Wen Zhigu slowly tightened his grip on the wooden rabbit in his hand, feeling an unprecedented unknown in his heart.
After all, Wen Zhigu couldn't bear to be cruel, so he called the guards outside the Jade Courtyard to help him go in and help him to the bed. Ji Xubai passed out from the pain again, and his face was still frighteningly white.
Wen Zhigu stayed by the bed, holding the wooden rabbit in his hand, grabbing the wooden rabbit's ears tangledly, while looking at the man on the bed, not knowing what he was thinking.
After a long time, she sighed, unable to sleep. He also forgot that his ankle was still swollen and painful.
Ji Xubai's study happened to be next door, so Wen Zhigu thought about finding some books to read, so as not to think too much.
She exited Ji Xubai's room very gently and went into the study to look for books.
She actually liked reading Ji Xubai's books. When she was pregnant with Xiao Jian, although she and Ji Xubai had always been the same bedfellows, she always liked reading the books he brought back to the study for her to read.
Perhaps because he had taught her at Royal Forest Academy for several years, Ji Xubai had already seen through the knowledge points that interested her.
I often think that this person is good at everything, owes nothing to anyone, and treats others well, but he had such an unforgettable experience with her.
If they hadn't gone through that period, maybe they wouldn't be what they are today.
Maybe they will still be the same as they were at the beginning.
…
Wen Zhigu flipped through the book for a while, and caught a glimpse of something from the corner of his eye. He turned his head and saw an old and thick notebook in a half-open box on the book grid.
Wen Zhigu was startled for a moment, then hesitantly reached out his hand and took it off.
Wen Zhigu lowered his eyes and opened the letter.
-Just arrived in Beige. Have you arrived in Anseong
-The dust in Beige is very heavy. I spent a day moving rocks in the wind and sand, and was beaten by the foreman. If you knew about it, you would definitely say that you too will have this day.
-Knowing the past…
- Warmth, knowledge, so.
-I'm thinking about how you hate me.
I'm a little unhappy thinking about who you won't cry for in the future.
I also thought about whether the child would look like me or you when he was born.
…
The last two words were erased with great force. Wen Zhigu tried hard to distinguish them, and vaguely saw the word "think".
Her fingers trembled slightly as she slowly turned to the next page. It was strange that this page had been separated by almost four months.
-Another person died on the construction site. The foreman planned to beat me to death, but I didn’t die. I know, are you okay
-I dreamed of you again, Wen Zhigu, and our child...
While reading, Wen Zhigu slowly squatted on the ground along the desk, lowering his head and flipping through the pages.
It records his years in Beige, from being bullied by his boss to his later ideas for developing waterways. He wrote them all in the notebook...
However, in the third and fourth years from now on, there will be very few things recorded in the notebooks, mostly -
-I know, I miss you.
-Can we go back to the past
-I had a nightmare that you killed me. It was strange. I didn't feel any pain at all, but I was very scared. I was afraid that you would leave.
- Wen Zhigu, I have changed all the shortcomings you mentioned about me before. I'm afraid you still don't like me.
-I miss you so much.
-I have always not believed in seeing each other again in the afterlife. If I am wrong, I am wrong. I know my past. I mean, after four years of exile and four years of desert, can I come back? Come back to see you.
…
There is a jade sign at the end of the page...
Wen Zhigu looked at the jade sign for a while before she recognized it as the jade sign she made herself.