people who bury it in their hearts forget it so easily
She said simply that she was quitting forever, and that she would let Bai Guai and Li Yuguo develop well before she quit. But every time she thought of the scene of Bai Guai and Li Yuguo being together, her heart was twisted like a knife, and she was in extreme pain. She must know that in In the world of love, falling in love with someone is so tiring, and missing someone is so painful.
"It's been a hundred years, and I feel the same way. You know, that's Ouyang Qing's father... In the past hundred years, I have thought of the days we were together countless times." Ling Yunxiang poured herself a glass of wine, "But those memories have already been deeply engraved in my heart and integrated into my blood. If I want to forget, I really can't do it. If it weren't for the cherishment and agreement at the beginning, I wouldn't have loved you so much." To the point of suffocating love, I don’t think I will suffer the pain of lovesickness to torture myself... It makes me unable to overcome the depth and obsession of this love... "
Ling Yunxiang looked at the bright moon outside the house. It seemed that she remembered something, recalled something, and seemed to see the person she had missed for a hundred years.
"Because of love and lovesickness, beauty is born. I would rather experience the pain of lovesickness than forget you in lovesickness. When the world quiets down, I know that I still have the courage to miss you, and I will hide it in my heart. But, I know my love, this heartache..." Ling Yunxiang smiled foolishly, and she looked at Mu Xisha, "My child, are you really willing to be a bystander and look at the person you love deeply? , with another person?”
Mu Xisha gritted her teeth and shed tears.
"Are you sure that Bai Guai loves him more deeply than you do? Are you sure that you want to give up this relationship forever? Maybe one day in the future, they will have their own child..." Ling Yunxiang said.
Child, these two words were like a blade, cutting hard into Mu Xisha's heart. Mu Xisha trembled and her tears fell into the wonton soup.
Li Yuguo in the distance also noticed the depressing atmosphere here. Li Yuguo said: "Xisha, Ling Yunxiang, what are you talking about? Why does it feel so heavy?"
"It has nothing to do with you, you two gentlemen can say whatever you like! What are you saying about women's affairs?" Ling Yunxiang scolded with a smile.
Mu Xisha murmured: "I want to forget you, but I can't. I still love you. I thought we would hold hands until we grow old in this life! But the reality is far from what you and I thought. good."
"Aren't you willing to give in?" Ling Yunxiang looked at the wine in the glass.
"Of course I'm not willing to give in." Mu Xisha finally said those words.
How difficult it is to let go of someone. I am afraid only those who have experienced it can understand. Li Yuguo and Mu Xisha have been together for a long time, but they also make up for it. However, this is also a relationship that grows over time. Almost all feelings are due to the precipitation of time. came.
Mu Xisha originally thought that the easiest way to let go of someone is to leave it to time. No matter how deep the relationship is, it will eventually fade with time. Without any emotion, it can withstand the ruthlessness of time, but it turns out that She was wrong, because she clearly wanted to let go, but she couldn't let it go, and it became more and more painful.
"I can't advise you on what to do in the future, or what not to do... But I just want to say this, live for yourself, don't live like me... Although I may or may not do it now, my heart is already dead... because Ever since his father died, I have been living with guilt. He is already dead... dead, you know? He has been dead for a hundred years." Ling Yunxiang clenched her fists and said, "He is dead, and I can no longer make up for what I missed. Yes, but you are different..."
"Am I different?"
"Yes, let me ask you, you are the leader now, right?"
"right."
"The leader can make the rules, right?"
"right."
"Then even if you choose love, no one can punish you, because you are the most noble person in the Skeleton Cult. If you stick to your word, even if you choose love, who dares to object?"
"This..." Mu Xisha trembled and looked at Ling Yunxiang in horror.
"Having said that, now that you are not separated from him, you will lose one chance. As a human being, born as a woman, you are inherently weak. We are women, and we do not have many opportunities to choose ourselves." Ling Yunxiang put her hand on the back of Mu Xisha's hand.
At this time, Mu Xisha seemed to feel Ling Yunxiang's courage, her body trembled slightly, and she was even a little excited.
After three rounds of wine and five flavors of food, there is no banquet in the world that lasts forever.
After Ling Yunxiang had eaten and drank enough, she stepped on the table and said, "Smash it!"
"Mother!" Ouyang Qing ran over. He was such a big old boy and knelt on the ground. "My dear mother, what do you want to give me?"
"Go home!" Ling Yunxiang jumped on Ouyang Qing's shoulders. Ouyang Qing stood up, like a grandfather carrying his granddaughter. The scene was very strange, but Ling Yunxiang smiled happily, "Girl, remember As I said, a woman's life... is not easy!"
"What did she say?" Li Yuguo looked at Mu Xisha in confusion.
Mu Xisha covered her mouth and smiled softly: "It's nothing, the topic between women, what are you asking about as a man? Besides... I didn't ask about the topic between you and Mr. Ouyang."
"Yes." Li Yuguo said, looking at the two people's backs as they left, "They came here for a meal, right... They left so happily, without saying a single polite word."
"It's okay, let's just trick them like this next time." Mu Xisha said.