When the second update was posted today, I felt an unprecedented level of exhaustion in my heart. As I wiped my nose and rubbed my groggy head, I was thinking about one question, what's wrong with me? Why do I feel an uncontrollable irritability, and the thought of vomiting even if I write another word
It started in August last year, and there are still 2 days in May. I never imagined that one day my life would be like this. I would put down most things and continue typing in front of the computer, and then it would be 9 months. .
During these 9 months, I almost never took a break for more than two days in a row, and I thought about coding every day.
In the past, it was just a random behavior in Tianya. I don't know how it developed into what it is now. I feel like my life has been kidnapped and I can't help it.
I'm not complaining, I'm just asking myself if it's worth it? Is it worth coding every day like a rush task? Is it worth facing the computer with my temper getting worse and worse
I don’t know what I’m talking about, I’m just talking casually.
I feel that my own mood is changing. From the beginning, I was happy to write until the end, to now I want to finish writing quickly.
How does the feeling change when something becomes a homework assignment
I am very irritable now. I still owe so many crowns that I have not finished adding, and there are so many expectations on me. I can say that all my free time has been turned into coding, and when I am not coding, my brain is full of energy. It's all about plot, how should I write it appropriately
Or, I have always been a person who cares too much about public opinion. I can’t stand the word “disappointment”, and I can’t stand the words that you are still so far behind, that you do your own calculations, and that you don’t keep your words.
I feel like I've lost a certain mood.
Here, I ask everyone not to give me a complimentary crown. Thank you all. I can receive your thoughts.
I will persist and write tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, I will write... If I can't persist, I also ask everyone to let me relax and have a three- to five-day vacation, to withdraw from the memories and the world I have woven. Come out for a few days.
After reading what I wrote, you can criticize me if you want. You can even compare it with other authors to see how they insist on constant updates. I can only say that I have a clear conscience and tried my best.
Really, I may have deeply experienced a cold today. The feeling of runny nose, sore throat, and dizzy mind made me very tired, so I wrote this. Really, I don’t want to turn this into a communication. Operation.
Okay, I don’t know what I’m talking about anymore.