In the end, Hui Gen'er didn't say who Zhang Haiyan was, but I learned from Cheng Yuan's words that Zhang Haiyan was a little girl from the courtyard, and Hui Gen'er and Cheng Yuan were from the same courtyard.
This makes me vaguely worried. Uncle Hui’s wish is that Hui Gen’er can become a super monk, but can a super monk touch ordinary hearts? I have seen monks drinking wine and eating meat, but I have never seen a monk fall in love or anything like that.
Although Hui Gen'er is still young and doesn't know much about the relationship between men and women. If she does, she would have a good impression at most, but if this continues
After Master left, I found that it felt really bad not to be dependent on me. I had to solve everything by myself. This is the price of growth. You always have to lose something, and then you are forced step by step by these losses to grow up, take on responsibility, and eventually mature.
No wonder I am still immature even when I am 19 years old. It turns out that I have never gotten rid of my dependence on Master.
I lit a cigarette and leaned against the corridor with some boredom, looking at the night outside the corridor. I always felt that my future was just like the night, so dark that I could not see clearly and had no direction at all.
I don’t know when, Ruxue stood next to me and asked softly: “Are you upset about Hui Gen’er?”
I nodded. The tacit understanding and understanding between Ruxue and I didn't need to be told. With just one look from me, she might be able to tell what I was thinking.
"If you don't break it, you can't build it. If you don't experience it, you can't see through it and let it go. Chengyi, some things are not evaded, even if you win, but you have to go through them and endure them, then you can be truly enlightened." Ruxue just said this. I spoke for a while and then fell silent.
But my heart suddenly became cheerful. Yes, if Hui Gen'er has never experienced the love between men and women, it is definitely not true to say that he has seen through it and given up on the love between men and women. If Hui Gen'er really has wisdom roots, then He himself will always take the right path, no matter what bifurcations he experiences along the way.
Taoism emphasizes governance by inaction. In fact, I now understand the meaning of inaction. It means that you should never deliberately avoid things and then decide on a certain direction. This is a superficial interpretation of inaction.
Only by doing nothing can we neither destroy nor establish!
I really want to hug Ruxue, she always solves my worries in a timely manner and resolves my entanglements with one word. But when I think of our situation, I can only smile at Ruxue and then turn around. Talk again.
But Ruxue had turned around silently and walked away.
In this life, how helpless do you have to be to finally develop a clear heart
We stayed in the Zhulin Villa for almost a month. During this month, we discussed how to find the masters almost every day.
In the end, after we decided what to do, we were faced with separation.
Just as the masters devoted their lives to Kunlun, we are destined to devote our lives to it, which means that this matter cannot be completed in a short time, a year or two.
During this long period of time, we need to collect a lot of clues, and we need some money to support ourselves, continue to practice, and prepare for the possibility of traveling all over the country in the future.
In addition, we also shoulder some responsibilities. Unlike Master and his generation, which were mostly orphans, our generation all has parents and relatives, and we all have more or less responsibilities.
Therefore, we have to take some responsibilities before we can travel far and wide.
Master only left when he was 81 years old. We couldn't wait that long. We agreed on a time. In short, after that time, we would gather together like Master and others, and then embark on this journey without regrets.
But if there are any major clues in the process, we must explore them together.
This is our agreement.
It was at this moment that I suddenly remembered that Master kept disappearing piece by piece. Was he just looking for clues to determine the answer? Especially those three years! And what words did Master write on Uncle Hui's hand at that time? I guess it might be Kunlun.
Of course, this clue was not found inexplicably. We discussed it for a month, and of course we also discussed the method of finding clues. However, the workload was too heavy, involving all kinds of people, a large number of secret documents, and some In a dangerous place, we have to eat one bite at a time, so we can only take our time.
First of all, I have to find myself a job that can support me. I still have Hui Gen'er to bear. Each of us depends on Master. This time, except for Senior Brother, everyone has to be independent.
From the very beginning, Senior Brother, Uncle Li decided to inherit his work in the relevant departments. This is also the rule of this line. The successors of the second line of fortune telling must serve and contribute to the general trend.
I don't understand the reason, just like I don't understand why there are so many people of the second line of fortune-telling staying with the emperor in history. On the contrary, people of other lines like to be in the human world and roam freely, but those are other lines after all. I don't want to get to the bottom of things. In short, just follow the rules set by the master.
As for us, we can actually enter the relevant departments, but after thinking about it, we are not willing. Chengzhen is used to being free with Master Wang, and Chengxin feels that the masters of medical treatment are among the people, and there are many folk prescriptions worth studying. , he can also collect clues along the way.
My thoughts are similar to Brother Chengxin's. I don't want to be restricted by looking for clues. Besides, the backbone of the relevant departments are the older generation. I am from the younger generation, so I can't actually play a big role. I have already If the people who record the records in the relevant departments need me, of course I am obligated and will stand up.
The future direction is basically determined, but what am I going to do? I was still a little confused, but it wasn't until I dug out a well-collected booklet when I was packing my luggage that I suddenly got the direction.
This booklet is a notebook that Mr. Wang gave me when I left that year. It records some of his clients. He also specially helped me to establish certain connections. Isn’t this just for me in the future? Arrangement
Actually, it's not that I can't do other things, but after following Master for so many years, I thought in my heart that I should do this, and I suddenly had a direction in my mind.
I think some of my senior brothers and sisters will also do their own jobs.
I have locked the bamboo forest building, just like the most precious memory in my heart has been locked. I think I will not be able to come back here for a long time, or I dare not come back here, for fear of Touching some memories will make you sad.
Master Li’s tomb is here, but we Taoists don’t pay much attention to annual worship. I come back to pay homage to Master Li, but I think I may not come every year, because the more intimate this small bamboo forest is, the more I will. The less you can touch it.
We parted at the station in the town, and we were so far away from each other again. I didn’t go out of my way to say goodbye to Ruxue. In my life, I’m tired of all farewells, and I don’t want to face saying goodbye to Ruxue. .
We were both indifferent. We gave each other a simple hug and left each other. However, we were unwilling to think about the sadness hidden under this indifference.
Chengyuan, Qinhuai, Huigener and I boarded the train to Beijing. Huigener still had to go to school, so I had to send him there! During the holidays, I will take him to find Master Jue Yuan, and then we will decide whether to transfer to another school or something.
Qinhuai naturally wants to return to Beijing.
As for Cheng Yuan, she told me that she wanted to finish college as soon as possible. In addition, Brother Yuan Yi did not want to stay in Beijing anymore. He had no problem taking care of himself now. Moreover, the relevant departments also arranged a special nanny for Brother Yuan Yi. In this way, Cheng Yuan I would like to feel more at ease.
After sending Hui Gen'er to Beijing, where should I go next? I have some clarity, but I am also confused. I cannot stay with my family often, so I am destined to be a wanderer. I have no lover and no master. I can only be sure that after I go to Beijing, I will live with my parents for a while. Time, the next thing can only sigh and let it happen.
I thought I would finish things in Beijing quickly, but I didn't expect that here, I would meet someone I didn't expect at all.
His appearance surprised me, but now that I think about it, he was bound to appear.