Raising his hand, his fingers trembling, He Li effortlessly untied the cloak for her, threw the already soaked cloak aside, then opened his arms to wrap her icy body into his embrace, and said in a low voice "Why don't you take care of yourself so much?" After thinking about it, this person is actually very bad at taking care of herself. In the past, there were always people around her, and these things were done well for her, but now even Ying Shisan has gone. If he also left, what would this person do? I really can't worry about it.
Seeing that his brows were still furrowed because of the pain, but his eyes were worried about himself, Ling Qingyu's eyes turned red immediately, wiped away his tears, dragged him up, let him lean against the bed, and said, "You're still ashamed to say Me? It’s all like this, why don’t you let me serve you?”
With a slight smile on his face, He Li said: "If I let those women outside the door come in, you still have to eat me?" Seeing that her hand froze, He Li gave her a hand , still put his arms into his arms, and said with a smile: "It's me who said the wrong thing, so we don't care about it, I care, I'm afraid, if I really let someone else into the house, you will turn around and leave , and then arrange a bunch of beauties for me."
"He Li!" Putting his teasing smile on his face, Ling Qingyu said in a low voice, "If you can live a long life, I'd rather you marry a bunch of beauties!"
He Li laughed lightly, raised his eyebrows, and said with a smile: "But I don't want to, I would rather die early, and only have you alone." He Li stroked her hair, before she got angry, He Li restrained his smile and said: " This problem of mine has nothing to do with you, it is the curse left over from the battle at Heishuiguan. You also know that as a military commander, life and death are just a thin line. Haven't you lived till now? Well, good girl, don't cry, He Li's life is already good enough, no matter how good it is, I'm afraid there will be divine punishment."
"if… "
"No if," He Li interrupted her, wiping the tears from the corners of her eyes lightly with his fingers, and said, "No if, Qingyu, I followed the general when I was seven, and went to the battlefield with the general when I was eleven. Since then, Every time I go to the battlefield, I am prepared to never return. Before I met you, I didn’t know how many times I had been injured, and the injury that caused this disease was not because of you. Even if I didn’t fight the world for you, I couldn’t live. Chang, once the disease strikes, it will be my death, anyway, I would rather die for you... So, you see, I am actually the one who is selfish, right?"
Selfish? I'm the one who is selfish. If I didn't waver from the beginning, then Yan San and Yang Zhao wouldn't be in so much pain, and Yan San wouldn't die. Without my involvement, Yang Zhao wouldn't die either. If it wasn't for me being selfish. This decision, how could they be dragged into this troubled world by me, and then die tragically one by one...
"The head of the house..." Pulling the quilt to wrap around her trembling body, He Li's expression was rarely serious, he lifted her chin with his fingers, raised her drooping head, and looked at her He Li said, "Are you regretting? Regret that you saved us at the beginning. If you hadn't saved us, you wouldn't have ended up where you are now?" Holding her violently shaking head He stopped, kissed away the tears dripping from the corner of his eyes, his face softened, He Li said softly: "If not, why should you regret and blame yourself? You see, if we hadn't met at the beginning, He Li would have died fifteen years ago , um, you don’t have to get sick, don’t be angry, really, let me tell you something, don’t be angry, okay?”
His expression was too serious, which was really rare in so many years of getting along, making Ling Qingyu look at him in doubt, and then nodded.
"Actually, when the general decided to go with you, I didn't plan to live long. At that time, I thought, after the general left with you and the difficulty of the Blackwater Pass passed, I would die," I hugged tightly. Ling Qingyu sat up straight due to excitement, and He Li put his head on her shoulder, and said in a low voice: "I can't bear that kind of pain, whether it's the pain of this attack, or the pain of not seeing you again. , I can’t stand it... I’ve thought about it, anyway, you won’t come back, the main house won’t be used anymore, I’ll die on that bed, I can’t bleed, the bed won’t be good if the blood is dirty, then There is still your smell on it, I thought, I asked the ghost doctor to plant poison, the kind that seemed to fall asleep after eating..., but the general died in battle..."
The man's tall body hugged him tightly, and his tightly hugged arms trembled slightly. When he was speaking, the breath attached to his neck sprayed on his skin with heat, making his voice seem to have some vibrato.
"Actually, I'm sorry for the general. Sometimes, I've secretly rejoiced. If the general was still around, I wouldn't even be able to get close to you." He Li raised his head, and a faint smile appeared on the corner of He Li's mouth. The solemnity retreated suddenly, and he said with some self-deprecating meaning: "I am really lucky to be able to be with you and occupy such a place in your heart, the head of the family. I am such a despicable villain... I know, If you are sincere for your own good, you should follow the general’s instructions and send you away, send you away, and never step into this chaotic land again. However, when you said that you want to overthrow the world, I violated it The general's will not only did not stop you, but encouraged you. I know the consequences of doing so. You have a kind heart. Although you were full of anger and revenge at the time, when the sacrifice really came, you would still I can't bear it, no matter how beautiful and cruel you say, but you can't bear the departure of the people close to you. Knowing this, I still push you, because, I want to be the person you need, I want to be the person you need to rely on People who rely heavily on you, like this, one day, you will love me and miss me in your heart... "
The expression on the face of the person in his arms changed from worry to doubt, then numbly, and finally shocked, then he pushed himself away, jumped off the bed, opened the door and rushed out, He Li seemed to have nothing to say. With strength, his body fell limp and leaned against the head of the bed, blood slowly overflowed from the corner of his bitten lips, such bitterness...
I have never been a good person, Qing Yu, so there is no need to feel guilty for me, let alone be sad for me...
The door was pushed open again violently, and then the man rushed in with his arms folded as if jumping from the cold, closed the door, and jumped onto the bed barefoot.
Seeing the astonished and heartbroken expression on He Li's face, Ling Qingyu stroked the corner of his eyes with cold fingers, then dipped a drop of clear tears into his mouth, tasted it, and wrinkled Frowning, he lifted the quilt, got into the quilt, and snuggled his cold body into the man's generous chest.
Unconsciously, he hugged that body tightly, using his own body temperature to warm her, and then heard the man muffledly ask in his arms: "He Li, do you love me?"
"Hmm..." He Li responded in a low voice, and the corners of He Li's mouth curled up slightly.
"Actually, I'm not good at all. I'm not pretty. I have a weird personality. I'm narrow-minded. I can't do housework. I'm not virtuous at all." Understand, why do you like me, why do you love me? Why can you do that?"
"Yeah, I can't figure it out either," He Li chuckled, changed her into a more comfortable position, and said, "Look at Yan San, he's cruel and bloodthirsty, he doesn't have any specialties except killing people. Why do you like him and love him?"
"Nonsense! Yan San knows a lot!" Ling Qingyu glared at him dissatisfied, looked at the smile on his mouth, lowered his head again, and said, "I don't know what Yan San was like before, but he really treated me. Well, at that time, I heard that Zhao was given a marriage, and I was really in a bad mood when I thought that we would never meet again after two days, Yan San was always by my side, just like that, suddenly one day, I found that I I can't do without him, I will often look for his figure, and then I know that I have fallen in love with him, fell in love with him, He Li, you said you were selfish, but at that time, I was really ready Stay with Yan San, don’t go back to Dazhou, don’t go to Heishuiguan.”
The body was suddenly hugged tightly, and the strength made Ling Qingyu scream softly, then leaned on the chest behind, and continued: "I am really not a good person. In those days, I always regarded myself as a passer-by in this world. It was just the scenery on the journey. When I heard the news, I gave up on Zhao without any struggle at all. Later, knowing that Zhao’s mind was swaying from side to side, Yan San and Zhao reluctantly accepted each other’s existence. Later, Meng Su also Okay, Yingjiu, I take it for granted that they will naturally find the woman they like, such a serious friendship, but I am sorry for all of them, I am sorry for all of them... "
The crying went from sobbing to choking and finally became a loud cry. The woman turned her head, buried her face in his chest, and burst into tears. Such a sad cry seemed to shed all the tears of the past ten years...
Caressing her back, He Li didn't make a sound, letting her vent everything.
Maybe, I really did something wrong, if my love makes you so sad, it's better not to let you know, so that you can go on without any burden...
When she cried until she was out of breath and her clothes were all wet, He Li patted her on the back lightly and said, "Look, I'm not a good person, and neither are you. Yu, I promise you, I will work hard to live on, and I will stick to it if I can stay with you for a moment longer, but you promise me too? Don't be sad and guilty about it. Those who have passed away, no matter who they are, Yan Whether it's the three, the general, or those other people, please believe in their sincerity, if you continue to blame yourself like this, then you will deny their love, and even in Huangquan, you will make them feel uneasy."
He helped her up, and kissed away the tears little by little, He Li said softly: "Please, don't deny your love for us, Qing Yu, you love me, right, the men in the Palace of Eternal Life, you all I really love you, right?"
Seeing her nodding with sobs, He Li smiled slightly: "Then don't deny yourself anymore, okay?"