My parents didn't expect that I would carry the key to the old house with me. When we walked into the almost abandoned house, the whole family was silent, and all kinds of feelings came to our hearts.
What does this old house represent? What else was engraved? I think my family all know that here, it is recorded a period of time when our family relied on each other, and it was also the only period of time when the whole family was together.
Compared with now, those days were hard, but those days were so warm. Those days can never come back...
We were wandering around the old house with almost no direction. Suddenly I heard the eldest sister crying. I turned around and saw that she was stroking the wall with her hands and crying against the wall.
Apparently her crying attracted the attention of the whole family, and everyone moved there. Only I, with tears in my eyes, did not move, because I still remembered that when I left, I carved a line of words on the wall.
Mom, Dad, sister, I love you. In my heart, we will always be together and never separate.
——Chen Chengyi.
Unexpectedly, eight years have not been able to erase that line of writing, and my eldest sister discovered it today.
My eldest sister was crying, and my second sister couldn't help but shed tears next to her. My mother leaned on my father and said with a tearful voice: "I have been afraid to look at this old house with you all these years, for fear of I miss our three children, who have not been seen for so many years."
My eldest sister was crying and said to my eldest brother-in-law: "My brother is very miserable. He has not dared to live at home since he was a child. He has to leave home at a young age and cannot contact his family. My brother is pitiful. ..”
The eldest brother-in-law comforted the eldest sister, but my second sister was more introverted and couldn't say anything, but she shed more tears than anyone else. The second brother-in-law was also busy comforting her, but compared to the eldest brother-in-law's iron-blooded military temperament, the second brother-in-law was a scholar. , his personality is somewhat more sensitive. I saw him staring at the words on the wall with red circles under his eyes.
Yes, how much pain of separation would it take for that young man to carve these words on his abandoned old house
Only my little nephew who was holding me was a little confused as to why all the adults were crying. I didn’t want this trip to be so sad, so I swallowed back my tears and deliberately said cheerfully: "Why are you crying? I Isn’t this coming back?”
However, in my heart, I am sadder than anyone else. I have lived for 23 years. I think that the most fulfilling years are when I am always with my family and Master in a beautiful place. But for ordinary people, this is easy. The dream, for me, can only be a dream.
Life has been like this since ancient times. Everyone's pursuit is so different, but some pursuits are so ordinary when compared to others. Is this a reflection of unsatisfactory life? Therefore, you can only live in the present, cherish what you have, and be content, because without you knowing, what you have may be someone else’s lifelong dream, so why should you be dissatisfied
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Our family had lunch at Zhulin Xiaozhu. We brought our own dry food. No one expected that it would be three o'clock in the afternoon when we set off early in the morning and arrived at Zhulin Xiaozhu.
Unsurprisingly, the beautiful scenery of the Bamboo Grove Villa aroused the eldest brother-in-law and the second brother-in-law to marvel. Unsurprisingly, the formation outside the Bamboo Grove Lodge was abandoned and no one took care of it. The bamboos naturally grew like crazy. It was extremely difficult for us to walk.
Fortunately, the terrain here is so remote that no one has discovered the bamboo forest building for so many years.
When I saw Zhulin Xiaozhu again, I was the one who felt the most uneasy. But I had too many feelings today. I didn’t want to think about anything anymore. I forced myself to be calm. Like a lunatic, I took a piece of handkerchief from my luggage. He actually started wiping the bamboo forest building.
My actions may seem miraculous to outsiders. How can one person clean a house? But my parents and sisters understood it. They pulled me and said, "After dinner, let's clean the house together."
In the evening, the Bamboo Grove Xiaozhu was really cleaned up by our family. I had already said that I would stay in the Bamboo Grove Xiaozhu for a few days, and my parents insisted on accompanying me, so they brought quilts and other things.
And today, my sisters and husbands also stayed.
This night in the small bamboo forest took me back to the past, but who knows whether this period of time will happen again? Sitting on the corridor of the bamboo forest house, I thought a little sadly, and my two brothers-in-law had already become extremely curious about me along the way.
Of course, they have heard my sisters talk about me to some extent. For some reasons, even if they kept it secret, they did not believe it and thought it was exaggerated. After this journey, even if they wanted to not believe it, they could not They found it a bit difficult, so they couldn't help but ask.
But after all, my brothers-in-law are just ordinary people. Although I have a good impression of them, it doesn't mean that I can tell them many things. I tried to avoid the important things and said some things in a tone that is closer to science and less fantasy. He came to explain some metaphysics, and even so, his brothers-in-law were amazed.
My parents and I stayed in Zhulin Xiaozhu for 5 days.
In the past five days, I have personally cooked for my parents. What I ate the most at Zhulin Xiaozhu was mountain bamboo shoots, fish from the stream, mushrooms, and some game. Now I also cook for my parents in the same way.
Although it is very difficult to cook with only some simple cooking utensils brought by my parents in this mountain with nothing, it does not affect the delicious food our family eats. Those tastes are the tastes of the past that I have missed for a long time. .
In the past five days, I have been to the Hungry Ghost Tomb once, and what I saw was indeed an artillery processing factory. There was almost no trace of the past, which made me lament the country's thunderous methods.
In the past five days, I have also visited the tombs of Yu Xiaohong and Li Fengxian. As Guo Er said, they are extremely gorgeous. But what's the use of being gorgeous? These are all foreign objects. Can disappearing people or feelings come back
Over the years, as I mature, I admire the relationship between Li Fengxian and Yu Xiaohong more and more. In my opinion, no matter what, the relationship is correct and pure. Regardless of whether outsiders understand it or not, how do they view this pair of taboos? lovers, but in my heart, I will always selfishly create a picture that they can be beautiful and happy together. Don't have any regrets, don't end up like this again, guarding my thoughts alone, dying in a foreign land, alone With resentment, his soul was shattered.
One month seems to be a long time, but in fact it is very short. I have spent such a happy month, and it is finally time to leave.
When I packed my luggage and prepared to leave in the morning, it was drizzling just like when I left. This rainy and humid winter in Sichuan always makes people sad when leaving.
My mother got up early and made breakfast for me, forcing me to finish it. She also prepared large and small bags of snacks she made by herself. As a result, my luggage didn’t have much at all, but these snacks added an extra bag to my luggage. .
My dad watched me finish eating, and then said to me: "If you can't survive anymore, just come back. I'm old and I'm not afraid of big or small disasters. I care more about my son."
I am silent. I also care about my parents. No matter how old you are, I don’t want you to experience any major or minor disasters.
My mother said: "Remember to keep in touch with us. Write a letter first. This time it costs a lot of money. Your dad and I have to install phones so we can call home often. Master Jiang said you can spend a month with us every year." , but it didn’t say that we can’t contact him now, please remember to contact me.”
I nodded. This time, I will definitely contact my parents frequently. I don’t want them to be like the past eight years, where they can only imagine their son’s life in their dreams.
"In three years, find Master Jiang and bring him here. We miss him." My dad suddenly said.
My heart ached and I said, "Sure, my master often says that my mother's cooking is delicious."
"Okay, let's go, son." My dad said simply, carrying a bag of my luggage and going out.
At the door, Uncle Hu had already driven his car and was waiting for me, but my dad waved his hand and said: "Old Hu, go to XX (the road out of the county) and wait for us. I will take my son there on my bicycle." "
When I left this time, my idea was to find crispy meat. Uncle Hu was responsible for taking me to the prefecture-level city and taking a bus to Chengdu, but I didn’t expect that my dad would send me off on a bicycle.
Looking at the familiar bicycle at the door, I handed my luggage to Uncle Hu without refusing, and as a big man like me, I directly stepped on the bicycle.
In the car, because my legs are too long, I have to curl up, which is not very comfortable. Some pedestrians find it funny and puzzled, why is an old man carrying a big boy on his bicycle
But neither my father nor I paid attention to it. Just like before, the wind blew my father's hair, which already had more white hair and less black hair. When I left that year, I was most afraid of seeing such a scene when I came back, but I didn't expect that it had come true.
I wanted to say something, but nothing came out. Only my father's voice came faintly from the front: "Sanwa'er, in the past, my father wanted you to have a great future. Now, my father only wants you to be ordinary. An'an."