But the heart that unconsciously wants to get closer is ready to move and is restless.
Walking around the square with her, shopping with her, seeing how powerful and dazzling she is, but the light in her eyes is so clear.
I seemed to enjoy watching her walk in front, and then I followed her.
Watching her buy things and watching her eat, I really like this feeling. It seems that even if I live like this for the rest of my life, I will never get bored.
She wouldn't understand how much of a throbbing heart I concealed beneath my pretense of indifference.
And this throbbing heart, when she was in danger, she really saw her own heart clearly.
I never thought I would be hurt by anyone, no matter how big or small.
As a person who lives in a gray area, I admit that I am selfish. In my eyes, my life is more important than anyone else, but in the moment of life and death, I took the bullet for her without hesitation.
That was the truest voice in my heart, and I desperately wanted to do it.
Fortunately, she is fine, and fortunately, I still have a chance to say those... words that have been in my heart for a long time.
But I didn't expect that Ye Qing appeared just right.
It caught me off guard and made me panic.
He heroically saves the beauty, he invites her to his birthday party, he always looks at her with a smile on his face, and his eyes are full of affection.
I felt like I was sinking to the bottom of the sea, and the feeling of suffocation surrounded me layer by layer, making me breathless.
If I were asked to recall the most painful time in my life, it would be the day of Ye Qing’s birthday party.
The rain was falling hard and her confession was harsh.
I vaguely remember walking aimlessly in the rain, step by step, like a walking zombie, not knowing the meaning of my life.
Why should I live? If someone else holds her hand, why should I live...
If I had not killed her when I first knew her, but had protected her, would the ending between us have been different
If I were brave enough to reveal my feelings, if I was domineering and didn't let anyone get close to her, would the ending between us be different
if... if...
But there are no what-ifs in this world. At that time, my mind was blank. There was only one sentence, which was like a spell that forced its way into my blank mind.
She doesn’t like me, she doesn’t like me, she doesn’t like me…
Over and over again…
I don’t know who brought me to the hospital. I only know that the originally black and white world turned completely dark on this night.
But it seems that facing my inner self, I am more sure of what I want.
It doesn't matter if you torture yourself to death, as long as you leave her there, it doesn't matter.
This was what I was thinking at the time, but I didn’t expect that God would give me a surprise, such an unexpected encounter.
She said that the person she likes is me, just like the person you have had a crush on for many years suddenly tells you that she likes you too.
In addition to excitement, this feeling is also mixed with countless emotions that cannot be expressed in words.
That night, I probably used up all the strength in my life to hold her tightly and said countless words in her ear -
'I regret it, I regret it, I regret it. '
Isn’t it okay if I regret it? As long as she doesn't leave me, as long as she's by my side, then anything is okay.
Really, anything goes!
Ding—Congratulations on the soul fragment entering the main god space 41/100. (To be continued)