Sorry guys, the Bee update has been very poor recently. To be precise, I've been updating poorly. It's been a few years, but recently my state has been very bad. It's the worst time since I wrote Valkyrie.
I really want to adjust my status. In order to speed up the update, I often force myself to promise.
Turning pressure into motivation is my usual method of persecuting myself, but it doesn’t seem to be very effective recently, and it frequently disappoints everyone.
Many readers have reminded me not to do this, to write as much as I can, and not to use this method, because this method is fine if it can be done, but it will hurt the hearts of the readers.
Even the site editor reminded me not to.
But as a person, I have poor self-control. I have been writing for 9 years. It seems that this method is the most effective for me.
It is precisely because I don't want to disappoint everyone, there is pressure on everyone, so I work hard to complete the task.
But there will always be mistakes, and there will always be times of dishonesty, and what you get at this time is definitely not a compliment.
It is precisely because I am often untrustworthy that I have been scolded by readers since I wrote about God of War. It is no exaggeration to say that one-third of my messages may have scolded me.
But fortunately, although readers scolded me, they still liked my works, and everyone still stayed.
I am lucky, only lucky enough to gain so many readers and get the recognition and support of the website.
I don't want to disappoint everyone, especially this year, especially recently, I really want to adjust my status and speed up the update speed. As a web writer, I know that only more updates can speed up the plot and make readers more comfortable. .
But writing a book is not as simple as chatting.
My coding speed is not slow, and I can chat like this, I can chat 6000 words in an hour.
But when I write a book, I often can't handle 2,000 words for a few hours.
Because writing a book requires ideas and emotions, both of which are indispensable.
I think my recent mental state is very poor. This state is very similar to when I wrote God of War in 12 years.
Don't lie to everyone, I almost committed suicide when I was writing my first work, Shura God of War, because of the pressure.
Because I feel that writing books is all I have, and if I can't even do this well, I might as well...
Fortunately, I did not take a wrong step. I chose to rest. In 2012, when Shura God of War was at its peak, I rested for three months. Three months was enough for many readers to leave.
Because of the loss of too many readers, the God of War book ended in a hurry.
My current state is very similar to that time. I can't sleep well when I'm stressed.
Every day I think about books, but I can't achieve the update speed I am satisfied with.
I am really afraid, afraid that the god of war will follow in the footsteps of the god of war.
Even the way he promised to force himself didn't seem to work.
I want to change the way. I hope everyone can encourage and encourage me, because many times, the words of support and words of encouragement can also bring me great motivation.
Although the readers scolded me, I asked for it myself, and I was wrong, and I disappointed everyone many times.
But now, I hope to get your support and encouragement.
I need you.
I think that maybe your support and encouragement will create a different me.
If I can remove all the stress, maybe my state can be restored.
Come on, my dear readers, please leave me a message.
Let me see your encouragement and support.
If I can get back on my feet and go from a lazy bee to an industrious bee, it must be your credit.