Facing Xuanlin's question, I nodded. Although I was thinking about Kunlun, I also wanted to know what happened that made such a gentle, tough, and dreamy young man make such a crazy decision.
I believe it cannot be just because of illness!
"Give me another cigarette." Xuanlin leaned on the sofa and asked me again for a cigarette without rushing to tell the story.
I took out a cigarette and asked hesitantly: "Is it OK to smoke again because of your illness?"
Xuan Lin smiled, took the cigarette from my hand, and answered the question: "Do you know why I talk so much to you, who is almost a stranger? Because you are a kind-hearted person. It's a bit silly. Look, I'm obviously not your friend, but can be considered an enemy from a certain perspective, yet you still care about whether I smoke so many cigarettes, yet you still ask me to save some soul."
I smiled silently. Faced with other people saying this, what can I say? Could it be that I came by my feelings
Xuanlin took a deep drag on the cigarette, then coughed heavily, and the sickly flush appeared on his face again, and then he said: "I don't have many friends, and I don't know if it's because I'm poor. I can't make friends here, or it's because I have a natural resistance to strangers. In short, I just don't have any friends. If I feel right about you, I will tell you, or you may think that if I don't tell you, I won't have a chance to tell you. Tell me. Let’s take care of the funeral.”
I was speechless again. In fact, when facing Xuan Lin, I found that I was speechless a lot. I knew it was because the person sitting opposite me was a young man whose life was about to disappear. He knew how to be hypocritical and expressive in any words of comfort. All emotions are superfluous.
"I don't have many friends in college. There is only one person. She is my senior, my friend, and my...my lover. Her name is Lu Ting." In the rising light blue smoke, Xuan Lin said The narration began again.
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Xuan Lin was 17 years old when he entered university.
Because he started primary school earlier, he entered university at a relatively young age. Unlike others who entered university with dreams, Xuanlin entered university with heavy responsibilities and burdens.
That is, he wants to take his family out of Stone Village.
In that scorching September, when Xuanlin stood at the gate of the university for the first time with the admission notice, Xuanlin saw the freshmen who were either youthful or elated. His first feeling was that he would be out of tune with his classmates here. Bar.
In fact, Xuanlin's feeling was correct. In the following days, he was indeed incompatible with his classmates here.
The reason for being out of place may not be his patched clothes, nor his dirty Jiefang shoes, but his hurried figure and lonely and silent character.
Perhaps this is not to be blamed on Xuan Lin. From the first day he entered university, he had to fight for the tuition fees he owed and future living expenses. Where did he have time to participate in any classmates' activities or accept their invitations
But Xuan Lin wanted to integrate here deep down, and he had tried hard.
It was one day after paying off the tuition debt he owed. He returned to his dormitory with the extra money he had left from his part-time job and invited his roommates to dinner. At that time, he saw the polite and distant smiles of his roommates. , he realized that he could not fit in completely.
Therefore, Xuanlin gave up. He thought that his university would continue to be lonely, until the appearance of Lu Ting finally brought a ray of sunshine to his lonely and gloomy university life.
Xuanlin and Lu Ting met on a rainy afternoon.
In an open-air corridor of the school, Xuan Lin came back from his part-time job. He wanted to rush back to the dormitory in a mess, and then bumped into Lu Ting who was holding an umbrella.
He politely said sorry and gave her a hand.
But a confused voice came from her side: "Is it you?"
It's you? Such an ordinary question sounded so confusing to Xuanlin. He didn't think that he had interacted with anyone in this university and was worthy of being called you.
Therefore, when Xuan Lin raised his head and saw that delicate and unfamiliar face, he was filled with doubts.
"I took you when you were a freshman. Have you forgotten? I said my name is Lu Ting, and I am your senior." The girl said.
Enrollment? Enrollment was already more than half a year ago, how could Xuanlin, who is busy every day, still remember it? After the girl mentioned it, he remembered it, and there was such a face vaguely in his memory.
Xuan Lin, who was not used to being in contact with others, didn't know how to respond to this girl's words. In the end, he could only blush in a hurry, call out "Senior Sister, hello", and run away in embarrassment.
On that afternoon in the rain, I could escape in a hurry.
But in life, your fate, whether good or bad, cannot be escaped after all.
The encounter that afternoon seemed to open a secret lock. From then on, Xuanlin and Lu Ting began to meet in various ways in school.
Classrooms for self-study, quiet libraries, canteens for eating, clean campus trails... .
These encounters were like a catalyst that ripened Xuan Lin and Lu Ting. They began to greet each other, then they would chat a few words, and then they would chat more and more, until finally Lu Ting's smile was on Xuan Lin's face. It lingers in my heart.
It's a very ordinary process of falling in love with someone, but that love is planted deeper and heavier in Xuanlin's heart than anyone else!
Finally, Xuan Lin, who already knew where Lu Ting's dormitory was, created an encounter that was not accidental. That afternoon, he waited for Lu Ting at the door of Lu Ting's dormitory.
"Shall I invite you to dinner?" When he said this, his heart beat very hard. He was afraid of hearing rejection. In that case, he would never be able to muster the courage to invite you a second time, and even in the future he would not I can no longer muster the courage to say hello to her.
"Yeah." After just a second of silence, Lu Ting agreed to Xuan Lin.
This is a pair of young people who have a crush on each other. All they need to pierce is a layer of window paper. Lu Ting waits until Xuanlin arrives.
That meal took a long time, and when it could no longer be delayed, Xuan Lin confessed his love to Lu Ting, and Lu Ting accepted Xuan Lin naturally.
They are in love.
But because Xuan Lin was poor, the conditions in Lu Ting's family were also extremely ordinary. Their love was extremely simple, with no roses, no candlelight dinner, no beautiful clothes, and not even a movie.
The methods they can choose are extremely limited, and that is just walking around and around the campus paths under the moonlight.
But how can poverty cover up the light of love? They are very satisfied, so satisfied that even if they eat a steamed bun or drink a bag of soy milk together, they will be happy, which is no worse than an expensive meal - because of love.
What they love to do most is to look forward to the future, because they are all students at a medical university. As long as they work hard, the future can definitely be changed.
"Before I graduate, I will get a master's degree. There are subsidies for graduate students, and I will work part-time, so it will be much easier. After I graduate from graduate school, I will find a good hospital to work with the best grades, and then I will marry you. ." This is Xuanlin's promise.
"Well, I believe in you. You are my potential stock. I'm waiting for you." This was Lu Ting's promise.
Love shone the most dazzling light on them who were poor. At that time, it was all the positive energy for Xuan Lin to move forward. When he looked up at the sky, he always felt that future happiness was within reach.
If An Yu didn't show up.
When he finished saying this, there were tears in Xuanlin's eyes. This was the first time I saw this peaceful and quiet boy showing such great emotions. In fact, I could feel from Xuanlin's narration that in him In his solitary and lonely life, in his college life, Lu Ting was really everything to him.
"Sorry." He took off his glasses, wiped the corners of his eyes gently, and then said: "Do you want to listen to it next? Unfortunately, I don't want to tell it anymore. It's just a vulgar story. A girl gradually became vain. , gradually boys can no longer satisfy her, because they can’t give her anything except the truest love. Unfortunately, what she wants at that time is no longer love, but brand-name clothes and bags, and access to high-end places. You Say, what can I use to satisfy myself? If my life can be exchanged for money, I will."
I was silent, with only one thought in my mind, thank you for meeting Ruxue in my lifetime.
As if there was a tacit understanding, Xuan Lin suddenly said with a sad smile: "But even so, I am also grateful that I was able to meet her in my lifetime. That period was the happiest day in my life."