Lin Banxia was stunned for a long time before she realized what He Ruoxin's words meant. She blinked her eyelashes slowly. After a while, she opened her lips slightly and whispered in a nasal voice. He responded: "Oh."
"Lin Banxia..." He Ruojin seemed to be considering what tone to use to speak to Lin Banxia, but in fact his voice always sounded calm and without any emotion. He said calmly: " I will live a good life with you, I don’t know in the future, but right now, I’m not mentally prepared for that, do you understand?”
For He Ruojin, he is very traditional at heart. He knows very well that since he had a relationship with Lin Banxia, he is no longer qualified to say that he has no relationship with Lin Banxia. He understands that he has no relationship with Lin Banxia. From now on, he has to be responsible for Lin Banxia no matter what, but this does not mean that he wants to have children with Lin Banxia.
At least, not now.
He doesn't have the thought now to deal with the possibility of having an extra child.
I don't even want to be used and restrained by the He family and the Lin family because of the extra child.
That wasn't what he wanted.
Lin Banxia didn't know whether she understood or not, because she kept her eyes slightly open for a long time without moving.
But after a while, she seemed to slowly understand He Ruoxin's words.
She figured it out and understood it.
But, it was still terribly uncomfortable.
In my heart... I was also throbbing and hurting for a while.
She didn't think about the future as rationally as He Ruojin did. She just acted instinctively, without any thoughts, just sad.
Because the bowl of medicine I have to drink is very sad.
"If you don't want to drink..." Seeing that she was motionless, He Ruoxin spoke because he was afraid that she would misunderstand.
But before she finished speaking, Lin Banxia shook her head slightly, bit her lip, and held up the bowl of medicine. It was almost to her mouth. Her nose became sore again. Even she didn't realize it, and her voice became a little... Short, "Is the medicine bitter?"
He Ruochen was silent for a while before saying: "I didn't ask clearly, otherwise..."
Lin Banxia didn't wait for him to finish, lowered his head, and drank the medicine silently without saying a word.
The medicine is actually not very bitter.
However, with every bite, Lin Banxia felt like she was swallowing small knives, sharp and hot, rolling down her throat like lava, and stinging into her bones like quenching poison.
very painful.
She drank a whole bowl of medicine, tears falling from the corners of her eyes. She also pretended that she didn't feel any pain, and pretended to tell He Ruojin that the medicine was too bitter.
He Ruojin looked at her, her thin lips moved slightly, but she made no sound.
What he wanted to tell Lin Banxia was that she really couldn't act.
But, so what if he said it.
He knew that he didn't do well enough, so... he could only think about making up for her in the future.
That night, Lin Banxia lay down very early, with her back to him, her little hands tremblingly pressing her lower abdomen, and the pillow beside her face was already wet with tears.
In fact, she didn't even know if there would be a child in her belly, but his calm and rational rejection and strangulation... made her understand and understand, but she couldn't bear the pain.
But... she doesn't blame him...
She knew he was not wrong...
But even so, I still can't help feeling sad.
Because of this, until she woke up the next day, she was still depressed and not very energetic. However, He Ruojin stayed with her again, thinking that she was uncomfortable and wanted to summon the imperial doctor. Lin Banxia shook her head and said fine.
(End of chapter)