On the day of our wedding, I saw Su Chen.
I saw the regret and unwillingness in his eyes, and I saw his clenched fists.
At that moment, I felt extremely proud.
Because I am the one holding her hand, and I am the one who can spend the rest of her life with her.
Can…
But…
But what I didn't expect was that I was actually sick...
The disease came on so fast that I didn't even have time to react. The doctor already told me that there was no medicine to cure it. I could only choose to die comfortably or to die with lingering breath.
I had very little time, and I had very little hesitation before deciding on this interpretation of the play.
Lan Zhi cried and told me that I should tell her the truth so that she could stay with me when I was dying and spend the last days of my life with me.
The affectionate Bi people in history always like to say: They don’t seek to live together, but they seek to die together.
But I... don't want to let her die together...
I have always thought that I was a dark and powerful person. I would try my best to keep the things I liked and the people I admired by my side.
I even thought that I was the kind of character that even if I died, I would not let her fall in love with anyone.
When death was just around the corner, I realized... I was probably not that kind of person.
She is only eighteen years old, enjoying youth and blooming season, she can also meet better people, make her happy, and drink medicine for her.
I was just a fleeting shadow in her life, but she was an indelible mark in my heart.
I keep this mark, but I want to be her shadow.
So contradictory...so contradictory that I want to become a heartless person. A young man who had just made an oath to her in white clothes fell in love with another person in the blink of an eye, abandoning everything in the world for her.
Ridiculous...how ridiculous...
Lan Zhi is willing to help me with this, and I am really grateful to her.
I know how difficult it will be for her to perform this story alone after I die.
Some people may say that she flew onto a branch and became a phoenix, but others must also say that she was shameless in robbing her good friend of her fiancé.
But she doesn't seem to care at all...
She said to me, although I like you, Qingchen is also my good friend.
Helping is what friends should do.
I had no way of knowing whether she would finish this story, her promise to me, because I couldn't have seen it.
This virus spread very quickly, in less than three days, and my body became more and more tired day by day.
Three days ago I could still write on this paper, but three days later I would sweat profusely whenever I moved my hands, as if I had used a lot of effort.
At first I couldn't lift my feet, and then I couldn't lift my hands. Then I felt weak outside my body and in constant pain inside my body.
The attending doctor was right, it really hurt... Could it be that my mother always cried in front of me, hoping that I could accept euthanasia.
In the eyes of a mother, she would suggest euthanasia for her son, which proves that she feels the same pain as me.
But actually... she doesn't understand...
The most painful thing... is the heart...
Whenever I close my eyes, the image that appears is the scene of me and her saying goodbye at the airport.
Her faint smile was like a dazzling light that broke into my world irresistibly.
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"Do you love photography or do you love me?"
"you."
"So not hesitant?"
"Without photography, there is just no other hobby for me, but without you..."
"What will happen?"
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Can I give you the answer now
Without you, I will die.
So if I hadn't died, I wouldn't have left you.
Ding—congratulations on the soul fragment entering the main god space 4/100 (to be continued)